when night falls, I wake up, to a world of fantasy and wild imaginations. welcome to my world.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
:: The Answer Is... ::
and it did make me think quite a bit..
been a rather hectic day,
attended a cooking class in the morning which I thought was rather "fei4"..
then went to dragon boating again..
felt good, although it can be a little tiring..
everyone has a passion
and weirdly, i seem to really want to get aquainted with watersport..
well well..
so back to kallang on saturdays, will be more positive, make friends..
and enjoy my saturday workouts + fun session + tanning session!!
The highlight of the day had to be Stefanie Sun Yanzi's 2009 world tour..
"The Answer Is.."
I am truly blown away by the show, completely!
it was awesome to the max, especially the STAGE!
its the most amazing stage I've seen in my entire concert watching life..
the show was so well planned, with the diamond cut background setting,
and endless changes..
It was a grand style concert I have never seen before!
and the costumes..
it made Stef shine like a confident, mature, radiant lady..
but i must still talk about the stage..
the many transformations and "ji guans" it has is simply amazing..
with just plain white light, it looks rather ordinary..
but when the strobe lighting comes on.. whoa!! tan4 wei2 guan1 zhi3 la!!
the whole lighting on the wonderfully down holed stage backdrop transformed the audience
into another fascinating world.. no bluff wor!
the different raisers and platforms were amazing..
the piano playing section was magnificent..
as stef "floated" in in a moving "cloud.." beautiful!
when it was near the ending.. the "rocks" by the side
was uncovered to reveal the great band who was working "backstage" throughout!
it was the best show I've watched..
the only gruntle i have was that there were not enough fast songs to get the audience standing on thier feet.. although i enjoyed all the songs..
i particularly did not really enjoy "green light" due to its arrangement.. abit la...
the final part when the stage extension moved out and rotated was another highlight..
and also when the image of her projected on a screen singing..
all these has to be experienced live at SIS for one to admire the whole beauty la!
seriously!
the title "The Answer Is.." was very cleverly brought out through the different segments..
but mainly, the key idea was that one should do whatever he/she wants to..
without much restrictions.. enjoying one's every moment, appreciating what he/she has..
that is the Happiness.. and that is the answer.. to life's never ending question..
I was inspired.. to take everything in my way..
to plan my daily live properly
to not waste any more time
and to try spending wisely from now on..
be a man that can be trusted and be a man of dignity..
excel in everything
at least attempt them..
don't give empty promises..
or dream too far out..
be realistic in the goals i set
and achieve them!
Be myself and be happy..
I hope that is the answer to my life's neverending question
and yours too!
Saturday, July 4, 2009
:: I'm Back! ::
As time past, I really wonder who are the ones who do pop by my blog once in awhile
who really bother's readin my blog to know who I am and how i'm doing
or any interesting stuffs I've been up to in the days before..
well
I think I've let many friends who followed my blog down..
my blogging have drastically decreased in recent times
especially since my birthday tt time
My sincerest apologies..
well, just a few updates..
Its the end of week 11 at CMC in NP
and the assignments are beggining to pile up..
poster design.. photography portfolio..
psychology projects...
design portfolios...
film project... study into mass communication, effects and components..
chinese writings... my CCA at OurVoiceBox.sg..
preparation for Danny Yeo's
lessons and tests in presentation
(i'm gonna teach my class Mambo dance moves.. haha, researching it now!)
and it gets really stressful.. as much I have tried to do my job on time
however.. it always seem impossible.. oops.. end up doing many last minute works since..
I shall change that!
really need a good break and go out with my close friends..
prolly for a holiday
never done that before..
i still very very much look forward to going Taiwan..
that is my biggest dream!
wonder if it will happen this year...????
My injuries have been improving, even though I did nothing to it..
and will be back in action in July.. this month..
I'm getting geared up for writing another play in 24 hours on 18-19july at marina barrage..
and I'll be getting back to dragonboating as a form to train up and get a tan.. LOL!
as soon as.. next week! cannot be lazy anymore.. its time!
will be watching Sun Yanzi's concert on 11th July as well..
gave up my chance to be NDP Usher this year because I think I can't cope with my work
and the training period got me a little bit down, because those weeks were really tight
with projects and tests due then..
so, no NDP this year, But I still look forward to catching it on TV!!
(unless friends want to meet up for dinner on tt day la)
Oh ya!
I'm also really excited as plans are in place for my primary school friends to meet up sometime in August! can you believe it? my primary school friends whom imany i've not met for a good 10 years.. and its all due to the power of facebook, that we have the chance of getting back...
our proposed meeting for chestnut 4A got stalled along the way.. people are just too busy when they grow up la! hope to meet those long lost friends from chestnuts too!
well, after this ssemester, I'll be heading down to Vietnam for a youth expedition project..
really looking forward to it
might be a life-changing experience! gotta start planning for it soon..
(i'm a project leader for a self-esteem lesson for the poor children over there.. omg, how??)
With lofty ambitions to start my own fashion and lifestyle magazine is still fresh in my mind as ever
I need collaborators la! anyone who might read this and keen in helping my kick start this,
either just by a blog then move from there
or got lobang help me learn how to establish or handle such a magazine..
do get to me ya! haha!
on a sidenote
this new idea came to my mind during a lesson sometime tis week..
prolly cause I was having lesson for visual comm (film)
I thought that if I were not to be able to get good enough results to enter university
(for that I mean NUS FASS/SMU Social Science/NTU HSS or WKWSCI)
I might as well now use my knowledge and my passion in creative things
built up a nice portfolio in design and film and photography..
and hope pursue a degree in NTU ADM Art Design Media.. in film or photography..
orh.. the days in NTU CAC, Epiphany, Hall 4... orh.. i miss my NTU days!!
(mayb NUS is fun.. LOL!)
alright.. thats just a short update on what's been happening in my life..
promise to update more often..
(ps, do check out my other blog too for random updates on life notes and other interesting ideas.. go to: mrisaac's livejournal)
Sunday, June 28, 2009
:: Hot or Not? ::
then happen to come across some of my friends..
do check out and decide if they are hot, or not.. LOL..
Studioline - Toh Ting Shu :: Hot or Not?
Studioline - Choy Wen Ting :: Hot or Not?
Studioline - Chia Wei Long :: Hot or Not?
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
:: nobody nobody butchu ::
watch and laugh!!!
:: retro ::
W has been randomly singing songs
which he said he has been waking up and humming to..
these old songs has some which are classic
and others are just random
he would then hunt for it on youtube
and then continuing to rest and snooze for a while on bed..
then during the day
he will pester me with these weird old songs
and ask me to entertain him by singing the songs..
without fail each day i meet him this two weeks
he will have some old old songs..
making me majiam a ge tai singer..
really.. with such songs like this.... dotz....
(apparently, this was taken at a Ge Tai at Eunos MRT, in feb 2008..)
and this...
:: 絶対彼氏 Zettai Kareshi ::
not that I specifically remembered when that was
but I do remember it was because I broke up with someone..
see.. guys cry too when a good relation ship comes to an end ok..
just as well
it was sad for me
thus I cried when I saw a good relationship ended
as well as my relationship with this fictional character on the macbook screen
as I was watching Zettai Kareshi (chinese: 绝对情人)
currently seen on Channel U on Fridays at 1130pm.
well well..
its a Japanese Drama about Kronos Heaven, a high tech science company
and their latest technology, a robot dedicated to love,
Nightly Series 01.
It began when a temporary staff, Izawa Riiko, met Kronos scientist Namikiri-san
at a pub she frequents..
he "introduces" her to the super lovable robot
and there starts a 5 days free trial of the robot..
before long, a love hate relationship grows
way out of proportion
and then there is Riiko's boss
another uber handsome Asamoto Soushi
who begins to fall in love with Riiko and her choux creme
(wat we know as cream puff, the beard papa type..)
the story is suspense filled,
funny at times
and more oft than not
heartwarming
i grew overly in love with the characters during the 11 episodes
which I finished within 2 days
and also during the special finale
(which I understood why they created, but somehow I felt it was quite unnecessary)
I still am completely mesmerized by lead actor Tanjo Night
(played by速水直道Hayami Mokomichi),
whom I seriously think looks like Dylan郭品超。
Soushi san, played by水岛宏Hiro Mizushima,
is such nonchalence at the start,
but soon he will grow in you.
相武纱季Saki Aibu,the female lead, is rather natural..
bet you'll hate the devilish "good friend" mika san
whom plot takes awhile to digest.. (not a very clear character actually).
the comic moments of namikiri san is also something worth watching for.. hehe..
it brings back the good old passion for J-drama
since the days of Hideaki Takizawa.. Haha..
now tt i've learn a little Jap,
its fun watching J-Drama and understanding some terms in it
especially when Naito says.. yo kata (i understand)..
Wahahaha!!
although its a little dated, this series,
but its definitely worth the watch
I must thank Channel U for ignited my passion in J Drama again..
I'm watching Oh! My Girl, starring Hayami Mokomichi next!!!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
:: moving on ::
and I really happy?
wat really makes me happy?
i think these days of "waste"
and letting time dwindle away are certainly not the ingredients to happiness.
I need to challenge myself somehow
to step out of my comfort zone
and not be the lazy bum I have been all these 23 years
studying is about working hard to pursue your ultimate dreams
slacking and waiting for something to happen
you will probably pass
but thats by a stroke of luck
i have walked several wrong paths in my life
and enjoyed quite a bit of luxury already
why do i keep insisting on such a lifestyle?
so many times,
i've told myself that i've to buck up.
but more than ever
its said not done
i'm still in my comfort zone
sleeping.. going out, doing aimless things
change? where?
in attitude
in thinking
for a better life
there are so many things i need to change
to be better in behavious
stop putting aeroplanes
be a man of my words
stop making empty promises
don't over indulge in the good things that happen by
think before making a purchase, whether it's necessary
be sure of wat i can do before committing myself
then commit myself fully to it
try and really spend all your available time to my commitment
be a better boy
a boy that can be trusted
and can be a role model for people.
move on.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
:: funky town ::
put your hands and welcome back
Isaac the bai kah
to the clubbing scene!
Mambo nights two wednesdays in a row
many upcoming nights at Play
friday nights at Butter Factory
sunday superstars at Zirca
all in plans..
late nights comes with a "dai jia"
but well,
its the holidays!
Wouldn't you take me to "funky town"
to meet "poker face"
in the "square room"
"I will survive"
coz all it takes is to..
"Just dance"
yay!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
:: 10道“美食” 10段故事 10次经验 ::
Thursday, June 11, 2009
:: 放空 ::
似乎一世界脱了节
那一瞬间,我脑子有感觉是到了另一个空间
顿时什么都想不起
什么也不知道
刚发生了什么都不了了之
稍候会做什么也捕打清楚
有种感觉,现在处生在哪里也不太清楚
世界停了电
何去何从都是个未知数
那段时间
周围地声音都好像知识杂音
自己再说话
也不怎么知道是在说什么
很可怕。。
silence.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
:: Preceptions ::
When opposing viewpoints are raised, one might react in two ways. The first being they react strongly against it, while the second being a change in viewpoint to follow the "majority" to "blend in".
This process of Perceptions involves three stages, including selection, organisation and interpretation.
In the array of information that is available to one, one often selects the information that stands out to him/her, and which has an impact of a certain degree to him/her. He/she thereafter organises thoughts of the particular information, sorting out the details that he/she has an opinion on, before giving his/her own interpretation on that information. This whole process actually happens in just a few seconds, but is imprinted in the mind for a very long time thereafter.
This perception created is strictly the viewpoint of one, and can be right or wrong.
To me, more often than not, I carry these "perceptions", and at many times, being biased, and might influence the people around me to these perceptions, negative or not. Especially in the case of stereotyping.
Being in a competitive society such as that in Singapore, and also being a "not-so-booksmart" person, I've had, at many points in life, steoreotyped different groups of people, and putting them in the negative light.
Back in my JC days, being from a bottom ranked JC, I often "talked bad" with regards to students from top ranked junior college, basing it on past knowledge and experiences of interaction. I would always label them as "aloof, arrogant, and "no-life"". It was only after in depth interaction with someone from a top JC, that I know my perceptions was wrong, and that I should not label and classify someone or a group so easily.
When I was in university, I was entered in a faculty which was dominated by "foreign talents". Many of these are scholars and are highly competitive. In the brief first few dyas I started school, and living in the hostel, I had terrible experiences with these Chinese nationals. This led me to stereotyping them and through conversations with friends, affected them, labelling and giving them negative nicknames. We would not see their "good", but to highlight their bad. They were classified as having bad dress sense, poor hygiene, uncouthed, etc. Me and my friends would instantly shun them on the streets and in the campus. In the later days when I was "forced" to do projects with a few of them, my impressions changed and was once again proven wrong.
As humans, we are prone to developing such perceptions about people, things and events, good or bad, but we should always try to be objective, and conduct perceptive checks before passing judgments on them. We should always try to be rational, and look at things from different angles, and accepting that there are different things and people in the world, things happen for a reason, and be able to look at things in different views.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
:: 困 ::
当你神经紧绷的时候
你盼望的是自由
奇怪的是
当你太过自由
却似乎失去了原有的自我控制
这时候 感觉无助、彷徨、害怕
因为失去了的 找不回
错过的机会 不会回头
浪费掉的时间 不可能倒转
世界只会继续旋转
困
困惑
困难
戒 解 接 借
戒掉坏习惯
解开绷住的线
接开前路的门槛
借用世界的时间与机会
我不要在让生命控制我了
我要掌控我的一切
现在~未来~
:: drained ::
physically and mentally
especially mentally
out of creativity
out of ideas
practically feeling that there's no more space in my mind.
Once again,
I seem out of control of my own life
I am letting my studies and projects take control instead
and on the free times I have
I sleep..
because I am so deprived of it.
I have no social life,
almost zero.
I am not going out and enjoying my life as much
as I would like to
I am not seeing the world
and feel left out
desperately..
The world is just running on without me
I am trailing too far behind..
i need to catch up with life
to pursue what I really want
to unleash the creativity hidden within
I need time and control.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
:: 谢霆锋《最后》成熟多了 惊喜少了 ::
阔别乐坛四年,谢霆锋再次推出全新国语专辑《最后》。听出岁月带来的沧桑,却没加入太多新惊喜。沧桑嗓音仍是特征,在摇滚快歌中发挥得淋漓尽致。
专辑中收录了九首新歌以及一首粤语版歌曲“Tonight”。近年来事业重心放在电影,这张专辑比较像是这些年的电影主题曲精选集。
当中就包括“可以可以吗”和“终点站”。主打歌“终点站”与歌迷们分享他的爱情观,描述着不离不弃的爱情,Nicholas更把歌深情献给妻子张柏芝。
经过人生历练的谢霆锋,明显的在多首歌曲中表示的更成熟稳重。专辑曲风与概念以航空母舰为主,配合着飞行导航者的造型,表现出Nicholas的酷,霸气十足。
开场曲“Tonight”,是首韩语翻唱曲。摇滚曲风强烈,但谢霆锋似乎无法掌控好,在主歌部分,音域偏低,独特标准国语发音更是听来有点辛苦。反而是粤语版“Tonight”,唱得较自然,更有感觉。“新雅廊”和“别管我”很有态度,仿佛回到刚出道时的那种豪爽态度。
抒情歌曲“最后的爱”和“不敢的天才”中,谢霆锋充分表现出浓郁的情感,深情表演的慢歌都相当耐听。值得一提的是,“最后的爱”由林夕改编的词,额有画面感,是久违的典型谢式情歌。
Soler与林夕联合创作的“好样”太“Soler”,虽谢霆锋已尽力表现出自己的rock韵味,却似乎走不出创作人的阴影。
专辑整体来说相当完整,由谢霆锋联合制作,听得出他的想法,更感觉到他的努力。很希望这不会是他的“最后”,相信将来能更有突破与惊喜。
:: 容祖儿《A Time For Us》用心的音乐最动听 ::
图:网络
出道10年的Joey容祖儿,刚推出了全新粤语专辑《A Time For Us》。刚获得2008年IFPI香港唱片销量大奖的Joey,在09年强势举行一连串演艺生涯10周年的庆祝活动,以这张广东大碟打头阵。《A Time For Us》以“我们的时期”为主题,收录了10首完美精彩的歌曲,呈现出粤语歌坛天后十足的唱腔与动感。
要在现今的乐坛打出个名堂,若不是有突出的外形,就是拥有绝佳的歌声,不然就是多才多艺,当创作型歌手。容祖儿却刚巧参杂在其中,外表不算太突出,歌声也不是特别好,但幸运的,碰到好的专辑制作班底,为她量身打造出首首动听金曲,一张张销量高的专辑。
这次《A Time For Us》也不例外。汇集了粤语歌坛中金牌音乐创作人和制作人,C.K.Yong,Eric Kwok和林夕等人,每首歌都让Joey有巨大的发挥空间。
Joey的专辑一大特征是传唱度高的K歌。主打歌“可歌可泣”就是个好例子。林夕的词加上C.K.Yong的优美曲子,听起来舒服之余,主旋律容易记得,听几次就能一次哼唱。
以Joey的知名度,广告代言不必多说。专辑就收录了3首Joey的广告歌。除了“可歌可泣”(百老汇电器广场广告曲),还有香港麦当劳广告曲“我所知的两三事”和可口可乐广告曲“开动快乐”。这两首快节奏的歌曲,调皮可爱。“开动快乐”让我想起王菲的“你喜欢不如我喜欢”,感觉却有点不同。口哨声是该品牌的特征,给人一种愉快的感觉,但本人觉得有一点别扭。
抒情歌曲方面,“搜神记”,“圆谎”和“时不兴我”都相当耐听。“It Doesn’t Matter”中,Joey歌声发挥很好,最能听出她的进步。“心贼难防”曲风新颖,玩出了一定的精彩,也表现出了Joey转音的实力,够新鲜。
专辑造型以非洲流浪民族为主题,附加的56页写真集是Joey迷必得拥有的。专辑整体制作用心,值得收藏。
这整张专辑再次让Joey尝试了不同的曲风,随着经验开始掌控不同的歌唱技巧。10年来累积的用心,让这专辑精彩,动听。
:: 吸收。反思。分析。- 非政治/人权?那又凭什么?::
在今天读到的一份保障报道,是我这几天来,最盼望读到的,但却同时令我感到非常失望。这报道就说明了缅甸政府对外界,尤其是美国和亚西安群国,对于缅甸所施加的压力,给予的回应。缅甸是由军士政府所管制的。而翁山淑枝,就是在他们眼里最大的威胁。这十几年来,军事政府得权之后,都在避免这让翁山淑枝带党出选选举,处处为难这位杰出的政治领袖,无论她是多顽强的支撑着,都似乎无效。这是民主吗?]
大约的解释目前的情况与事情的发展。翁山淑枝是于进5年前被扣压,以“政治”因素,违反条规,被判家中服刑。这段4年的家中服刑之前,翁山淑枝已在缅甸的Insein Prison牢房里“蹲”了一段时期了。这次的家中徒刑,原本已经将近到期,会在过去的26日被释放出来。就刚巧,在本月初的时候,有一位美国的记者“偷渡”过江到文山淑枝的湖边家中,并以“累”为理由,要求住在她家中。翁山淑枝原本不肯,毕竟是有可能触徒刑条规,拒绝了该男子,过后又已人道理由,“收留”了他两晚。 怎知此事被军方知晓,告她触犯条规,这次刑法,若罪名成立的话,是在度入狱长达5年。刚巧缅甸将在明年前举行民主大选,这一切,是巧合吗?]
过去的几天,连连发生了一些事。被扣压的翁山淑枝已开始出庭作证。在出庭的第一天,她已说明了自己的立场,表示是以人道的理由收留了该男子,并纯属给予他住宿。翁山淑枝更是坚持自己并没触犯任何的条规。在那之前,翁山淑枝首次被批准于一些国家的外交部官员与记者会面,但详细内容却是客观话语,似乎没有像是她会说的真正的话语,带有照稿说话的嫌疑。被扣压的这段日子,除了中国是保持中式立场之外,美国已经发言指责这次的事件。而缅甸的直接邻居,亚西安国家,都有意施加压力,提出了反对的异议。原本,亚西安组织个国是保持观望的态度,也曾经表示决不参与成员国的内部政治。但这次,其余的成员国都已表示立场,不鼓励继续扣压审判翁山淑枝。
昨天,缅甸的军方政府终于回话了。他们表示,这次扣压,绝对是内政法律的因素下扣压翁山淑枝,绝无政治或人权因素的干扰,更是提出立场说,决不向外界所施加的压力妥协,劝请其他国家避免插手,包括联合国世政府。
这样短短的新闻发布,令我非常难受。翁山淑枝到底犯了什么错?她的杰出才能,是众所周知的。怎么说,她也曾得过诺贝尔和平奖的加冕。若这一切不是因政权的因素,真的让人无法了解。
另一方面,文山淑枝在过去的十五年期间,当中有多达十三年是在监狱里,否则就是在家中服刑,这样过的。她坚持相信有着自由的一天,换回的则是世人的关心,自己的痛心。理想的和平与真理,何在?? 这样已外界视为非犯法的条列扣压他人,还连续已外界视为不成立的法则判罪他人,这不是触犯人权,是什么?
刚巧,在几个星期前也提到了一部本地话剧,由李邪所主演的“狂女日记”,还在当时说了此角色与翁山淑枝的相似度。当时说了,就算他被放出来,人家还是会已有色眼镜看她,觉得他是疯子。照情况看来,翁山淑枝这次判刑已相当确定是得服了。这样坐牢,也难免会成为政治疯子。
接下来,也只能密切关心局势的发展,为人权和政治权利保持己见。我相信,总有一天,缅甸军方政府会倒塌,由一个真正能带国家走入繁荣的政府取代。多久?我不敢想。希望,只能希望天理存在,放了翁山淑枝吧。
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
:: my back hurts! ::
argh!
its back to haunt me!
shit!
how?
my run this saturday!
damn!!!
please recover soon..
like when i wake up tmr it will be okay..
please
i beg.. you... whoever u are..
help!!!!
:: late night ::
which is supposed to be of 1200-1500 words..
amazing but true
guess wat..
i busted it..
final character count?
1899..
but well
i would say tt includes a section of lyrics of a sunyanzi song which is approx 150 char
so that does not count
plus an average of 10% of commas and fullstops..
makes it around 1500 la hor..
thats the thing
when u dun have something to start with
you worry
and when u start writing, you have so many descriptions you want to add in
and you might think very far how to develop the writing
then in the middle
you feel juxtaposed
if you want to carry on writing, when should you stop
and how shud it be developed?
will I be able to hit the word limit?
then when you get near the upper limit
you have even more things to write
then shit!
you fly past the upper limit and
pray no one notices that you have flown thru the roof
well
i managed to write my essay and re read it through
and though it still feels farny at some part
i find this essay really interesting
especially since its partially true
though mostly made up
(stop fantasizing, isaac!)
if there's a chance,
i'll post it up here.
though i think no one will be interested to read
those who really want, can always ask me for a soft copy..
haha.. for pleasure reading and let your imagination run wild!
LOL!
oh! wat am i doing here at this time,
its almost 3am!
(oh ya, lying on bed while writing essay has caused my back to be a little pain..
ominous sign tt i shud not go cheerleading practive tmr?? hmm...)
Monday, May 25, 2009
:: enjoy the present ::
Sunday, May 24, 2009
:: no time ::
to visit my blog to only read some rubbish in chinese
or stuffs that you are able to see elsewhere
like on my school blog diandao
or on mediaweb ourvoicebox.sg
worse
my chinese essays!
haha
but well
that IS the case
i've had no time and no creativity in even expressing my own thoughts
too much effirts have been INDULGED into writing for the above platforms
i've relatively no time in writing for myself
it seems now like a chore to be blogging
and that is sad
i find my life rather stale
not in the sense that its been boring
but i try to bring the "news" in my everyday life
first hand translate into chinese
and post it on diandao
which is supposed to be a platform of "communication"
between classmates and teacher danny yeo
but a you may know
writing there is not like writing as Isaac
because i need to take note of my language and to be able to convey the messages across
carefully and properly
and seriously lor,
how personal can you get writing in chinese right?
haha..
i now try to make it a point
as a promise to myself
that I will blog here,
in ENGLISH
with my viewpoints no matter what
to try to keep a promise and staying true to myself
blog at least three times a week
sharing my thoughts
and not just blaming my no time and no energy on my coursework..
damn..
but then again..
i've got a creative essay of 1000 words due in 2 days
5 business cards and logo designs to complete and a formal presentation
10 photos in different views to take (i need models!)
a project about media in taiwan
a project about social psychology to implement and experiment and report
and a blog to write on and communicate..
whoa.. never felt so "fulfilling" in my life
but well... at least i'm happy! i hope.. :)
Friday, May 22, 2009
:: 神木与瞳 摇滚精神震荡Lunar Bar ::
文:林觉豪(学生记者)
星光二班的赖铭伟和黄美珍(神木与瞳),二度来新在克拉码头Lunar Asian Fusion Bar 举行小型售票音乐会,全场爆满,摇滚音乐high 翻天。
超人气摇滚男女组合神木与瞳,继去年底到新加坡宣传新专辑时,曾到Lunar举行新歌演唱会。因反应热烈,在今年5月20日晚上,再度回到Lunar开唱。和现场乐队一同表演,除了唱出多首《为你而活》专辑里的歌曲,也为观众带来其他艺人的经典歌曲,摇滚精神引爆全场。
本地歌迷熟记非主打
音乐会一开始,身穿黑白线条搭配的Yuming和Jane,默契无间,带来了几首强劲的歌曲,如“武装的蔷薇”和“爱在末日前”,Yuming(赖铭伟)弹着电吉他,配合美珍高亢的嗓子,首首歌曲都让现场的观众一起跳起来。
进入Unplugged不插电的部分,Yuming开玩笑说要暗下灯来,才更有气氛。带来抒情歌曲包括“爱恋”和“理由”,显示出两人的唱功。非主打“不放”即使很少在公开表演,但这次表演在场的歌迷一却能跟着合唱,两人都赞本地歌迷厉害,熟背了专辑中所有的歌曲!
摇滚精神震荡全场
演唱抒情主打《草戒指》时,神木与瞳上前与歌迷握手,拉近与歌迷们的距离,更带领全场一起挥手,大合唱。过后,美珍松了口气,表示终于唱完所有抒情歌曲的喜悦,准备把音乐会推向另一个高潮。
把台上的乐器推到一旁后,两人演唱了张惠妹的“三天三夜”,继续high爆全场,舞池里的歌迷更跳动起来。Yuming和美珍飙唱的“自由”,也让人听出耳油!
最后,神木与瞳与歌迷一起大合唱成名曲“为你而活”,歌迷的声音一度还盖过了美珍的歌声,摇滚精神震荡全场,音乐会结束后仍依依不舍和歌迷们道别。
特别鸣谢:环球音乐
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Thursday, May 21, 2009
:: 朋友?::
是我不了解别人,
是我孤僻,
我的无声,
他人会生气,
是因为我年级较大,
或许,
:: My Adam Lambert ::
How could KA win?? Adam Lambert will win in terms of CD sales. Its proven. Idol results is not the true indicator, because votes are free! CD sales prove it!! Yeah!
Adam Lambert is my World Idol!!!!!!!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
:: Pinkdot . 爱的权力 ::
媒体会说,这是个示威,为同性恋者争取利益的示威,但我不赞同。
这是一个让世界知道,新加坡是个开放的社会。我们并不是在争取权利,而只不过是想分享我们的爱。
这是有史以来第一次那么多位GLBT(gay,lesbian,transgender,bisexual)一同为一个理念而站出来。当中,更有许多是straight异性恋者。但所有人都相信,如新加坡这繁荣的社会,不应该有对弱小族群的歧视。
我们应该是个包容的社会,尊重彼此,让大家都有这生活的权利,有选择爱的权利。
在傍晚六点钟,当所有人聚集时,一同举起手中的粉红气球与雨伞是,在其中的我,感觉到的是自豪、骄傲、光荣。这是向前行的新加坡。活动代言人,本地戏剧演员,已婚的异性恋者,梁瑞琳(Neo Swee Lin)在台上表示,她支持的是爱,因为我们人类都需要爱。"我们出生、入土都是独自一人,在短短的几十年人生,不应该单独一个人过。"
我和一群相信自己,相信自由的朋友,以及多为相信爱的国人,一同度过了u一个开心,有意义的下午。我们带走的,是感动,骄傲,和全新唤醒的爱的理念。
无论Aware风波造成的对同性恋者的敌意,无论法律条规377A是否被撤消,我们要的,不过是一群朋友,一同相信爱的人。
期待在明年参与更大一粒粉红点。为爱,努力!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
:: definitions (by me) ::
Lonely :: Not feeling happy.
Trust :: When there is someone I can think of when I am in doubt.
Emo :: Moments when I feel "suddenly lonely". When I get temporarily tempramental.
Very emo :: When I am obviously down but no one notices. I will act unusual, but no one will notice.
Friends :: Very important. I take everyone as friends. But apparently not everyone returns that.
Partner :: Someone I can trust. Alot.
Marriage :: Not really found in my dictionary.
Bonding :: Being by friends side, doing anything (not stupid) together. And everyone else have a chance to hear me.
Isaac :: Someone who has to talk and vent anger. Silent at times, but do pay attention to his hidden emotions. Don't give him his way? He will keep quiet, but beware.. 所谓,福建话说:静狗咬死人。don't corss over the line.
Isaac Lim :: Don't mess with me unnecessarily. Known for being 笑里藏刀。
Isaac Jue Hao :: Friendly guy. If you talk to him, he will soften up and talk crap to you. Not a very tough nut to crack. But first, make the effort.
Me :: Friends are key. Talk is essential. I may be a lame joke person. But, first you need to be friendly with me. When the bottle is opened, I will ensure you don't hear silence.
I :: Quiet person. Lonely. Enjoys loneliness.
我 :: 你不会真正的了解我。我的多层次面纱,只让你抓狂。要小心。要很小心!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
:: i hearts v ::
You will be my bestest bestest friend
ALWAYS
no matter our other relationship status
our friends
our studies
our work
our sexual preference
22 years le
how can you ever doubt it?
and say such dumb things like
"will we still be friends if you have another bf?"
dotz la
we are not mutually exclusive to one another lo
and since you don't believe my words
i must put on my blog
so that everyone may know
and your new baby will not suspect..
i got mine you got yours
we are still friends, buddies, brothers..
OK???? dotz..
:: bonding . 友谊的考验 ::
由于今天没上课,
约了一同去唱k。
全场下来
突然觉得莫名的孤独
那孤僻,antisocial 的feeling又回来了。
我真的不习惯如此emo的我。
因为那样真的很难受。
或许是因为我早前身体不适,
头有那么一点痛的关系。
但似乎,旁人也没查到什么不对经。
又或许他们还年轻,
无法了解他人。
朋友朋友。到底如何才是朋友?
我似乎已经忘了。
要到已经分开后才珍惜那段友谊吗?
i can't feel our friendship going anywhere further
is it just me or is it true?
我和中学朋友以及当兵队友那种bonding到了那里呢?
or am i just in the wrong clique?
真的希望不是。
i choose to think i am just too stressed
that i'm thinking too wildly.
its tough to blend in
really
not an age matter
just a personal thing.
当时看到的closeness好像lost了。
我的best friend 真的在这当中吗?
我还在等待。
thats the problem with big groups
you will naturally form small fractions
and when there are extraordinary relationships
things change
and as the quiet, queer, oft emo boy i have always been
i easily feel neglected.
how to make me feel loved? i do not know.
i just wait.. for the correct feeling to come.
:: 600 ::
At least its been freaking long since i wrote a proper post with regards to how i'm doing.. well well..
life has been pretty exciting, but tiring as well.. not sure how some things will turn up as, but there are already some disappointments..
CCA wise, i failed to get ino baracuda batucada, which is quite sad..
magnum force training just started, but its quite straineous, not sure if i can cope..
there's drama but i'm not v keen, mayb i've had quite enuff of it..
and then there's ovb n chinese soc? not v sure though..
but i now wish to concentrate on my studies, really.. even though i said the last time i must jiayou, but week 4 le, i still quite "diao er lang dang".. no good no good!
mayb not having a cca, i can concentrate on my studies, but hor, will b so boring right? hmm..
anyways, in terms of school, i'm really busy le lo..
every week seems so short
with sooooo many projects to do and so many assignments starting to pile up in the back too..
its especially scary!!
my friends are cool though.... and seemingly acceptable to me..
haha..
they are, well, rather innocent people, not yet tainted by the cruelties of this world.
so i can still feel very safe talking to them.. haha!
my other friends wise, well, we had a gathering with the chestnuts last weekend..
which was, what i'll say as zhongguizhongju, ok lo.. but hope the next time we can have more fun,
and make sure every body is HAPPY! as happy as attending my Happy! Party! LOL!
isn't it amazing how life is?
we plan so many things to happen like the way we want it to
but most of them time they fall flat
or an event just goes past and there seems to be things you planned to do but did not accompolish?
i guess that is just life, la.
instead of setting millions of aims,
we should take a step back and look at our life sometimes
is this really the path we want to take?
(no matter big or small decisions)
where should we really rest?
are we doing things on impulse?
where are we heading to?
is this something we will really be happy for?
why are we here?
there are a million of such questions
often left unanswered.
the next time when you meet me
please tell me
that wat we eat or drink or am at is not important
what is more important is that you and me are still good friends
and that we have not "mi shi fang xiang"
we know wat we are doing and are on our way to a blessed life.
it is not easy,
but we need to know if
we are happy.
just like W and I
i feel we are happy
because we can't always be the "perfect" couple.
there are the many imperfections in our relationship which we need to improve
there are the unhappy times that we whish never occured.
there are many things i wish i can tell everyone how much i feel the love.
there has been so many occurings that i dun know which one to share.
the sweet notings
the endless love n sex n kisses
the feeling is deep inside....
just like special friends.
they are always there for you
you know it
and thank god for it.
vinc.. thank you are your mere existance.
we had our "4 years" annivesary for something dumb a few days ago..
it was the day, 4 yrs back,
when i told him about what i really amd and he told me his feelings about tt.
it was farny
no idea why we would commemorate such a day.
now he has someone else he likes, who is soo gdi cute la..(i'm jealous)
i feel happy for him
though deep inside
i feel bad for "converting him" like i always said.
haha. some ppl say, you can't change a person, if he is queer, he IS queer.. well well..
anyway.. so much on my current thoughts and a round up of my messy stage of life now..
i feel really happy though..
there are little percents of unhappiness, grouch, confusion and other terrible feelings
but i shall always try to forget them
and lead a simplistic life and enjoy!
happiness to me and all my friends
and some random ppl who comes to read my blog.
this is my 600th post on Absolutmilo!! WOW!!
to the many 100s more of interesting post to come..
at this place where i share my life, my thoughts, my rants and my creative juices.
happy 600th post!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
:: 手紙 ~拝啓 十五の君へ~ ::
当时的我们,有着怎么样的理想?当时的我,曾经相信什么?或许,一切都变了。现在,我很希望,能说服15岁的我,要开心,要勇敢做自己,不要因为一点小事而放弃。我要对自己说,我要努力,因为,现在的确有点后悔,当时没用工,当时做错了选择。回想起来,从15岁至今,有整9年了。对十六七岁的你们,或许无法体会我的感叹。这9年来,我曾经开心,也痛苦过。青春就如此飞逝,往事就只能回味。我走过的,是一道又一道的门槛,偶尔路过了几个弯角,转进了“冤枉道”,毕竟也作了个蛮大的U转。因为社会和家人给予的压力,选错了路,曾得逼自己相信念理科会有美好的未来。天天挣扎着,怎么都不愿认输。
若能写封信给15岁的我,我会劝请他,要争取快乐。要坚持自己的信念与理想,要为自己的将来做准备,要勇敢说出自己的看法,要好好表达自己,要让自己的个性完整发挥,要努力扩大社交圈子,交越多的朋友。最重要,每天都要过的开心,充实。
其实,我现在就正在尽量弥补这些年来的“过错"。 珍惜这所有的朋友,珍惜这每一天,尽量开心。
听着Angela Aki(安芸圣世美)日语歌曲《手信~给15岁的自己》(アンジエラ。アキ ―てがみ),我感触良多。你们或许在未来的日子,能够更加对这首歌曲与词,有更深的体会与见解。
(这首歌曾是2008年日本NHK红白大赛比赛歌曲,也是2008/09年日本中小学合唱团比赛的指定歌曲。此歌收录于Angela Aki最新专辑Answer里。若喜欢舒服沙发音乐的人,不妨听听。我个人非常喜欢。)
《手纸 ~拝启 十五の君へ~》(敬启,写给十五岁的你)
拝启(敬启)
この手纸読んでいるあなたは(此刻正在阅读这封信的你)
どこで何をしているのだろう(身在何方,在做些什么)
十五の仆には谁にも话せない悩みの种があるのです
(十五岁的我怀揣着无法向任何人述说的烦恼的种子)
未来の自分に宛てて书く手纸なら(倘若是写给未来的自己的信)
きっと素直に打ち明けられるだろう(是否就能将一切诚实地坦露)
今 负けそうで 泣きそうで(此刻,好像就快输掉,好像就快哭出来)
消えてしまいそうな仆は(好像就快要消失的我)
谁の言叶を信じ歩けばいいの?(到底应该相信谁的话向前行才好呢?)
ひとつしかないこの胸が何度もばらばらに割れて(唯一的心无数次变得支离破碎)
苦しい中で今を生きている(无尽的苦痛之中,我仍活在这一刻)
今を生きている(我仍活在这一刻)
拝启(敬启)
ありがとう(谢谢)
十五のあなたに伝えたい事があるのです(我有话要对十五岁的你说)
自分とは何でどこへ向かうべきか(到底自己为什么一定要向着某个目的地前行)
问い続ければ见えてくる(只要不停的问终能看到答案的)
荒れた青春の海は厳しいけれど(狂风巨浪的青春之海虽然很艰难)
明日の岸辺へと 梦の舟よ进め(但是请将梦想的小舟驶向明天的岸边)
今 负けないで 泣かないで(此刻,好像就快输掉,好像就快哭出来)
消えてしまいそうな时は(好像就快要消失的时候)
自分の声を信じ歩けばいいの(只要相信自己的声音前行就可以了)
大人の仆も伤ついて(即使是已成为大人的我)
眠れない夜はあるけど(也还是会受伤会有睡不着的夜晚)
苦くて甘い今を生きている(但是,我仍活在苦涩而又甜蜜的这一刻)
人生の全てに意味があるから Woo...(人生的一切都是有意义的,喔喔...)
恐れずにあなたの梦を育てて(所以请不要畏惧去栽培你的梦想吧)
La la la la la la Keep on believing
La la la la la la Keep on believing Keep on believing Keep on believing...
负けそうで 泣きそうで(好像就快输掉,好像就快哭出来)
消えてしまいそうな仆は(好像就快要消失的我)
谁の言叶を信じ歩けばいいの?(到底应该相信谁的话向前行才好呢?)
ああ 负けないで 泣かないで(啊!好像就快输掉,好像就快哭出来)
消えてしまいそうな时は(好像就快要消失的时候)
自分の声を信じ歩けばいいの(只要相信自己的声音前行就可以了)
いつの时代も悲しみを避けては通れないけれど(无论是哪个时代悲伤总是不可避免的)
笑颜を见せて 今を生きていこう(但是请,展露你的笑颜,活在这一刻)
今を生きていこう(活在这一刻)
拝启(敬启)
この手纸読んでいるあなたが(衷心祝愿,现在正在读这封信的你)
幸せな事を愿います(能够幸福)
:: 法克这个人 ::
Saturday, May 2, 2009
:: 你Aware吗?::
Aware自三月份的常年会议至今,一直受到大家的关注。从聘用DBS信用卡部门副总裁Josie Lau为新管委会主席,到近日掀起的宗教纷争,同性恋者歧视性教育课程纠纷,都是因为“女性权利领导者”(feminist mentor) Thio Siu Mien 引领的。由于故事太长,我也就不在去解说,相信同学们比我更了解。
如今,Aware“两大派”的纷争主要是在于Aware启蒙成员(old guard)对新加入的成员和新的执委会感到不满,认为他们有着私下的反抗议题为主加入Aware。而新执委(new guard) 则坚持自己的信念,希望能够一改Aware近年来的“过错”。这批新执委其中有多人是亲戚,也是在Aware常年选举之前几个星期才加入的成员。他们其中也有多数是来自同一所教会,位于马格列通道的救主之堂(church of our saviour)。
前几天,该教会的主牧师更是表示有在教会的网站以及祷告会中要求会员到今天的大会为“姐妹们”加持。过后,该牧师更是为言行举止深感歉意。毕竟新加坡是个多元种族,文化与信仰的国家,我们不应该把个人理念强迫大人认同,更不应该硬逼他人接受自己信仰的教法。
近日的会议至今也得到了明显的结论,虽其中的Drama的确有点过火。
(最新消息:不信任新执委会投票结果:New guard (红衫军)761票,Old Guard (白衫军)1414票)
会议上全程乱一通,明显表示对红衫军的不满。其中NMP Siew Kum Hong 更是扮演着相当重要的角色。他虽然是男性,无法参与投票,但却到场为白衫军加持,更为广大民众申冤。现在,虽投票结果已经呈现在眼前了,但Josie与伙伴却坚持不肯歇下职位,明显表现出非常霸道的行为。(不信任票其实并不表示他们失去委员职位,但已失去大家的支持,应该“自动一点”)
红衫军如此不干脆,不直接,做事鬼鬼祟祟,不透明,真的是相当卑鄙。为女性争取权利还是为自己的信念与信仰牟利?只有他们自己知道。如果真的是不满之前Aware的企划与行为,他们应该做的,是自己开设另一个行动小组,而不是这样一低下的手法得到权利,霸占他人的组织。
这整件事今后又会演变到什么地步,无人知道。但人人都持有己健,应该做的是互相包容,使这国家繁荣。继续纠缠也是没有用的。
但我自己留意了这件事哪么久,只能说,我相信这不是终点。Drama相信会在接下来几天继续越演越烈。不知大家对Aware事件持有什么看法,这是个小组内的争论,还是同性恋者与“家庭概念”的冲突,或是有着宗教信仰的敏感争议呢?
(其实要说的还很多,故事还很长,但打到手累了,就在此结笔。对我来说,投票过后,我赢了。爱,不分你我,sorry to the Thios, *Boo*!)
*整段post是在会议举行的最后几个小时内写的,本作者心情混乱,若有得罪任何人,请多包容。文章纯属作者个人意见与主张,如有雷同,纯粹巧合。*
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on a sideline, do check out the full details of the EGM today from..
Wayang Party
cruz teng 丁志勇
The Online Citizen
oh ya, and remember to get a Shut up and Sit Down tee shirt!!
:: 2 weeks ::
i attended NP's english drama club as well
Friday, May 1, 2009
:: colours ::
rather unexpectedly, the short essay which i didn't put any effort in turned out to be pretty well received and won "rave reviews" amongst my friends. LOL!
by the way, now is no longer like the past when my essay was the best (like during JC or sec sch) when the others in class had mediocre chinese standard, my classmates now are all chinese pro, with majority being form higher chinese and excelling them.. I tried my chinese twice la, for both AO and O levels, and both time yield A2 only lo.. Not even a A1!!! roar!!
well, let u read my 简短,扼要,精彩,富有画面感的文章。LOL!!!
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Y*** Chen said…
故事完整,也很感性,文采佳。
Sunday, April 26, 2009
:: no more heartaches ::
And then a rather quiet evening.
There were mentions of break up
Or some time to cool off and rethink
Probably, just probably,
We might be better of as brothers
Who still shared the love n concern for each other
Leading me to think we seperated
That I was once again, alone, single.
After thoughts for a whole night
I felt bad, really upset
I hated the feeling of being lonely
N needed emotional comfort, somewhere.
I called him up,
Reluctantly
Hopefully we can forget about yesterday,
And be "together" again.
Just my stupid innocent thoughts
Of juvenile relationships
Where one breaks n patch again..
W picked up the phone.
And went, "morning sleepy dearie"
I flabbergastedly replied "who u calling "dearie""
"why? Wat happened boy?"
"oh, so it was just me who was an idiot to believe the words you said yesterday."
Yes, it really was.
So it wasn't any break ups
And hopefully never will b
Difference can be solved
And we will walk through it, together.
Love will always b strong
And the feeling will never fade
Maybe, just maybe, because we have grown to need each other.
And have already grown to rely on each other on many things.
The dependency..
:: boo junfeng ::
this is a talent..
he is uber cute to begin with
and has unique thoughts..
my newest ou xiang..
watched his new short film yesterday
Tanjong Rhu (the casuarina cove)
it was about the 1993 police entrapment at the once popular gay cruising spot
where 12 men were arrested one night
when undercover was there to trap these gay men
and thereafter charging them with outrage of modesty.
it was the last known entrapment exercise
and was deemed by the High Court after rounds of appeal
that this was a highly uncivilised action taken by the police.
more importantly
it was hearfelt, poignant, and it was not overtly explicit like many
pink related movies
it was also not overtly "activist" style..
the short film conveyed to us that the pink community can be all around us
be it our brother, friend, officer in military, neighbour...
like your nice and friendly boy next door here.. LOL..
and we have more than ever, merged them into life
and the "lifestyle" we've chosen doesn't have an impact on others directly,
really..
now back to Junfeng, my ou xiang..
haha.. his story creation is superb, the angle which he looks at the stories
are just so unique and fascinating
i really hope to be a film director/writer/creator like him la!
read more about him..
Boo Junfeng was born on 4th December 1983 in Singapore. He first attended film school at the age of 16 at Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Singapore. During his course of study, he went on an exchange programme at the Escola Superior de Cinema i Audiovisuals de Catalunya (ESCAC) in Barcelona, Spain, where he wrote and directed his first short film UN RETRATO DE FAMILIA (2004). The short won the Best Film and Special Achievement awards at the Singapore International Film Festival (SIFF) in 2005.
In late 2005, he attended the Asian Film Academy at the Pusan International Film Festival in Korea. This inaugural session of the programme was headed by esteemed Taiwanese director, Hou Hsiao Hsien.
After two years of mandatory military service, he made the short films KATONG FUGUE (2007) and KELUAR BARIS (2008). The former, a film adaptation of a play, won the Special Jury Prize at the SIFF in 2007; and the latter, a semi-autobiographical take on a boy’s experience of being conscripted, took home the Best Film, Best Director and Best Cinematography awards at the SIFF in 2008.During this period, he also directed a segment in LUCKY 7 (2008), an experimental feature film aimed at promoting collaboration among filmmakers in Singapore.
Between 2007 and 2008, he continued his film education at The Puttnam School of Film at LASALLE College of the Arts, where he graduated with the valedictorian honour, the McNally Award for Excellence in the Arts. His thesis film, TANJONG RHU (2009), is featured at the Panorama section of the 59th Berlin Film Festival.
He is currently working on his full-length feature debut with Zhao Wei Films, a production company helmed by acclaimed Singaporean director-producer Eric Khoo. The film project – SANDCASTLE – was selected at the Pusan Promotion Plan in 2008 and is slated for production in mid-2009.
It was interesting during the post show dialogue(the film was shown as part of Singapore Panorama Shorts 1
as part of Singapore International Film Festival)
that Junfeng mentioned that he was not an activist and never wanted to be
neither was he trying..
and that although viewers thought Tanjong Rhu and Keluar Baris had parralels..
he said he didn't see it that way and was trying to do straight films.. Haha.
by the way he is really supportive of Pink Dot
which I am too..
so for all my friends who are in the pink community or supportive of the pink community
do join us at pink dot event on 16th May at Hong Lim Park..
where we can all gather and have an aerial view picture taken
to commemorate our unique community
in pink clothes, and with pink umbrellas n balloons..
and when we do it in future years
we can see the pink dot growing..!!
:: (i hope i can) cancel my DBS cards ::
with regards the ongoing AWARE saga
this guy apparently came up with a good idea
that all those who disapproves AWARE's new guard to just cancel your DBS cards
as a form of rebuttal against Josie Lau and the Thios
instead of just sending hate mails in the forms of death threats
(which might in any case get you into trouble with the law if not careful)
Its been a roller coaster ride for the group i suppose
and more than ever (no pun on NP watsoever)
its positive impact on AWARE.
their membership doubled suddenly
and they've got the publicity
(as they say no publicity is bad publicity.. haha)
The indignant pink gay and lesbian community has been once again catapulted itself
and suddenly,
the "bonding" of the gays and lesbians have arose once again
(the last time was thanks to the junior Thio)
well well..
the Thios definitely know how to attract attention
first with their unique surname
(anyone else with the surname should feel pretty disgraced)
and then their "pro-family" stand
on a side note
W n me have always been pro famiy
be it our family or the family we might have in the future.. LOL
(though its over, for now...)
back to the AWARE case
i hope it will be resolved and tt my pink friends will not be so
aggravated by it anymore
i sincerely hope the eogm next week will run smoothly
and an amicable result obtained
(my stand? erm, topple the new exco and form a newer exco?)
its turned pretty ugly because the controversy is just bad
i would say the media has been painting pretty ugly pictures of the old guard at the start
but now
i see the balance
both sides are ugly in their own ways
but with more understanding
we all have our sides to stand on, i hope..
we shall see what happens..
But to ask me cancel my DBS card?
dun want la..
its already a important part of my social life
Hahaha..
oh ya, why wasn't Josie Lau sacked huh?
then they can anyhow sack some poor staff at the AWARE centre for some minor things..
these new guards very bu jiang li hor..
tsk tsk...
Saturday, April 25, 2009
:: release ::
We both felt I needed space.
I needed space for growth,
I needed to develop myself.
I needed to understand myself more,
As a gay boy in Singapore.
I had to develop my own stance.
I need to know what a relationship meant.
I needed to know my own life, with my parent n friends.
I can't live n change myself.
Love n monogamy needs to be understood.
He can't be the dictator of my life, yet.
So I should stand on my own,
And feel what it was I really want.
Is it really him or was it someone else?
There's too much doubts we had to clear.
Before we really understand Happiness.
Love is a jigsaw puzzle
It needs to b a perfect fit.
Friday, April 24, 2009
:: 志同道合 ::
And it's been a hell of a week.
I've made new friends. Many many.
And tried many foods around school.
Talked all sorts of rubbish.
And experienced interesting n horrid lecturers.
I took part in a dance competition, performing an Indian song.
And got myself involved in a myriad of CCAs.
Magnum force, stage factor, batucada, new revolving age, ambassador, our voice box, canoe polo..
Not sure which one I'll stick to though..
Friends had been a major factor.
Especially a group of close friends.
Because in uni, I stuck close to my army friends n even epiphany friends, we onli met once awhile.
The close close bonding was just missing.
Glad now to have made instant friendship
With this group of great peeps..
Hao Jie, mabel, Jing yi, serene, jolene..
Playing dumb games n lunching together.
N even going out to orchard together on week one.
Haha.
Didn't expect such close bonding with ppl 6 years my junior actually.
Bit really glad.
Hope to get to know u all deeper,As well as let u all know me better.
Hope u won't b scared of me
N we can b great friends for the next three years.
LOL.
It feels great!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
:: mrisaaclim ::
my livejournal is once again up, alive and kicking..
do go over to look at photos and random updates..
both blog will be regularly updated, one more personal..
check it out..
mrisaaclim at livejournal
Friday, April 17, 2009
:: 始终 ::
或许是因为
太过于习惯这里了。
或者是因为怕搬了家后
却没人到新家去拜访。。 顾虑太多了。
可能。。 可能是放不下absolutmilo这个“品牌”
怎么说,也与我度过了多么多的欢乐与悲伤
进入了一段感情,然后也走出了。
同样的,与我庆祝了三个生日
是我成年的最好纪念。
Sunday, April 12, 2009
:: 2nd home ::
a person change.
absolutmilo.blogspot.com
it will be a site with few updates
more on my life
on a real Isaac
the new Isaac.
see you again, soon.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
:: suddenly ::
That W is not the W I know.
That my friends are all new and unfamiliar.
That I am young again.
That I was madly in love with this guy I met for the first time.
That I was a sports person playing a few sports.
That I was a great student awaiting to enter uni.
That I was soon going to be a radio presenter.
Soooo many dreams. It may be scary to think of it now.. But I think I secretly hope that most of them will some real.
(really, I had a dream and all the above happened.. Especially the part I was introduced to W, he had another Chinese name different from the one I know, I just can't remember wat it was in my dream.. Weird.. And tt someone whom I wanted to date and became my partner, all in the dream,, it was a looong long dream.. Yeah..)
Friday, April 10, 2009
::華人。華語。華文::
i have been feeling the urge to brush up on my mandarin and chinese
especially since i realise that most of the time when we talk and read
it is in english..
we often forget that we actually use mandarin unknowingly
but think that we normally only use English.
we only remember that we read the newspapers, blogs, internet articles, googles,
facebook, twitters and play games in English,
but we listen more to 933, watch channel 8/U/taiwan shows in mandarin/chinese.
what comes to my attention more is the fact that actually
the worrying thing to me is not speaking or listening to mandarin/chinese
but reading and writing chinese
because this will be a quintessential part of my next three years
(not forgetting working in a chinese media environment and living in china for up to a sem)
hearing and comprehending wat others say in chinese is not so much a problem
but reading and especially writing
i initially wanted to write this blog entry in Chinese using pinyin
but i realise i'm not very good at that because i grew up with using chinese in handwriting only
not on computers.. (even my days at fridayweekly, i was super slow always on the comp la!)
so now
i seriously need to brush up my chinese
and know the cuo bie zi(s)
and knwo which are the correct form of writing
and write in proper characters.
because i've not touched chinese officially for at least 5 years (after J1)
so it might be a challenge..
i don't want to lose to these kids who have been studying chinese for the past 10 years (pri+sec)
and i know i've bteer knowledge in the language
i super don't want to be laughed at with my poor command of the language
or for the lecturers to laugh at mefor cuo bie zi.
I know i used to give chinese tuition
but i guess i need chinese tuition now..
pass me the i-weekly/zaobao.. i shall start writing essays to zaobao again! Haha!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
:: danny yeo ::
A former YES 933 and ufm 1003 DJ, he currently blogs on omy.com and teaches at ngee ann poly.
He was a great dj. He speaks with knowledge and character. He is in a class of his own, a fantastic DJ, really. 很有深度,内涵,品味,态度的绅士。
He really is my 偶像! Super idolize him la. Registered for this course of Chinese media n communication partially because he's teaching (and also for my passion in Chinese AND mass comm).
I took a look at the unconfirmed timetable just released and yay, he will be teaching me Speech and Presentation Skills on Tuesdays from 2 to 6pm.. Haha..
Hope tt tt is true. Can't wait to attend his lessons. Bet it will b fun! Cool 毙了!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
:: 叶子 * 怀念阿桑 ::
姓名:阿桑 / Judy / 黄嬿璘性别:女
:: The Happy! Party Thanks You! ::
Once again, Thank You! For being part of my 23rd Birthday Party, the Happy party. In the midst of the rush rush 4 hours, I missed many opportunities to take much more photographs (Haha) and to make relevant speeches to thank my revered friends and sponsors.
The Happy! Party was the third party, as part of the Pure&Sexy Party series. Thank you to my old friends who have been to all three parties, and hope those who joined me for the first time enjoyed it as well! This year’s event was part of the ongoing Pink month, organised by 5-Degrees Network. It supports GLTB businesses in Singapore. Thank you 5-Degrees and its founder, Mr Willie Chan, for your staunch support for the event and generous sponsorship.
The birthday caps, as well as birthday presents for the other Birthday boy and girl was sponsored by 5-Degrees. Best dressed prizes for the attendees were especially provided by Urban Concepts Connections, which can be found at Cineleisure Orchard. The snack pack in the brown bags were provided by Canteen@P, a snack and drinks corner located at Tanjong Pagar Road, next to Play Club. Party Treats folders and the many items inside were mostly had made and designed by me and my friends Vincent Yeo and Melvin Lum, thank them for helping with the crafts, as well as 5-Degrees for the fund to purchase the materials. The handmade sweets from Sticky can be found at their shop at Central. Thanks to Sticky for the partial sponsorship of the sweets, as well as Marsh (found at Duxton Road) for the bottles. Book prizes for birthday babies were brought to you by Books Actually (on Ann Siang Hill). THANK YOU ALL who helped in a way or another! Thank for the generosity!
I also like to thank each and everyone for your attendance. To my Epiphany Friends, Dianne (and Kenneth), Cassandra, Shimin, Meryl, Michelle and Joseph. Thank you all for the memories and friendship in the past year. Great fun knowing you all! Hope you all had fun!
To Weilun and ChinHuat, thank you bros! See you all sooooon!
To 3238 people (the badminton clique!),Weizhi, Anderson, Ronnie, Roger, Sir Seng and Eugene, thank you all for being a pillar of support in the past years, especially the past year where I underwent a “turmoil”. Haha. You peeps are great people and hope this close knit friendship will last.. Thank you for being here.
To my Chestnuts, Julia, Jian Rong, Cheng Yee, Darius, Guan Yi, Hui Ting, Eunice, Zhiwei, Jonathan and Zhen Hui. You guys ROCK. Thank you thank you thank you! Thanks for being such great friends all these years and looking forward to many more meet ups which are going to be much more fun!
Thank you, and to all those who have exams around the corner, I wish you all the best. Hope to see you all soon!
Lots of Love, Hugs and Kisses,
Isaac [Happy! Boy]
P.S.: Do find selected pictures which you can use in the Happy! Poster or the Happy! Photo frame! in your postal mailbox within the next few days. There’s also door gift vouchers which I missed distributing that evening. Enjoy!
Monday, April 6, 2009
:: The Happy! Party 2009 ::
A BIG Thank You to all my friends who took the time out
to accompany me for the one evening
It was fun for me! Was really happy with the chit chats
wild games, food and photo takings...
thanks for the wonderful gifts as well
really.. your presence was what made my day complete!
I promise myself
i shall keep celebrating my birthday each year
plan for them myself with my friends.
however
from now.. i will no longer have such big parties
coz i tink too big v hard to connect to everyone..
but i will still have the parties.. no worries..
in fact..
i've somehow have plans for next year's party le!
Yup.. at least 2 different events for 2 groups le..
more atas than ever..
the BEST way to thank all my friends!!! YOU!!
i have loads to say, but for now..
i shall let the pictures do the talking.. look at these!!
ss.eugene.ron.roger.weizhi.andy.zac
zhiwei.eunice.zhenhui.yihao.jianrong.julia.zac.darius.chengyee.huiting.guanyi
wat's left of my pj clan..
weilun.zac.chinhuat
zac.joseph.kenneth.meryl.michelle.cassandra.dianne.shimin
More pictures all uploaded on Facebook..
look out in your postal mailbox for more surprises!!
see u all sooooon!!!
:: Its gonna be a HOT WINTER! 热冬 ::
Haha.. I love gyms too.. Nice place to ogle.. Muahaha..
Its really no wonder Jolin's new song is SOOO targetted at queers! So many songs are suited for us la.. gyms.. no boyfriend only real man.. evolve into butterfly.. love like parachute.. u happy me internally injured.. soooo many..
anyways.. here's the lyrics for 热冬..
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气候暖化我的心却在冬眠 桃花少到比北极熊还可怜
周末夜也没有半通手机来电 跑步机前才找到养眼画面
不必再control 不必ㄍㄧㄣ爱错回收 看对眼直接行动 这一季将是热冬
当对的你出现会有暖化感觉 在雪花消失前只想和你热恋
热情的拥抱冰山也会溶解 当爱点燃整个冬天
it's gonna be a hot winter a hot hot winter hot winter a hot hot gonna be a
hot winter a hot hot winter hot hot hot hot ...
地球暖化前要去不丹花园 别想南极企鹅孤单在冰原
健身房不该变成相亲地点 满身大汗哪还有浪漫空间
:: 花蝴蝶 ::
only want to be pretty
I have evolved
and am still constantly
evolving....
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花蝴蝶 歌手:蔡依林
环游了世界全世界
却发现美丽没有旗舰店
谁穿着钉鞋不肯变
停止了自转变成一个茧
你我都希望特别
又不敢太过于特别 yeah
流行是一种安全
搔着闷骚的太阳穴
你是花花世界里限量版的花花蝴蝶
美女们只是比较豁出去比较敢一点
花蝴蝶的美的艳的炫若没三审定谳
那些路人甲们凭什么发言惹人讨厌
快离开冬眠赶快破茧
别被无聊困在地球表面
想灵魂出窍甩平凡嘴脸
就自创品牌靠自己变脸
当你不刻意特别
突然就会变得特别 yeah
只要别越描越黑
你的眼睛就会放电
你可以瞬间飞去东京巴黎米兰纽约
别让别人嘴里的形容词左右你视野
如果有人的魅力足够为这世纪代言
那是她敢站出来变成蝴蝶飞舞翩翩
那些路人甲们凭什么发言惹人讨厌(准备惊艳)
你可以身穿花花限量的花蝴蝶
你可以比你想象中再爱炫再敢一点
你可以自己决定没得最后三审定谳
你可以让路人甲闭嘴惊艳
Thursday, April 2, 2009
:: 妥协 ::
所有改变 只为了进入 你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍
才发现 是你的心太野
你 画定楚河汉界 我 不能轻犯规
所有时间 都是先给了 你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险 成了你的傀儡
一年 两年 才看见 我有多狼狈
爱到妥协 到头来还是无解
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒 我躲在我的 世界
你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解 不会变 不再徘徊
开始自己的明天
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
:: 5 Ms ::
Just learnt of this, which I tink is quite farny..
The 5 Ms of Mat Rokers..
Minah . Marlboro . Motosikal . Metal . Maintain Balan..
If no, sure Mati. Farny siol!
:: photos and reflections ::
http://roychiu.livejournal.com
Do look over there too! All new April.