Wednesday, December 31, 2008

:: final moments of 2008 ::


Best wishes for a great new year from Isaac here, right here from the Marina bay singapore countdown. The wishing spheres are lighted, the buildings at the Marina financial centre looks gorgeous. All awaiting for a great new year countdown party..

:: happy new year everyone! ::


May your new year 2009 be wonderful, filled with blessings and happy stuffs, little worry and trouble, and be loved. My resolutions for the new year are: 1) to be more of a fashionista. 2) to study hard, like really hard, if given the opportunity. 3) to be more careful with money and spending. 4) to have my own stand on things. 5) to treasure true friends. 6) to be able to nurture my talents. 7) to be involved in more community work. 8) to be commited to things i'm involved in. 9) to love without boundary 10) to be a good boy 11) to respect my mother and appreciate her more. 12) to built stronger ties with my relatives. 13) to be more independent. 14) to lose weight and be healthy. 15) to spend time wisely. 16) to not be late for appointments. 17) to be a man of my words. 18) to built a unique personality. 19) to be more outgoing. 20) to not let age be a factor in life. 21) to know what is right and wrong. 22) to settle down in life. 23) to be happy! 23 resolutions since i'm turning 23 in 2009. Yup. Be prepared for the party of the year, friends!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

:: LNY09 - c-jade 长胜十三幺 ::


Huat ah! Its really cute lo. C-jade presents "shi san yao" mahjong cup cake 14 pieces set. Lol. What a prosperous new year it would be. There's even a 14 pieces 发财大三元 "da san yuan" mahjong cup cake set. I want! Sweet sweet Huat Huat new year!

Monday, December 29, 2008

:: c-jade 明火白粥 ::


If you never tried the plain porridge before, its never too late. Its my favourite must have. $2 for a bowl of flavourful porridge, although plain looking, but within, it packs a punch. Its not overwhelmingly salty, but the hints of seasoning makes it irresistable. The most obvious being the smell and taste of dried scallop. Ooh! It taste great even on its own. Not just for the sick..

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

:: Big Christmas Holiday! ::

When (renowned astrologer) Susan Miller

said that it would be a great Christmas,

I had no idea it would be this big.



Merry Christmas to all my friends!

May your Christmas be as wonderful as mine!

:: retrospective ::

As yet another trouble filled year passes

we look at in reminisent of the better days we had

and praying for the year to come to be better

filled with more merry moments

and less disasters, natural or not.

But Isaac is basically a simple person

who doesn't hope for much

just that he can be happy without much worries.

I really enjoy giving

it doesn't make me feel like a saint

but i just like to prepare some love

and share with my friends.

After a collection of Absolutmilo sweets tubs and photo frames

Absolutmilo CDs and poetry books.

Absolutmilo chocolate shot glasses.

This Christmas,

friends whom i meet this week have been or will be greeted with the newest

Absolutmilo champagne class / red wine bubble.

The newest in the Absolutmilo collection.

As much as i'm looking forward to next year

when i'm going to be much older (21 seems just yesterday while 23 has slowly crept up)

i'm looking forward to a nicer custom made gift to share with friends

to let you always know

that I am by your side

accompanying you whenever you are down and out

or when you just feel flat.

I want to be all around you

to provide you warmth.

But troubles will be the only constant

thus we should face it when it comes.

feel blessed you have friends.

and they are the ones you need to cope with anything.

(just like as much as i don't subscribe to someone's idea of a union,

but i still pretty much want to share my happiness with all.

such dilemma..)

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

:: superstar ::



daren!~ drool!
haha..

(this is so super random, but... he is so shuai, and young and energetic and can sing so well.. muahahaha!!)

:: egotism ::

The Prime Minister of the Tang Dynasty was a national hero for his success as both a statesman and military leader.

But despite his fame, power, and wealth, he considered himself a humble and devout Buddhist.

Often he visited his favorite Zen master to study under him, and they seemed to get along very well.

The fact that he was prime minister apparently had no effect on their relationship,

Which seemed to be simply one of a revered master and respectful student.

One day, during his usual visit, the Prime Minister asked the master,

"Your Reverence, what is egotism according to Buddhism?"

The master's face turned red, and in a very condescending and insulting tone of voice, he shot back,

"What kind of stupid question is that!?"

This unexpected response so shocked the Prime Minister that he became sullen and angry.

The Zen master then smiled and said,

"THIS, Your Excellency, is egotism."

Monday, December 22, 2008

:: save me! ::

just chanced by this joke..
taken from apple yee's blog...

有一天魔王把公主抓住, 公主一直叫…

魔王: 你尽管叫破喉咙吧, 没有人会来救你的! 哈哈哈!!
公主: 破喉咙~ 破喉咙~
没有人: 公主~ 我来救你了!
魔王: 妈的! 说曹操曹操就到!
曹操: 魔王! 你叫我干嘛?
魔王: 哇唠! 看到鬼!
鬼: 靠! 被发现了!
靠: 胡说! 谁发现我?
谁: 关我屁事?
魔王: Oh my GOD!
上帝: 谁叫我?
谁: 没有人叫你啊!
没有人: 我哪有?

从此, 魔王精神分裂…

damn hilariously lame..

:: Ip Man ::

At the cinema last evening, W pointed to the electronic display outside one of the halls and exclaimed that he wanted to watch that movie. T scratched his head and asked, “IP Man? What’s that show about? Some tech show? Tracking criminals through IP addresses?”

We looked at him in amusement. “It’s a Chinese show lah! Not Eye Pee Man. It’s Yip Mun.”

Saturday, December 20, 2008

:: knowing ::


I love this man. For whatever there is to love. And knowing that we are on the way.. To paving a future. Hope you understand. If you don't, too bad. Maybe you aren't that close a friends. No more hints. I've decided to give the biggest hint le. Well, no. Its an expose. U don't get it? You are an idiot. You feel awry? Too bad. You are my friend? Then give us your blessings.

:: old flame . new love . future ::

we were packing out old stuffs
seeking for things to take out for sale at a charitable sale yesterday
when W came across a pair of alphabetical bears
with W and B on it.
as well as a bottle of origami stars
painstakingly jottled with love messages and then folded



wow..
that is so sweet and diabetic, ain't it

well
it belonged to a past relationship of his
a rather looong relationship
he told me, 6 years
and till now
after reading a few of the love messages
he feels each of them.

they shared a love which was unique
and let me to see a tender side of him
for a strong and grown muscular man
to have a love affair like that
is quite unbelievable.

it makes me cherish him more
and he to me too.
it is just memories, and will be
to be kept in an important place in his heart.

now, he says, he has me
and there's no need to be jealous.
for past can never mix with present
and i'm, but his future.

(i'm getting rather diabetic now..)

he told me yesterday too:
"I looked at these. I realised how much I loved B.
And how much I still love B."

he packed it up
and returned these to B at the club today when they met
and right after
in front of a group of friends
popped the question, once again, to me.

i felt it was right
and so, "yes"

:: W ::

it definitely wasn't the first time he was asking and we were discussing about it
a nice union to celebrate and commemorate our love
and i swear i wasn't on a sugar high/ sex pills/dead drunk
to finally agree to the idea (or proposal)
of the "wedding" or "marriage"

you see
due to the unconventional relationship we are having
the "normal terms" just don't quite apply to us
however
we are but two normal man
who are, really, in love.

the reasons are aplenty
but yes, we are going into it
hopefully
with predictable outcomes...
(though at this point, the happiness has just started sinking in, but no real concrete plans has been set, yet.)

we have been together for about 10 months now
not a really short period of time
but as compared to many more
it is not that long either
but he always say
its the love that's important
and age is not a factor
you might think its childish
and just some fantasy
but to me,
this wildest dream
IS taking shape.

i would prefer just a simple ceremony
but he has differing views
not too elaborate
but not too simple too
he is a man with stature
and adored/fantasized by many
to him, it is an announcement
he's taken, keep out!
while to me, its just a nice sweet way of him promising me
to be there...

i want just a ceremony
he wants a dinner
at a nice friend's place for me
at a church, then a club, for him
just a few common friends for me
all our friends and families must be informed, for him
a quiet affair for me
a lifetime effort no less from him.

we have differing viewpoints on matters in life
but we share a special chemistry
which just churns out much more sparkles each day
probably that's what you will label as
love.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

:: (not so civil) union ::

strangely enough
i'm now using a lappy
while attending a union ceremony of one of our best friends
really nice..
its specially planned to be held late at night here at Play
and only invited guests are sitted around.
a nice buffet spread of fine wines and cheese nibbles awaits at the counter
and we are still waiting for the grooms to appear
in a few minutes
they had specially selected today as tmr (17/12)
was when they first met 3 years ago and got attached..
how sweet right. even if its not a weekend (its onli the start of the week)
all their friends have made it a point to come and celebrate
although its just a union in name
and does not specifically have any significance in name of law
but its just really nice
because there are many people who don't believe in gay couples being together
and even those who are together, do not believe in unions.
but i tink a union is a promise to each other
a simple party (or not) is a way of telling and sharing with your friends
your joy and happiness
and also having them share with you their blessings and believes in the couple.
contrary to wat J thinks that its just another gay wild party
i tink it has much more than it appears to mean
and i feel blessed to see two of my friends
who have dared to step out
be themselves
and share their lives with one another
and telling people around them.
more importantly
their families and friends are here to witness this event
which makes me think
they are really courageous to come out to their parents.
tonight
i wish tony and branden happiness always
and may we always share the love you two have for one another
and more importantly
may your love go on forever...
will i ever have such a day?
i really dare not even think about it.
*by the way, the black tie event has close to 100 guests, and has a theme, sexy sensual silver,
that is like sooooo Branden lo.. *
waiting for the ceremony to start..

Saturday, December 13, 2008

:: day at museum - Zhang huan ::


Yet another installation at Voom portraits. The butterflies on his face and body are real and moving.

:: day at museum - moving chandeliers ::


The chandeliers are moving in like pendulums. Quite a sight to behold. Very interesting and pretty as well. I visited the National Museum yesterday, since i think i shud not waste my holidays slacking at home. Went to view 2 exhibitions which was temporary, Voom portraits and Doubleness. Voom portraits are a collection of life videos which if you never notice would be a portrait, but the are live movements and with the music accompaniments, tells of individual stories. Captivating. While doubleness is a collection of photographs and videos by chang chien chi, a taiwanese photog. Three thematic collections can be found, one about asian men going to vietnam for brokered marriages, another about the mental patients chained together at a healing centre in taiwan called Long Fa Tang. A third about a chinese men who go to new york illegally to work and are separated from their loved ones. Touching, moving, each with a unique story to tell. Each picture really tells a thousand words. I would definitely go back to the museum soon to explore more. Any one keen to join me in my next trip?

:: day at museum - a part of 百家姓 ::


One small segment of the hundreds of surnames of chinese. Some we often come across, some relatively unheard of. A fragment of them are double word surnames. Really interesting. Especially in tis age and time when we no longer put emphasis about our ancestral roots.

:: day at museum - Brad Pitt ::


A moving portrait. Literally. Captivating. The rain, the gun, the bare chested brad. Drool...

Sunday, December 7, 2008

:: c-jade 口水鸡拉面::


很辣, 但不适合我味口. Not my favourite la mian, really.the chicken comes with bones intact. Eee.. And its kinda like mee pok dry.. Haha. Quite authentic, but not my choice..

:: at esplanade . Art? ::



:: alot alot of chocolate ::  


That much chocolate! Argh!

:: death by chocolate tis christmas ::


This tower is made by chocolate. Dark chocolate. Real edible chocolate. What a waste of chocolate..

:: after my first marathon ::


42.195.. Running a distance like that, the final few markers of 50m don't matter. You only get the runners high of completing a well ran run. Its the finish that i'm concerned. I did it.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

:: when blogging can't serve its purpose ::

i initially intended to just rant on this blog
views that i have and am closely related to about a club which i am in
but after many thoughts
i tink i shall not
since there may be people reading this and i don't want to hurt their feelings
then i'm tinking of my LJ
since its a more private (to me) avenue to express
but yet i also know there ARE people who might also be reading tt and get hurt indirectly
so this comes to the point
whether blogs are just a way to let out your frustrations?
or to show your love and make it look like a beautiful movie
if its a form of expression
when am I having such reserves
well..
its kind of hard when such a thing occurs
but this being my diary i really want to just say it out without any biasness
and not tt i'm supporting such a stand simply due to the fact tt my opportunities have been taken away
for i do not care about tt at all..
the drama club which i am currently involved in
i feel
is just another act of being too under controlled by higher authorities
not tt it is a bad thing
just that i personally feel
there are some people who are a little daunting in such a sense
and makes it feel very stuffy to work in suddenly
recent turn in events
have made me feel tt it is not ready to open up
i am not a vocal person and will not voice it out directly
thus using blogs as a way to express my thoughts
i understand the higher authority is providing with substantial support and monetary supplies
but however,
the club is currently a school club
and like other clubs
should be run solely by the students itself
and thus should have be given the confidence to do so
however
there seems to be a high level of relience
or is it a high level of protection from the authorities
that makes it rather stiffling...
i mean..
not tt i've been tt experienced to be speaking
just sharing my views..
if you want to open a club
and says right from the start tt you welcome people from all walks of life
and is branded by a student club
i believe that that should be it.
currently
there is a sense of great respect for the "descendants" to the higher authorities
and there feels like it is run under full control of them as well.
it feels closed
like its set up to be a sub group of the "party"
and not tt ready to be welcoming the others..
there has been many such incidents in the past few months tt i've seen
and i've encountered rather bad experiences, probably unknown to many.
i mean..
have confidence
set up and let it run
if you want to constraint it in this way'
you will only be scaring people off.
its good to set a vision and standard
and yes, probably you should have some control
but from what i see
the bond between you all are too close
and its really hurtful to see it going in such a way
some kinda dictatorship way.
maybe its time to grow up
really
because trying is good
but over controlling
will only have its adverse effects
if you want things completely run your way..
then keep it within yourselves
shouldn't have bothered to open up.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

:: not yet a man ::

i think so..
haha..
i don't know how to wear a cufflink and tried to rip and tear one of my shirt's cuff
in dying vein to freaking put a cuff link through
how sam pat is tt?
i can always ask him ma, right..
tts the problem when you dun have daddy to teach you such basics..
at least i have my "sugar daddy"..
wahahaha!!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

:: Mahjong SuperCup 2008 ::

adapted from sistic website...

The first SuperCup Mahjong Competition in Taiwan had attracted 15372 participants, and was awarded by the Guinness Book of World Records as the world’s largest mahjong tournament. The 2,000 competitors played in 500 tables in the first match had also broken the record for the highest number of mahjong tables in a single match. The Competition had led the trend of mahjong playing in the world and helped present Taiwan mahjong on the global stage. These glorious achievements will be the foundation of the SuperCup in organizing global chess and card competitions.

Now, the Mahjong SuperCup 2008 Competition will begin in Taiwan, Mainland China, Japan, Singapore, U.S. and Canada, etc. We invite you to join us in our making of a new page in the Guinness Book of Records!

Mahjong SuperCup 2008 is hosted by SuperCup Entertainment (Holdings) Limited, the Finals will be held in Macao Grand Waldo Hotel. Total prize money is USD 560,000, The Champion is USD 330,000, 2nd place is USD 100,000, 3rd place is USD 50,000, 4th place is USD 20,000, 5th – 16th is USD 3,000 and 17th – 32nd is USD 1,500. As mandated by the government of Macau, a 5% Stamp Tax will be deducted from all prize money payments made to all players, regardless of nationality.

Date: 13-14 December 2008 (2 days event)

Time: 8:30am on both days

Venue:
Macau Grand Waldo Hotel
Avenida Mariginal Flor De Lotus, Taipa, Macau


Duration: Approx 14.5 hrs (3 interval 180min each)

Ticket Price:
Standard - S$2268 (2 Days Event)

* Airfares, Accommodation & Meals are NOT included.

Amazing but true..

so.. how much will it cost overall?

if i were to ever to be there..

i guess i would be broke just buying tickets and paying for accomodations..

but thinking of it..

its a du sheng competition

so only the rich and the elite will be there..

well.. any sponsors for miloboi??


Sunday, November 30, 2008

:: for WAD ::

what a nice concert to show off the best local talents
as well as driving the message across
of World Aids Day

close to 3000 people packed their picnic baskets
and joined a rousing concert to mark World AIDS Day
which falls on 1st Dec 2008.
celebrities like Electrico, Hossan Leong, three divas,
Dim Sum Dollies, Hady Mirza
and Stefanie Sun belted out familiar tunes and stand up acts
and sharing love with all
spreading the messages associated with AIDS.

its a really good concerted effort
in a relatively conservative asian country like Singapore
where the idea of Aids irks people
and many are not well informed of the causes,
and vulnerability of other human around,
and how the disease is spread
the onset of it
possible ways of prevention
and many other related stuffs..

Isaac isn't here to preach abstinence
(its not really in his dictionary.. haha)
but I hope to help spread the message that
prevention if the only way out for AIDS
because there is currently no cure
so please,
prevent from having unprotected sex, guys..
keep to one partner,
and if you are afraid,
go for an anonymous AIDS testing
(its better to know it early, for there are medical aid out there..)
there is a 3 months window period
so do go for more than just one test to be sure
(its anonymous, no one knows who you are.. unless you are a friend of the tester la..)

and for those who think you might never contract AIDS,
please be informed..
you cannot get it from sharing of common facilitites like water cooler, swimming pool
nor sharing food and utensils.
however
you can get it from sharing needles
unprotected sex
and childbirth from a contracted mother
(amongst other says)
and NO! mosquitoes who sting a AIDS patient wouldn't spread it!

for those of you who might unfortunately have contracted HIV/AIDS
tell your family and friends
and family and friends..
please don't shun them
they need your love and concern
it is only if the entire society is kept informed
and educated about how to go about dealing with the topic of AIDS/HIV
then we can progress.
share our love
in the right way.

as we remember the many who have succumbed to AIDS/HIV
we shall come as one
to combat it
and stop the spreading.
be a responsible human being.
do what you can to stop it.
show your love.

log on to the website to know more about what you can do.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

:: the AMPs ::

was at Esplanade recital studio earlier on
for Esplanade Late Night concert
featuring the AMPs (better known as the ang moh pais)
with Eric Ng leading Ngak Ng, Jim Lim and gang
it was a night of feel good, hard rocking music
in a good mix of english and mandarin songs
new remix of covers
as well as some original compositions

it was like a family affair
but maybe due to the friendliness of the them
it felt really cosy
sharing the fun moments and little jokes
the small space made it feel right at home.

Eric started out with in informal intro of the band, and mixing the members up
and he also added that the local music scene is small
and players aren't getting well paid
thus he has to "bao" everything himself.
They were dressed casually
but really good looking
especially lead singer Ngak.

Ngak said at the start tt he was down with flu n sore throat
but would try his best
due to him repeating it many times thru the 1.5 hour gig
even Jim made of of it at certain point.

The band sounded quite tight
but maybe due to the public's expectation of them being the group which brought us
881 and 12 lotus
the reception to thier new compositions and covers of English songs
was rather cold.
it was during the band's performance of songs Eric and Jim writes for others
(like Jolin's Yi Ge Ren, A*Mei's Wo Yao Kuai Le and Ren Zhi)
that the audience was more willing to applaud.
their more famous works which resonated amongst the crowd would have to be the songs
found in the two Royston Tan movies' soundtracks.
Royston was also in the house to watch.

at the end of the main show
after credits have been done
Jim reminded everyone to ask for an encore
thus the audience obliged.

the rather calm crowd was sure glad that there was an encore
if not the 1 hour show would have appear a tad short
and was the encore the ultimate highlight of the whole show

Jim appeared to be excited about the encore
because he wanted to give a great rendition of a song which completes every AMP performance
that is "Bu Zhi De (not worth it)"
a song made famous by the group Dreamz FM which he was once part of.
Eric joked repeatedly that Jim was once a member of a boy band
and is ready to prove he is a talent
not a "has-been".
to pump it up, Jim asked the two ex-dreamz fm buddies
Ric Low and Cavin Soh on stage to sing with him
as it is a rare occasion, since they specially took time out for this gig.

the final two songs really brought the house down.
an unfamiliar intro kicked off the first song
which turned out to be "yi ren yi ban (half each)"
the song that made introduced AMPs to everyone
But this rock version of yi ren yi ban was really fun to listen to
and what could be more fitting
that a hyped up rendition of "Yi Bai Wan" to bring a wonderful
homely show to a rousing finish.

great job AMPs!
oh ya, the concert was being recorded for a release later next year
and as Eric said
AMPs are meant for greater things than just 2 OSTs
this gig at Esplanade was sold out,
a first for a local indie group
more importantly
the group has yet to have a album to its name
and yet could have attained such a result was a great compliment.
credits also goes to their good friend Xiao Han who was also in the front row
being the wonderful lyricist bring many of their music entries to life.

Friday, November 28, 2008

:: and also... ::

actually.. Isaac really isn't good at explaining and expressing himself. He has loads of kept secret which he simply do not know how to tell people. Afraid how people might have a different take on matters and look at him differently.

:: thoughts overflowing aplenty ::

hello everyone (whoever you are, sharers of the life of Isaac).

a very warm hug and welcome to the life of an idiot who has turned his life topsy-turvy, but does not seem to realise it. Isaac is officially lost in a world of his own. He often thinks he is a superstar and talks far too much, mostly at the wrong time, in a bid to attract attention (probably because he's an only child who grew up kinda lonely). He is getting old, and finally, knowing that that is a fact. He thinks and tries to be creative, but since his army days when he wrote relatively good plays (he has been writing crap for the past two years), he is, yup, well, been in a little in the dumps, reaching a big writers blog, not having inspiration to write a good play. Maybe it was during times of innocense when he could write freely without any qualms. Nowadays, he has met too many people, and known too much things, encountered too many experiences to write without any constriants. He is also a person who is very free about expressing himself to the crowd, friends and relatives. Once the reserved, conservative boy he was, oft too afraid to speak his mind, now, he is a little on the edge of flamboyance, being out loud and proud. He takes care (pretty well) of himself. And he is definitely not afraid to love freely. He does not think the society at large is an obstacle, and thinks that living a life worth remebering on, loving with full force and power is of utmost priority in a world where you never knows what happens tomorrow. He also, unfortunately, has no proper control of his wealth. He spents like there's no tomorrow (too) and often overdo it. Despite numerous warnings by his highr authorities, he have yet to "woken up" to the ultimate idea (which is probably a dead end). He needs to be horribly shaken up to wake up (his bloody fucking) idea. He knows somehow he is in quite deep shit now with some corporations with sky high (to his considerations at least) bills which he has no idea how to pay off, but there just so happens to be a kind soul who he loves and loves him, using ways which are actully quite inappropriate to sooth such financial wounds, comforting him, and making him feel filthy guilty. They have chosen to term such a procurement "love".. Oh well. Probably because it IS blind.

Isaac is settling into a systematic, monosyllablic, monotonous lifestyle since the recent exams were over. He seems to be just wasting away. He seems to have great plans for a wonderful month ahead, with almighty leading the way, but due to certain restrictions, unfortunately once again, he can only set in to the mould (hopefully not turn mouldy by the end of the next month). He does not know how to venture out of his comfort zones, to make himself be known, to be a person with achievements which is believed to be obtainable by his young man. He needs to be brave, to stand alone in the storm, and be ready to weather it through. He desperately needs a breakthrough.

Can anyone help him with that?

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

:: Das Experiment : Black Box ::

13 healthy young men have been selected to take part in a psychology experiment
they are divided up randomly by a computer system
5 of them will be guards
8 of them will be prisoners
they strip down to their undies in front of all
the prisoners are labelled by numbers
the guards have to be addressed as Officers
they have a set of strict rules to follow
punishments can be metted out by the guards as they deem suitable
but it cannot be "physically demanding"
two scientists from the college are the conductors and observers.

Das Experiment is a psychological theatre thriller
one has never seen before
a remake for the stage from the original German (read: very German, indeed) movie
from the 1970s based on a real-life experiment gone wrong and
was forced to be called off in 6 days instead of the original 14 experiment days

the play is put up in the unconventional space o the Pavilion at Far East Square
a two tiered stage with a balcony at the upper tier and the main stage is
set with four prison cells and two porta-loos.

as the "experiment subjects" enter by the very same entrance as the audience
the show has a freaking surreal feeling
the little auditorium seats are really unconfy and the air con seems to be offed
thus most of the time everyone is kept at the edge of the seats.
throughout the play
awkward giggles from the audience peppered the show
because we do not know what was real and not

the built up on the whole was great
at points gruesome
it felt really intense, especially in the first three quarter.

it served not only as a test of psychology for the subjects or actors,
the audience was also on a rollercoaster mind boggling ride through an arduous journey.
lightings are impactful
together with the sound effects
making it feel that each purpose action meant what it was suppose to be
to get people comforted
but unexpected twists and turns in events
created suspense
and ignited great fear amongst the audience.

the most intriguing got to be the finale segment
when all hell broke loose
and the guards got overtly serious and crossed the line
when unexpected death (finally) occured
and the supposedly fake gun began to fire
did it awaken some senses.

"it is only an experiment"
this line still resonates in my mind more than 12 hours after
nothing beats the final time when actor/guard Berus mentioned it
have it gone overboard?
have you been woken up and shaken up?
what went wrong?
who's fault is it?
where should the line be drawn?
when should have the scientist stepped in?

and.. what day is it now?
how long have they been kept?

a must-watch intense thriller!
happening till this Saturday, 29th November
8pm, at The Pavilion at Far East Square.
tickets at Sistic ($38 for fri/sat, $35 for today n tmr/$28 for students)

*special offer of $20 for each ticket if you purchase tickets at the door from 7.30pm for today and tmr, according to Artzine.*

overall: 4.5 / 5
script: 4.5/5
(very intense writing!)
acting: 4.5/5
(there were some calefares which could have role improved,
but can Koey Foo please improve his pronunciation,
even though you do have a nice bod.)

directing: 5/5
(definitely not an easy task for samantha scott blackhall)
lighting: 3.5/5
(timing very weird sometimes.)
sound: 3.5/5
(oh, the unconventional space..)
set: 4/5
(portaloos.. tts as close as you can get to a loo, ya..)

:: happy meal? ::

i'd prefer it in canto by wu junru n huang qiu sheng..
but this is just as funny..


:: introducing~ Isaac's iPhone ::

today is the day
my iPhone is going to see the daylight
its my little white 16gb iphone's baptism day
i'm so excited about bringing it out of the box..
but i'm not sure what are the applications that I need to urgently
upload to make my experience a whole load fun..

updates?
emojicons?
picture search?
games?

well well..
any iPhone expert willing to help?

:: 没有鱼丸和粗面啦。::



wahahahahaha....

(taken from Jasen's blog)

:: 500 ::

Hey!
Guess what?
This is my 500th post on absolutmilo.blogspot.com
having come such a long way..
thank you for being a part of me, dear blog
you are a way i share my life with others
interesting tings about me
interesting tings i meet
little stories of my life
funny snippets of me
pictures which i use to tell a thousand words
you tube videos which brings smiles to my face
the pressure i face during exams
and happiness when i'm in love
you have seen me through 500 post
many of which are nonsense (lol)
but there are those which are emotional
touching
fun
caring
warm
you shared a love journey with me
you shared the sorrows and laughter of army and university with me
you shared friendship with me
you shared life with me
you have been a part of me for the past 499 post in two years
and will continue to be..
my bridge of myself to the world!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

:: finally got to cut my hair ::


After 3 months since my last cut.. New copper colour too..

Sunday, November 23, 2008

:: plain looking, wonderful tasting ::


During a cold rainy day out studying at a freezing fast food outlet, really, nothing beats your loved one bringing you to a nice and cosy dessert place, treating you to a old style steamed egg pudding with ginger. It really warmed me up. Oh.. Such wonderful feeling of care, love and warmth.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

:: purple christmas ::


I simply love the overhead piece at the top of the atrium of Marina square. Simple yet pretty. Oh ya, they are having sesame street show this season.. Yay!

:: surprise find - canteen 2 breakfast ::


2 soft boil eggs, 3 slices of kaya toasts, iced Milo and a slice of watermelon. Only $2! What a great start to the morning. Great boost before exam too..

:: mrt new gadget ::


The next station on the map blinks! And it also indicates whether the door opens on this or the other side. Wow..

Friday, November 21, 2008

:: random conversation ::

I :: Omg.. Totally forgot that Energy's Ady has a kid already.

W :: Is he older than me?

I :: No.. He is only 26 i tink..

W :: kids these days..

I :: why?

W :: Well. Let me ask you, is that fortunate or unfortunate, according to your thinking?

I :: I think it is.. something nice.. fortunate, i think.

W :: Then I am not as fortunate as him.

I :: Huh?

W :: Because the person i love has no intention of marrying me.

I :: Ady is not married.

W :: Okay. The one i love won't have a kid with me.

I :: The person you love can't.

W :: Can we adopt a kid in future?

I :: Huh?

Silence.

W :: Hahaha.. I am getting old and needs to settle down fast.

I :: You've said that so many times.

W :: I hope to be to see our child go to university.

I :: (Abruptly , completely ignoring W's previous statement) I want to eat tauhuay..

So we moved on and ate tauhuay happily.

At the tauhuay shop..

W :: (suddenly, while eating tauhuay) Eat more tauhuay, than our baby will be cute, fair and chubby.

dream on... dream on...

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

:: sex then love ::

sometimes
it just feels like something which happens so often
that it might appear to be the quintessential part of our relationship
it seems like its what keep us together
the basis of our being together
but now
we are really stable together
words of confirmation
once again affirmed the two of us
being a couple
as we face challenges
and prolonged seperation due to work
i am sure we are already one
as he would say
we are not just a dating couple
we are "together" like..
for.. a long long time to go..
suddenly have this very weird but good feeling..

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

:: Jia You! ::

suddenly realise
that recently
people often wish others "Jia You"
especially for exams..
have been hearing it for many times tis season..
do we no longer believe in luck anymore?
no more good luck and all the best?
why two chinese word holds so much more significance and impact
is something i don't know
but its really a powerful word of encouragement
that's on almost everyone's lips these days
to all my friends who are starting or in the midst of exams..
and as well as to myself
Jia You!

:: Autumn Colours ::

While W prefers Spring, for the Sakuras,
I personally prefer Autumn, for the Momijis.
"More reflective," I tell him.
Spring embodies growth and energy and youth;
All is sprouting, thriving.
Autumn, on the other hand, embodies
Maturing, shedding and age.
Maybe I am getting old.

Look at those colours!
The last beauty of nature.
Before it fades away, completely.

Keat's "To Autumn", 1819
Season of mists and mellow fruitfulness,
Close bosom-friend of the maturing sun;
Conspiring with him how to load and bless
With fruit the vines that round the thatch-eves run;
To bend with apples the moss’d cottage-trees,
And fill all fruit with ripeness to the core;
To swell the gourd, and plump the hazel shells
With a sweet kernel; to set budding more,
And still more, later flowers for the bees,
Until they think warm days will never cease,
For Summer has o’er-brimm’d their clammy cells.

:: Sapir–Whorf Hypothesis ::

In linguistics, the Sapir–Whorf hypothesis postulates a systematic relationship

Between the grammatical categories of the language

A person speaks and how that person both understands

The world and behaves in it.

The hypothesis postulates that a particular language's nature influences

The habitual thought of its speakers:

That different language patterns yield different patterns of thought.

This idea challenges the possibility of perfectly representing

The world with language, because it implies that the mechanisms

Of any language condition the thoughts of its speaker community.

Monday, November 17, 2008

:: and so it is christmas.. ::

Guess i'll be prety much alone this Christmas
because someone wants to go far away
and my schedule before chirstmas can't fit into his loooong holiday
yup..
not even for our first christmas together..
anyone wana date me?

Sunday, November 16, 2008

:: flawless ::

Showing gratitude to the world
for all the imperfect we have
but cannot accept
we continue on the search
mankind's non-stop seeking for the one vengence
to make this place we live better
better
best
perfect
families get thorn apart because of each other's different perception
friends fall in love because they think that it is it
animals give us signs that we oft overlook
taking crisis as negatives when it is a wake up call
prices rise to levels in which we drown
will we see the world where we have been waiting for?
look at things differently
when it is actually
just the same
what dreams really are?
:: Flawless ::
My newest ideas for a new play.
A mixed media play about our busy lifestyle
and constant search for the perfect things in life
when ridden with challenges
do we face it?
orjust think of the negative?
what's the real problem?
where does the flaw lie?

Saturday, November 15, 2008

:: shifting sky ::


When the clouds gather behind the picturesque view, its an ominous sign that there will be a shift towards the darker days. Bad. Failure. Ill. Negative. Probably. But there is always a fair weathered day to welcome you on the other side. Just be positive and strive. I believe.

:: Singapore Calendar Guys 2009 ::


Swoon......

Friday, November 14, 2008

:: ignorance is NOT bliss ::

i really like to watch drama serials
especially when the story is worth catching on..
and amidst the stress i'm facing during exam periods
any drama serial seems like a good way to escape
(an excuse to say: i'll watch for 1 hour then go study)
recently got stuck watching a show which
i regretfully say
i watch it because i like the actors..
(Elvin and Rui En!!!)
yup.. Bu Fan De Ai..
but i must shout:
whoa lau!
wat crap shows
its captivating..
somehow touching
but quite nonsensical lo!!
where got so many people don't know the facts about Aids?
even if your whole neighbourhood knows
they won't ostracize you lo..
the whole show is SO exaggerating!!
Please people
AIDs is not spread by saliva
and not permeable through air
its by blood transfusion onli
or accidentally contact by infected needles..
haiz~
then again..
GLBTs have high "opportunity" of contracting aids..
lol..
mayb i should go for an anonymous test when i'm free
after all
you may be looking healthy
but the virus have been in your body for long time
it takes around 5 years for HIV virus to take effect
going into full blown Aids
and even after contracting HIV virus
there's a window period of around 6 weeks before it can be tested
now there's 2 types of test avail
by blood or by inner mouth cell quick test..
for all my friends..
do support the HIV/Aids patients in Singapore and around the region
and support the cause to create awareness for Aids
World Aids Day falls on 1 December
for the first time
Singapore will be holding a concert to commerate the day and promote the cause
Love Amp Concert::
*29th November
*Fort Canning Park
*Tickets at $25 (Student con cession at $15)
*each ticket entitles you to a commemorative tee shirt by Levi's
*features local artiste, headlining with Stefanie Sun and Hady Mirza, Dim Sum Dollies
And Absolutmilo is giving TWO person the chance to go the concert with me!
if interested
just leave me a tag / SMS or Email mrisaaclim@gmail.com

:: time flies ::

deja vu
when i sat in the exam hall
facing the paper which i took (also) last semester
and wow
flipping thru the paper
it felt so familiar yet unfamiliar at the same time
still not prepared it seems
difficult or not?
i do not know..

well..
at least

the exams are 3/5 over...
haha.. 2 more papers..
but a long time more (25th nov.. so loong.....)

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

:: confidence ::

that's what I lack now
totally
absolutmilo from CITS south spine computer room . 27 minutes before EE2001

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

:: lost drive ::

lost the drive
completely
to study anymore
i keep thinking of other things
although entering the workforce is never an option
(at ALL)
but probably due to the talks, conversations, shows, plays, musicals, variety shows, drama,
newspapers.. i read/heard/seen recently
i feel bad
to be studying at all
a subject that i've got completely no interest in
i really don't undertand what i'm studying!

Monday, November 10, 2008

:: great place to study ::


At Carl's jr Marina square, you have healthy salads, free flow of iced tea and tissue supply, freezing cold air conditioning, relatively quiet ambience, not much disturbance.

:: 带我走 ::

每次我总一个人走
交叉路口自己生活
这次你却说等我走
某个角落就你和我
像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌
在你的身后 计算的步伐
每个背影 每个场景都有
发过的梦
带我走 到遥远的以后
带走我 一个人自转的寂寞
带我走 就算我的爱
你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕 带我走
每次我总独自远走
抱持缄默不皱眉头
这次你却说一起
走彼此温柔从此以后
像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌
在你的身后 计算的步伐
每个背影 每个场景
都有 发过的梦
带我走 到遥远的以后
带走我 一个人自转的寂寞
带我走 就算我的爱 你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕 带我走
白马溜过漆黑尽头
潮汐袭来浪花颤动
凝在海岸结成了墨
蔷薇朝向草原气球
邮差传来一地彩虹
刻在心中拍打着脉搏
带我走 到遥远的以后
带走我 一个人自转的寂寞
带我走 就算我的爱 你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕 带我走
带我走 就算我的爱 你的自由都将成为泡沫 带我走
* I sincerely gasp at the MARVEL of writing. Lyrics by renown Wu Qing Feng from Soda Green*
*he is a Chinese Major student, thus his great use of words for a song like this!*
*inspires me to take on Chinese language if given the chance, ever again...*
*and defintely, Rainie has somehow broken out of her image as a saccharine sweet teeny bopper,
good try based on the fact this is her fourth album and probably the last with her current contract with this label. *

:: 你不是真正的快乐 ::

人群中哭着 你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦 或痛 或心动了
你已经决定了 你已经决定了
你静静忍着 紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜 就是 越伤人了
越是在手心留下 密密麻麻 深深浅浅的刀割
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
这世界笑了 于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则 不是 你的选择
于是你含着眼泪 飘飘荡荡 跌跌撞撞的走着
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了 然后才后悔着
你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了 还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻 重新开始活着
作曲: 阿信 填词: 阿信 编曲: 五月天

:: change ::

If there is one thing that
You'd like me to change,
What would it be?

:: sinner ::

how many times have you sinned knowingly
but yet
with a great sense of guilt
indulge in the action of sin?

Sunday, November 9, 2008

:: the Internet is for Porn ::

thanks to Avenue Q
we can for sure and be proud to exclaim!
The Internet is for PORN!
lol....
watch this
its even funnier than tt on Avenue Q
Sesame Street characters acting out the roles in Avenue Q
to the song Internet is for porn..
damn hilarious!

:: when 23 is old... ::

it only happens on the adult Sesame Strret
called Avenue Q
its hilarious!!
If you are not having exams..
(so all the uni students, too bad..)
and have some money to spare..
(most of the shows are left with $70-$120 tickets onli)
then go watch Avenue Q at the esplanade theatre..
on till this sunday..
real interesting characters..
promise you will laugh at the jokes and gross-ity
for 2.5 hours..
(maybe non-stop)
for an interesting preview..
watch this interview i found on You-tube..

Saturday, November 8, 2008

:: stop to smell the flowers ::


Oh no. The Singapore Biennale is ending next sunday. But I've only seen the stuffs put up at City Hall. Haven't got time to go view the exhibits at Central promontory site and south beach development. Great chance wasted. Well well..

:: museum ::


When was the last time you went to the singapore museum. I admit it was the first time i went after it was refurbished. Wow. Is it different. Was there to watch Flare. Really good show. Great collaboration between two theatre companies which are completely different, but both i love. It was nice seeing old friends at the show, including my theatre teachers at different stages, Jean Ng (during sec sch), robin loon(during NS), jeffrey tan(during jc), haresh sharma(during jc). Also met brian gothong tan, rodney oliveiro, melody chen, and the list goes on.. When will i get my big break in theatre? I wonder. But back to the museum. Did you know its really nice? So many different galleries and spaces. And even a restaurant and bar with live band performance at night. Wow. Lovely night. Great performance which sparked interest in writing another play. Might be a commissioned work.. Praying hard. But for now.. Exams first!

Friday, November 7, 2008

:: fusionopolis ::


This 'state of the art' building at the boiling pot of Singapore's future, majoring in discovery and study of up and coming science and technology, focusing in research and development. It houses mainly A*star and its many subsidiaries and associates. And at the top of the building, at its 23rd to 25th story, holds the newest branch of Fitness First, which is my home club. Its the biggest branch and consist of a magnificent view of the west side of Singapore. Really. Its that tall offer such a view. Probably because its ceilings are 'sky-high, dramatic' ones. And with individual towers joint up to form it, the building is really huge lo. towers named such as symbiosis and connexis, no wonder its so fusion. And atas. Not to forget its so far off from anywhere. Can't wait for the MRT circle line 4 to open with the stop at one-north..

Thursday, November 6, 2008

:: reflection ::


I took this random picture in a lift whereby it was surrounded by mirrors. Mirrors reflects. Sometimes, we should just stop, and look into our reflection, see what story lies in it. What else can we see, in ourselves, on our face, body, or around us. Reflect upon ourselves, what can we do? What do we need to do? Who are we?

:: water brilliance 1 ::


This is a new series on my Blog where i will Post photos of water features around singapore buildings i see which are what i consider pretty. A sight to behold. While walking around Raffles place today, i saw this water walk screen, at capital tower. It looked stunning. Simple yet unique. Its something like the one at raffle's city, but it flows against the rock walk, creating a different texture and feel. Really classy and nice. Next up, will try to grab a pic of the famous water feature at millenia walk which has appeared in numerous television trailers and drama serial. Pretty pretty..

:: roller coaster ride! ::

its examinations week next week
and its going to be a hell of a roller coaster ride
with many things cramped up! oh my god!
emotional and mental torture.. be prepared..

yesterday
watched Avenue Q
its really funny
and wat i watch out more is the story development, characters and production
its a great set and storyline
but i guess its a show for the masses..
noting much technocal to note of
but nonetheless
its a really great performance
since many of the show's 3 weeks run has been fully booked.
will remember the songs like "if you were gay", "internet is for porn" and "It sucks to be me".
well
i'm now listening to the Broadway original cast recording
a really nice memory of a great musical!
anyone wants can borrow from me and have a great laugh at the songs..

read a few comments and reviews about Gemuk Girls by The Necessary Stage
i seems to be a great play
in theatrics and script
but too bad..
just when i wanted to get tickets
its all sold out le!

but I'm gonna catch Flare ( a play bout live during n after a earthquake in a neighbouring country)
by Cake Theatrical and The Finger Players
quite looking forward to it
coz its really interesting to see two companies which i like and are pretty known to be good companies..
hope dearie will be able to watch it with me

that brings me back to another topic
watched Ave Q with weizhi yesterday
because someone was busy
and couldn't make it

well well..
sometimes
i really hope he can relax and take things in different perspective
i hope he can see things through other's life
who knows what happens
he is sometimes domineering
just the way i like it
but then
there are times when i feel he hould think of what people really want
and not simply wat he perceives

sometimes
i might say i'm tired
like really "tired"
because i don't just want to be pampered
i want to be a bigger part of your life
not just someone who gets your love
or how it appears to be "love"

its not easy
you might say again
you don't know what young people think
but hey
if i can understand you and what you really want
mayb you can try to reciprocate that as well
i know work is tough
and you are one who knows how to work hard n play hard
and seperates the two apporpriately

probably you need to separate your social life from mine
i know your friends
but do you know mine?

there are things you do with your friends
and try to pull me in when i might not be interested
then there are other activities
which you simply count me out
you don't seem to care about anyting at all

on the long run
i really don't understand you
your stand on things
and what you are really looking for
your fast changing attitude makes me feel lost
98% of the time
i enjoy the many things
but its the little things that matters more

hopefully
by saying you love me
we can integrate each other into one another's life
and not just say so

be it..
if we are going to live together (forever? long term? i don't know. though i know you want to.. ?)
we have to balance. merge. move on.

sometimes
being simplistic is the best
get back to your roots of being the child-like boy when you are with me
think of being simple
thats easier.. to think and do..
haha.. now i am at a lost myself.. what do i really want??

**ps: anyone wants to go Zoukout, watch Snow white and the seven dwarfs by Wildrice, First Light by Toy Factory, Lee Guitars All Stars Concert, please contact me!**

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

:: death day draws near ::

i hate it
i so so know that exams is just less than a week away
yet
i feel like everyday
i'm just going to waste
ya..
how sucky is that

its actually quite scary
to know tt you might not make it
yet don't seem to be putting enough effort..

i need a push..

some power hands
do your job!!

Sunday, November 2, 2008

:: amnesia (-ic) ::

i tink i'm either ill
or over worked
stressed out
maybe just simply
i'm going to die soon
due to some unknown illness

i get sudden bouts of dizziness
those when you feel faint
and suddenly do not know what you are doing
where you are currently
and seem to be doing something completely senseless

that sounds pretty bad ah?

i use to have it mayb once or twice a month
but now it seems more regular
sometimes during my gym workouts
sometimes at home
sometimes simply on the go..

it feels weird and scary
really
because you are not in control

am i really ill?
am i going to die soon??

Saturday, November 1, 2008

:: magic lee hom ::


Apparently a magic trick and he was off the stage and appeared at another corner of the stadium. Walking down and i had the chance to be so close to him.. Wow.. I touched his arms lo.. Lol.. He is so so sooooo cute.. Handsome and smooth face..

:: the music man ::


I'm still at the music man tour of wang lee hom. Excellent. Next song, luo ye gui gen, with him on violin. He is so multi talented and handsome.. Swoons.. Ok.. I shall go enjoy myself..

:: (gushing) random thoughts ::

i'm suddenly overfilled with emotions
of anger
love
pain
happiness
eagerness
frustration

everything

i've a million thoughts running through my brains now

i shall tell them (i hope)
when i feel like the time is right..

i've got a million things to type
but i just don't feel like blogging them now
so just wait
for the potion to overflow
for the burst..
for everything to fall into place

i'm tired
really tired

so it ends

:: the beng and the mamasan ::


The beng with the ultimate daddy.. I mean. Ahem, mummy.. Who promised to get me a Chio girl.. But.. Me not interested la.. Lol.. Mummy herself/himself is chio enough lo.. Rofl..

:: the beng n another can't be decided ::


Izyan can't decide what she is. But i look Damn beng in my chestnut uniform, tucked out, with pierced dar.. Haha..

:: the beng, the elvis and the geek ::


Haha.. That was my look yesterday. Still can't decide if i look like a beng or geek, with the hair, looks like elvis in uniform too.. Someone even told me i look like muttons from 987.. Lol.. My first halloween party was a blast!

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

:: friend ::

i thought about it for awhile
then i decided i need to write it on my blog
but using so long to tink
i did not know what title to put
so i put it simply (or bluntly)
as friend
i saw u
i tapped you on the shoulder
you turned back
and just gave me a nod
maybe u were busy
after i got what i wanted at the coffeeshop
i still saw you waiting by the road side
maybe for someone to appear
so i went ahead
hoping to chat with you
a friend whom i've not talked to for so long
but u onli turned back
to ask me a question
with you looking tired and worn out
i don't know
but with benefit of a doubt
i shall just take it as you are tired
mayb i'm tinking too much
but i feel tt we have lost it
remembering the incident back then
which we have already clarified.
i still take you as a very close
very special friend
hope you will reciprocate
once your best friend.. (i hope)

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

:: hello?? halloween?? ::

Epiphany is celebrating Halloween with a party at staff club this thursday
i have to go..
but i'm so dead with no ideas and no money to get costumes too..
what can i do??

any ideas????

btw.. its really interesting tt i read tt singapore really celebrates halloween in a blast
look at all the major clubs, zouk, butter factory, double o, st james
everything is so thought out
interesting themes n great prizes (a trip to cape town is zouk's top prize for the best dressed)
with so much money n effort involved
i'm sure it will be great..
but i'm not in the mood to spent money
and i'm desperately out of creative ideas..

well well..

maybe next few year
when i do have the hardcore clubbing friends back (haha.. guys.. i've not forgotten u, but we are v busy la hor, so dun tink u all will be free..)
maybe when we all got our job n is ready to fun
then i shall go all out and scare all during halloween..

but then again
if anyone of u are going and dun mind me tagging along
or wants to just pull a few of us and go party this friday
do contact me ya..

i want to dress up..
just dunno how n dun have the $$
well..
the fun's onli for a night..
and the exams in the next few weeks are gonna be more fun.. hiak hiak hiak..

:: i need a trainer ::

i need a personal trainer
who does not charge too much
and i can afford
who is good and knows his things
and can guide me even outside gym
(including what and what not to eat)
to encourage me on my regiment
to push me to do more
to properly help me lose weight n build muscles
i need to loose weight properly
and not rebound every few days
i need to know all the proper techniques to maintain
because i've just gained weight again..
after 3 days of not going to gym...
and eating carbo.. ARGH!
i'm sinful
i've sinned..
i can't forgive myself
i need to control and go on my tightest diet
and train doubly hard
my ogal is just ther
no more rebounds!!!!

:: isaac is going crazy ::

i have all rights to think i'm mentally ill

because i'm so DAMN stress
and i'm having constant headaches
and going into fainting mode
and into states of trances suddenly
and not knowing what happen
weird feelings of deja vu
and crazy little snippets when i don't remember where i'm suddenly
don't even remember what i did the day before
or even what happen in the morning, even just hours before
i'll suddenly find myself in somewhere
but can't remember how i got there
and be on a transportation and not know where my destination is..
when i am gyming
i have the crazy urge to do many sets
but thereafter
feeling so tense in my muscles
and feel like giving up..
and despite my efforts..
i don't see significant results
and my body weight changes faster than singapore's weather
majiam like the current share market..
which is really bad..
currently
i need to have a better plan for my life
i feel lost..
and in need..
of a pace setter
someone to guide me
and help me through...

Thursday, October 23, 2008

:: weight check 001 ::

its been an amazing 3.5 weeks since i started out my weight loss program
and although i started with a "dream/desire"
(a relatively unbelievable target)
or 5kg within 3 weeks
and now, i can confirm tt i've not reached it
(to put bluntly, i've failed, quite miserably..

but the consolation is
i've indeed lost some (like really little) weight
and i've gotten into the good habit of sports
and gymming at least 4 times a week
(each session 1 hr, no less..)

arms, legs, total body, circuit, cardio..
and so its goes..

here's the results for stage one..

date started: 30/09/08
weight started: 105.5kg

date today: 23/10/08
weight today: 101.6kg

total weight loss to date: 3.9kg

ok la..
2 things..
one is i dun quite believe the weighing scale at fitness first millenia walk
coz everytime i take the weight like damn low..
so it might not be accurate
though it sures makes me feel pleased, happy and "zhan zhan zi xi.."
haha..

next..
my cut carbo diet is going very well
but i need to work more on it to sustain
no stealing sweet food and rice every two-three days
and try to cut down on the salad dressings as n when possible..
must resist the temptations
i can do it!

i suddenly luuurrvve tau huay
anytype
anytime.. muahahah..

(5kg in the next three week's is gonna be tough becoz of exams,. but i'll try..
next report due: 15 nov..)