Wednesday, April 30, 2008

:: bleeding / love? ::

warm red blood
unlike drool
flowed down my hands
as i cut myself so deep
trying to erase memories

before i realised
that the imprint
is permanent
and it reminds me more
of the love we shared
or I never had

:: i screamed ::

for ice cream..

it was Ben & Jerry's free cones day..

chose a strategic timing (2pm) to go Vivo city with ronnie n sir seng to enjoy free ben & jerry's wonderful cones.. yeah! and we enjoyed from 2pm till 6pm.. lol!

i broke my last years record and had 4 scoops this year! Yay!

and heres the beautiful and delicious ice creams.. wow..


a scoop of New York Superfudge!

then a 2nd scoop of Chunky Monkey!

Choc fudge brownie followed

before i overdosed on cookie dough..

look at that smart smirk on my face..

looking forward to free cones day 2009!

on a side note, after 6pm the queue was really really long,
tts why i did not go compete my round with
another scoop of the final strawberry flavour..

miloboi says: "i'm craving for love.. "

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

:: the meaning of lonely ::

sat there
gazing at the stars
with or without you
the difference is
comfort
existence
knowledge of accompaniment

but at the same time
can feel lonely
because physically there
but heart is not

where am I?

:: viewtyful world ::




Yeah!
i got my viewty!

though I won't put it to full operation mode and replace my K800i anytime too soon..

but i love it.

love love love

its a viewtyful world

(my new mobile numer: 9837 9783)

:: reflection ::


as i was at Far East having my hair cut
i looked into the mirror
and saw my own reflection.

suddenly felt i looked alike my father
of whom I've not seen in eons.
not sure how he looked like now.

but that moment,
i saw myself in him,
or him in me.

and i saw my mother too.

nonetheless
i am product of the love they once had.
of course I have both their genes.

just hope i inherited the good ones...

then again...
i think again of how my mum is working hard to feed me, to bring me up to university, so provide me my pocket money and all my frivolous expanses.

I promise to be a good, thrift boy from now.

i hope...

Monday, April 28, 2008

:: here ::

If you are here
will you see?
the beautiful clouds
the refined sand
and the splashing waves.

If I was here
would I be
any less happy
any more happy
waving to you.

If you were here
can you be
in a prestine white shirt
a formal black tie
and polish shined shoes

If I am here
i want to be
in love
in life
individual

be here

:: different ::

sometimes
we are afraid
that we defer from the norm
that we are not part of the community at large

but we have a passion
and we go all out
to find similarities
but more often to be ostracised

everyone wants to be an individual
to be unique and special
but then when we find ourselves being that
we suddenly fear

what if he or she knows
we keep hiding our identity
till the right time comes
then we let people discover us

but there are still some
that I never know
if I should tell
how will they react
abandonment or appreciation?

follow your heart?
confusion.
diversion.
immersion?

societal norms
wayward clouds
can you tell me how?

Saturday, April 26, 2008

:: down by the river ::


Enjoying moment like this. By the river side. Minus the fast pace of life and enjoying the sight ahead. Sudden rush to go and enjoy myself, by the beach, or explore little corners of Singapore I've always wanted to.

Friday, April 25, 2008

:: cookie monster n Elmo dinner date ::


Cookie monster vincent and Elmo Isaac met the real cookie monster n Elmo who was also on a dinner date. At bugis nydc no less:) cute..

Thursday, April 24, 2008

:: long hair ::


We do dumb things. Now and then. Like trying to taste your hair. And to prove that my hair is long. Oh.. I'll miss u my hair when i snip u off...

:: time to visit dreamland ::

i need sleep.

yes, the exams are over. and i badly need sleep..

its a relive.. really.. and all i can do is wait.. wait.. wait.. for the results..

till then.. relax and enjoy.. thats life.. :)

:: eat right ::


Have u noticed the tray lining of mcdonald's? The most unhealthy food is McChicken, with 16 more kcal energy then mcspicy, and 2 g more fat than big Mac. Wow. And a mc flurry oOREO's energy is even higher than a big mac. And worst of all, all mcdonald's food's dietary fibre content is no more than 5 gram( for 2 large fries) that is pathetic. But i still enjoyed my sausage mc muffin with egg breakfast nonetheless.

:: final countdown ::

a super combination of feelings fills my mind, with exhilaration, excitement, fear and uncertainty.

I will be sitting for my very last paper for this semester today, in just a few hours time. The final 2 hour paper's completion would somehow seal my fate for this semester.

the feeling is really awesome that I have completed the examinations, however, the worry of the performance this semester is definitely overpowering.

i feel that I have not put in enough effort, and I am so afraid I screwed things up here or there. and this means bad, bad, bad. It was the only opportunity, because no one seriously would like to repeat any module. and I need to pull up my GPA, and I have to pass every single module this semester to avoid being in the dunk, and any probability of me facing termination from uni.

oh well.. i just have to concentrate on the matter at hand and complete today's paper smoothly with all I can. Jiayou, Isaac. Wish me luck, and pray for me.. :)

*BS1004 . 24 April 08 . 1300-1500 Hrs . Hall B. Nanyang Audi L3 . seat 967*

miloboi says: "yeah! its the end soon..."

:: 2 months ::


Never noticed actually that we have been together for 2 months. Not prepared for any celebration anyway. Just a little blissful feeling, and that things have become a norm.(is it good? I hope so..) Not that we lost passion. But we now are used to have one another being there for us, and we need each others company. The foundations are now there for us to build upon and strengthen. Love you loads, Dearie.. ;)

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

:: one million things ::

One last paper to go.. tmr.. 1-3pm.. LIFE SCIENCE!!

roar!

there are a million and one things I want to do after the paper..

I feel repressed, surpressed, depresses...

but suddenly i get so excited that its all going to be over (in a good way) in less than 18 hours time..

and all i want to do is to sleep.. super deprived of it.. i can't think!

:: connection ::

believe it or not..

I am now connected to the internet through my K800i bluetooth and my Macbook.

there are many tings singtel dun tell you..

so they can cheat your money..

i was cheated of 24 months of 12 dollars after signing up for Broadband on Mobile..

my my my..

if only i was smarter..

:: looking good ::


Was browsing thru my photo to make my party commemoration booklet when i came across tis. Its probably the only pic i look quite fit, not fat, and the whole picture looks good. Except for the extra ka lei fei behind.. Spoilt.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

:: realisation ::

i realised that my memory isn't getting any better.

now, i can't just regurgitate what I studied from the notes..

that makes me rethink..

is university examinations about understanding and application, or is it just pure regurgitation?

*FE1005 - Material Science - 22 Apr - 1300-1530 hrs - Hall A - Nanyang Audi foyer- seat no. 424*

miloboi says: "One more paper.. one more paper.. one more paper!!"

:: record breaker ::

I contemplated awhile on what solves my hunger best.

I thought since I could last for an hour, and i wun be sleeping so early, calling McDelivery would be a good choice, and it delivers after an hour..

surprise surprise surprise.. after 4 times of ordering, this guy has broken the records..

i ordered at 0020, the email said it would be delivered around 0120..

the guy called from the McDonald outlet at 00:26, confirming location..

and he called again at 00:33.. i was pissed.. what is it you need to know now??

oops.. he called to say he's here..

WOW.. 13 minutes flat.. the extra $3 is finally worth it..

Monday, April 21, 2008

:: rapunzel i am not ::

and my fringe is highly irritating me.

so after my exams, my first priority is to get my mac repaired.

and secondly, to get my hair maintained.. short, coloured, chao ah beng style (not).. haha

shall see wat my stylist suggest..

:: B&J Free Cone Day ::

It is such a GREAT and FANTASTIC opportunity that i would like to remind all friends that Ben & Jerry's free cone day is BACK!!!!!!!

Yup.. its happening on 29th April (Tuesday), from 12pm...

be prepared for loooooooooong queues..

and be prepared to keep queueing again again and again.. because you will enjoy it! again and again and again!! (not unlike teletubbies)

check out Ben and Jerry's Website for more details..

or checkout my previous post from last year's Free cone day to see how much i enjoyed!

Sunday, April 20, 2008

:: funky music ::


After a long long wait, finally laid my hands on Kaela Kimura's latest album +1. And it definitely never disappoint. All the tracks are of quirky j-pop flavour, and not forgetting to mention the lovely photos and fresh and loud design. I love Kaela for her daring-ness and individualism. Definitely not conventional. And all the songs make me wanna move. And its arrival is timely for my party. Yeah. Thanks Dearie..

Friday, April 18, 2008

:: singapore only google ::


Rednano.sg . The place to find out more about Singapore. Categorised in Web, images, news, people, place, map. Singapore not enough information on search engines? I shall check it out soon. Can i rednano me?

::yaya papaya::

saw this tube on Cruz Teng's blog



really can't imagin there's such Singaporeans who, albeit being in the wrong, act like a barbarian, record it himself on video, post it on youtube and allow himself to go under public scrutiny.

Well, if attention and fame is what you want, sir, you have attained it.

And thanks also to you that you have brought your own company (i assume you ARE from MediaCorp) into the limelight for all the wrong reason.

And sir, whoever you are, if you want to be popular, you might wish to add your face into the heated argument.

and another point, if you want to post such things to disgrace others, please at least edit the things first. and another point, please DO NOT wrong quote things.. Senior Minister came out, wow, serious.. but what is penal code.. erm.. did not really catch that.. but i believe that to be gibberish.. Because something along the line of 300+ should be personal and 370+ should be related to sexual offences.. wow wow wow!

please evaluate your position, sir!

:: meet my match ::

dearest Physics 1,

what do you want me to do to please you?

tell me please?

before its too late.

well..

all i can say is..

i admit defeat..

(or is it too early to say now? juz before the paper?)

败给你!

with regards,

a sullen looking Isaac.

*FE1001 . Physics 1. 18th April 2008. 0900-1130 hrs . Hall B- Exhibition Hall, Nanyang Audi. Seat k957*

:: 堕落 ::

突然发现,
我已经不知不觉,
随着年龄,
变得堕落.
应该怎么办?
来人!
快把我震醒吧!

Thursday, April 17, 2008

:: Bye Bye ::

Really like this tune and the lyrics. it consoles. yes, it does. not that i lost a friend/ relative physically. Maybe psychologically.



This is for my peoples who just lost somebody,
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put you hand way up high
you will never say bye. [no no no]
Momma‘s, daddy’s, sister’s, brother’s,
friends, and cousins.
This is for my people’s who lost their
Grandmothers
lift your head up to the sky
cause we will never say bye.

As a child, there were them times
I didn’t get it, but you kept me alive
I didn’t know
why you didn’t show up Sometimes
on Sunday mornings
And I missed you, but what we talked through
All them wrongful things, that are ? Brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show it
Caused you loved me

And so much more then to say
If you were with me today
face to face.

I never knew I can hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I can talk to you for a while
Wish your butterfly not to cry
As time goes bye

And I'm sure You reached a better place
And still I’d give
The world to see your face
Me right here, next to you

Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye, bye-bye..
Bye-bye
Bye-bye Bye- bye Bye-bye
Bye-bye Bye- bye Bye-bye
Bye-bye Bye- bye-bye-bye..

And you never got a chance to see
How good I’ve done
And you never got to see me
Back at number one
I wish that you was here to celebrate together
I wish that we can spend the holidays together
I remember when you use to tuck me in at night
Or the teddy bear u give me I held so tight
I thought you were so strong,
You make it through whatever
Its so hard to except the fact you gone forever

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody,
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put you hand way up high
you will never say bye.
[no no no]
Momma‘s, daddy’s, sister’s, brother’s,
friends, and cousins.
This is for my people’s who lost their
Grandmother’s
lift your head up to the sky
cause we will never say bye.

I never knew I can hurt like this
[I never knew it]
And everyday [ everyday I wish that I]
life goes on like this [ I wish, I wish]
I wish I can talk to you for a while
[I wish]
Wish you butterfly not to cry
[I wish]
As time goes by
[as time goes bye]

And im sure you reached a better place..
I’d still give the world to see your face..
and me right here, next to you..
and the hardest thing to do..
is say..
Bye-bye…………
its hard to say
Bye bye bye bye bye
So Come on
Somebody sing it with me
wave your hands up high

Cause this is for my peoples that
just lost somebody
This is for everybody
Just lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye-bye

--- There is a reason why Mariah can have more hits than Elvis. Don't be surprised, this might just be her 19th hit, before you know it, she will break The Beatle's 20 hit records. Maybe just an album more..:) ---

:: obscure choice of words ::


Sometimes i wonder, why is military so different from normal life. It just ran across my mind that there are many things which also happens in daily life of a commoner, but the terms used in army makes it sounds so.. Obscure? I don't know what word to use la.. Just in case i end up in a linguistic jargon while commenting on other's jargon. Oops.. Example: we Call it order/ cater, they Call it indent. We call it book of punishment, they must label it with a number 1206? Is it a numeric in some book of law? And best, we Call them gay. They choose to label as 302.. And a possible explanation: 1 is man. 2 is woman. 302 means 3 over 2, or 1 and a half, meaning in between a man and woman. Erm. So is it a gender? Or is it another section of numbering?

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

:: 私の誕生日 ::

really tired to write.. all the words and blah blah blah in the midst of exams.. suffocating.. anyway, i celebrated my 22nd birthday today unofficially.. haha.. coz theres a bigger party coming up.. today was juz a small gathering with vinc, han and mig, and that was after my second paper this sem. Its also Vinc's 21st birthday, but he will have a bigger, more official party this coming friday!

so many fun tings and laughter as we rocked jurong point.. heres the pictures of the cakes galore back in my room..










So here is the 22 year old miloboi.. my cousin asked me, so is it 大了 or 老了. I wish I am 老了, 而且更加成熟和有智慧.

*to vinc: 21 years old le. Its time to grow up (but I seem the one who's more immature hor..). Be more independent k, and be yourself. Don't ever doubt yourself and your capabilities. You can do it! Happy 21st Birthday*

:: Birthday Luck? ::

Is there any such things??

Haha. Well.. I hope that the lucky birthday star shines on me and i score really well for my Japanese exam later..

All the best, Isaac!

*HMJ1 - Japanese Level 1 - 1700 - 1930 Hrs - Hall D - Sports Hall 2 - Seat no. 469*

miloboi sayd: "gambate neh!"

:: Birthday Wish ::

Happy Birthday to myself.

22 years old. Really. Its time to grow up.

Be more independent. Have more self discipline.

Be happy. Happiness will make each day easier to live by.

Be loved. And you will know how to love in return. Cherish what you have.

Be there for whoever needs you. You will find true friends.

It is during these tough times that you will know who is there for you. Be yourself. And love yourself.

Isaac. Happy Birthday. Its your day:)

miloboi says: "I wish i can have more money, so i can buy all the things I want..
i want my viewty!"

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

:: luck ::

i need luck.

loads of it.

i believe in it.

please don't prove me wrong.

Superband2 054

if not i will die.

*FE1007 . Mathematics II . 1300-1530 Hrs . Hall B . Nanyang Audi Exhibition Hall . Seat 841*

miloboi says: "good luck! good luck! good luck!"

:: memories ::


Those were the days. In pjc, we left our imprint on the wall. Naive as we were. But they are memories. Good ones. If only we can go back and relive the days. Wud have done better. Wud not be as stress as like now. I think.

:: code red ::


Again. From the boy who never learns his lesson. Wonder what will happen this time. Well well.. Less than 12 hours to his paper. And he is not completely prepared. Has he really done his best? Pray hard. Its your last chance, boy. Pray really hard.

Monday, April 14, 2008

::LoVe.我要的只是专心完整的爱情 ::::

A note to the one I love...

ウィリさん。いつまでも愛してるよ。







exams are drawing so near. where is my sense of urgency. what am I doing? I so do not know.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

:: Yumi-licious freshness ::


After reading numerous great reviews about the say bons crepes at PS b1, i decided to give it a try. For 4.50, the french mushroom and ham crepe was fresh and delicious. Will be back for more.

:: basics to be engineer ::


I aspire to be a good engineer. But first i need to be good in my maths. However, i completely do not understand what i'm studying. I'm the domo who will be killed by exams. Argh.

Friday, April 11, 2008

::concentration.. concentration.. this is a game of concentration::

And I can't concentrate. Really. I just can't sit down and study. I don't understand how people can study in a library. I can't. I can live in complete silence. It feels so odd that the environment is so quiet and I simply hate the intense atmosphere. The existence of people around me disturbs me even more. I prefer to study in the comfort of some soft music, a cool temperate and some (hopefully not fat inducing) finger food. And I am still contemplating the need of of having a laptop while studying.

I don't know how I made it to university actually. I am not a science (especially not Physics) person. But I struggled through my life (6 years since sec sch) studying science. Wow. Now, I am still in the field of physical science, and probably the rest of my life will be mathematical or physics based. How?

I suddenly have the urge now to just quit school and venture out into the working world. But then again, what can I do? I do not know. I am like a lost soul still, despite me reaching 22 years of age in a few days time. This is bad. This adult here is still a wondering soul shopping for his interest. Maybe the society is to be blamed. Isaac is a linguist, how, tell me how, can i venture and make a big break into the scene. Any dramatists reading this?? (prays hard).

But for now, all I can do is to study hard. I will reach where I want to if I have the discipline to concentrate on my priorities now. And I definitely need to. Exams are just 5 days away.

Message to myself: You can do it if you work hard. It is never too late. Now your priorities and you will suceed. Grab and cherish this opportunity. Love youself and love what you are doing. You will be happier. You can do it!


miloboi says: "this game of concentration takes motivation,
and your perseverance to succeed. Want it hard! And you will have it."

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

::清明时季雨纷纷::

清明节时雨纷
路上行人欲断魂
借问酒家何处有

童遥指杏花村.

*its cold.. brrr*

I'm really mugging like an idiot now.. roar.. feeling darn stressed as i've got to improve loads and fly high high high till i go practically crazy for the upcoming exams.. its just a week away. Never felt so intense before.

dearie is busy.. he is travelling everywhere for his work. i can onli admire all the pictures and the scent of his clothes he brings back after each trip. oh.. i hope the sakura smells nice.

well, heres wat i did last weekend.. now then got the little pocket of time to upload..

last saturday was a busy busy busy day for me. i went to Books Actually new store opening cupcakes party at Ann Siang Road. Its a nice little shop, taking over half of wat was Front Row. The atmosphere at the new BA store is still as nice, i especially like the little courtyard. how i wish i can have a little place of mine like this. no pictures of the store, but what i offer is a photo of the delicious diabetic cup cake. *laughs*

After that, i rushed down Tanjong Pagar to buy the really yummy Chewy Junior cream puffs.. these little sweet delights are really yummy. You should try it.. theres another branch at Plaza Singapure if i'm not wrong. there's savoury ones too, like chaw siew and black pepper chix tt sort.. Yup..

then i headed down to Central to prepare for the Chestnuts gathering I organised. We were to have dinner at Manhattan Fish Market, which according to my friend was a slightly cheaper option to Fish&Co. And boy was the food yummy and comparable. The really nice platters. we tried three different platters that evening..
The occasion was a celebration for Julia and YiHao's birthday. Yup. And I got them a special cake alternatives, desserts from Gobi! Wow.. They are really delicious and sweet! Loved them!

Thereafter we headed for a nice talk and chat session beside the Singapore river.. And I shared with them my Chewy Juniors.. Hehe!

We contemplated on where to head to, before deciding to go over to Clark Quay main area to seek for alternatives. We were at the smoke n fountain area, and decided to cam whore. Yeah..

miloboi and yihao
Got loads of pictures taken.. but unfortunately i dun have the time to go edit them to look nicer, so, some other time ba..

And then we contemplated on whether to go MOS to open the eyes of some of our friends.,. haha.. "clubbing virgins" were ready to break their "virginity".. oops..

And since it was free entry for students and I was a member and can bring in 2 guests, we decided to give it a go. And there we went into MOS for a nights fun!

*did i say i was having exams next week? really guilty*

cam whore.....


miloboi and Julia ah ma (aka birthday baby)
miloboi and jason

miloboi and huiting

miloboi and darius

miloboi and Jianrong

miloboi and santymiloboi and chengyee

we were unsatisfied wif the first pic and decided to take another.. but..

i look so darn fat in the above.. eww....
so i took another shot of myself to complement..

Sidetrack: I've gotten into some problems with my IPPT.. really hopes it dissolves really really soon.. I have to! Hmmm..

For now.. well.. all i can do is to mug.. mug mug mug.. stressed!

Thursday, April 3, 2008

:: en bloc ::


This aquarium at wisma atria might b oft neglected by us. We have seen it there for ages. Our only memory was when we were kids when our parents brought us there to see fishes. Hey! It was a special aquarium, with fishes that we never seen before, and definitely not avail at those long kangs we played in. And most importantly there was no underwater world then. Now, it will be gone. This weekend, there will be a little party to commemorate the move of there fishes to where, underwater world of course. If you've never taken a photo with it before, this weekends is your only chance! Join in the wisma atria aquarium en bloc bloc party.