:: how different am i? ::

was hearing radio earlier on

when i came across this song by rene liu

from her new album,

a mandarin translation of Angela Aki's song tegami

called continue-to my 15 year old self (继续-给15岁的自己）

i wrote about Angela's song back a year ago..

and i happen to read several posts from May 2009

and thinking of it

i havent changed, not a bit

the surroundings and people might have changed

but somehow or rather

my feelings and thoughts havent

more about tt later

back to the song..

when i heard the mandarin version by rene on radio

i just hummed along to it

it was familiar

and i almost cud sing the japanese one

although it was back then 1 year ago

and my japanese have very much deproved since

hearing the mandarin song

i cud feel something

though not as strong

i wrote tweets about my feeling then

about how lost i felt in the mandarin version

seeking a feeling with the tune but not running along with the lyrics

the sense of being touched by something close to heart

unfortunately doesn't come with the mandarin tune

and i had to search out my older NEC lappie where the song was in it's itunes

(haven't got the time to transfer.. or just plain lazy)

a whole year

and when i heared the bridge

i felt the urge

love? kinship? friends? intropecction? me?

not sure

but i feel a surge of blood flowing to my head

a sense of warmth

keep on believing

keep on believing

believing in oneself? believing the world will change?

believing that i can do it all?

i've let myself down and some people around me

i've not necessarily kept my promises

but just as well

the world hasn't been all that kind to me either

i've gone thru uneasy times in the past year

and so much more to say

well..

and tt brings me to the posts and reflections

i've somehow lessened my blogging

because i tweet much more

just look at the tweet board beside

blogging to me is when i have something i wanna say in details

when i'm really tired

and want a channel to vent

i'm sorry

but.. i'll try.. no promises ya..

i want so much in life

i try so much in life

but myself

why is it like that? what am i thinking?

what are the people around me thinking? have i really matured?

why am i so easioly tired?

when can i be trusted?

wheres the power to drive me thru ups and downs and various tasks?????

where are my friends? where are my love?

who are you?

who am i?

are we realoly different day by day?

can i keep my promises and resolutions?

reflecting is one

changing is another

looking back and forth

how different am i gonna be tmr?

next week?

next month?

next year?

next 5 years....

and it goes on

i aim high

we aim to change

but really

isn't it a vicious cycle that  keeps going around?

things change

but how different, really

well.. lets feel the song that sparked all these..

 Angela Aki's Tegami - to my 15 year old self

(in Romanji and with English translation)

(original can be read from the post at the link above:))

Haikei kono tegami yonde iru anata wa

Doko de nani wo shite iru no darou

Chuugo no boku ni wa

Dare ni mo hanasenai

Nayami no tane ga aru no desu



Dear sir if you’re reading this letter

Where are you and what are you doing

When I was 15 I couldn’t talk with anyone

In that time I was very worried about that



Mirai no jibun ni atete taku tegami nara

Kitto sunao ni uchiakerareru darou



If I write a letter to my future self

Surely I could confess with simplicity



Ima, makesou de nakisou de

Kieteshimaisou na boku wa

Dare no kotoba wo

Shinji arukeba ii no?

Hitotsu shikanai kono mune ga

Nando mo barabara ni warete

Kurushii naka de ima wo ikiteiru

Ima wo ikiteiru



Now, losing together, crying together

I go out for search

In which words I have to believe for keep walking

How many times this heart had been broken?

Even that hurt us, we’re gonna live

We’re gonna live



Haikei arigatou

Chuugo no anata ni

Tsutaetai koto ga aru no desu

Jibun to wa nani de

Doko e mukau beki ga

Toitsuzukereba mietekuru



Dear sir thanks to your 15teen self

I want to tell you about things that had happened

Why do I have to face myself?

If I had come to see the issue



Areta seishun no umi wa kibishii keredo

Asu no kishime e to

Yume no fune yo susume



The stormy seas of youth are harsh but

A boat of dreams will lead you to tomorrow’s shore



Ima, makenai de nakanai de

Kieteshimaisou na toki wa

Jibun no koe wo shinji arukeba ii no

Otona no boku mo kizutsuite

Nemurenai yoru wa aru kedo

Nigakute amai

Ima wo iketeiru



Now don’t lose, don’t cry

In the moment when they disappear

I believe in my own words to keep walking

My adult self it’s damaged too

And don’t sleep at nights but

My sweet pain lives now



Jinsei no

Subete ni imi ga aru kara

Osorezu ni

Anata no yume wo sodatete



From all the sense of live

The fear of believe in your dreams

Keep on believing…



Lalala, lalala

Keep on believing

Lalala, lalala

Keep on believing

Keep on believing

Keep on believing



Ima, makesou de nakisou de

Kieteshimaisou na boku wa

Dare no kotoba wo

Shinji arukeba ii no?

Ah, makenai de nakanai de

Kiete shimai souna boku wa

Jibun no koe wo

Shinji arukeba ii no

Itsu no jidai wo

Kanashimi wo

Sakete wa torenai keredo

Egao wo misete

Ima wo ikiteikou

Ima wo ikiteikou



Now, losing together, crying together

I go out for search

In which words I have to believe for keep walking

Now don’t lose, don’t cry

In the moment when they disappear

I believe in my own words to keep walking

Mistakes from all the ages and sadness

We can’t prevent

Show a smile, we’re gonna live

We’re gonna live



Haikei kono tegami yonde iru anata ga

Shiawase na koto wo

Negaimasu



Dear sir if you’re reading this letter

Hope it brings you happiness

Rene Liu

刘若英 - 继续-给15岁的自己

知道吗我总是惦记

十五岁不快乐的你

我多想 把哭泣的你

搂进我怀里

不确定自己的形状

动不动就和世界碰撞

那些伤 我终于为你

都一一抚平

那一年最难的习题

也不过短短的几行笔记

现在我却总爱回忆

回忆当时不服输的你

天空 会不会雨停 会不会放晴

会不会幸福在终点等着我和你

会不会是我忘记 还能勇敢地去淋雨

我们继续走下去 继续往前进

继续走向期待中的未知旅行

感觉累了的时候 抱着我们的真心

静静好好地休息

这些年我还算可以

至少都对得起自己

谢谢你 是你的单纯

给了我指引

遇见过很多很多人

完成了一些些事情

你一定 还无法想象

多精彩过瘾

谁说人生是公平的

它才不管我们想要怎样

很感激 你那么倔强

我才能变成今天这样

我们继续走下去 继续往前进

看这条路肯让我们走到哪里

我们想去的地方 一定也有人很想去

我们都不要放弃 都别说灰心

永远听从刻在心中那些声音

感觉累了的时候 请你把我的手握紧

没有地图 人生只能凭着手上的梦想 Oh~

循着它的光 曲折转弯找到有光的地方

Lalala Lalala Lalala 那年的梦想

Lalala Lalala Lalala 人要有梦想

勇敢的梦想 疯狂的梦想

继续走下去 继续往前进

路旁有花 心中有歌 天上有星

我们要去的那里 一定有最美丽的风景

都不要放弃 都别说灰心

不要辜负心里那个干净的自己

痛到想哭的时候 就让泪水洗掉委屈

我们要相信自己 永远都相信

来到这个世界不是没有意义

我们做过的事情 都会留在人心里

会被回忆而珍惜

有一天我将会老去

希望你会觉得满意

我没有 对不起那个

十五岁的自己

:: mixed feelings ::

Schools tough..
i like what i'm studying.. all the interesting things in the world of media business
but i really dun like the truckload of assignments..
i'm selective
and its getting heavier
video productions
proposals for chinese media seminar
reviews and analysis for PR management
writings for copywriting assignments
essays for chinese literature
research n report and weekly reviews of films for asian cinema
i need space
and air to breathe
and time to do other things..

prioritising..
gotta learn..

and theres army..
ippt and rt.. i feel..
i'm gonna die..
need to think think think..
of an alternative route
to neverland..

:: pain in the arse ::

Am having my Monster Ball bday party this coming sat
and splurging alot again..
bad bad..

i should have constantly reminded and spanked myself at the thoughts
of having birthday parties
after all the hassle that i've been through in the past 3 years
i once vowed that three was enough
and a trilogy shall be kept to a good threesome

i broke the law

well
there was a purpose and big aim when i started planning for the Monster ball
this saturday
that was to "boost" sales of purewiz
i dunno how it will work out
but the turnout currently is much better than i expected
initially i din even think of inviting many of the ppl now on my "coming" list
but well
its.. ok! they are all good friends/cousins of mine
so its good to share the joy with them
who knows i may be in china already during my next birthday!

so the monsterball has been planned
and although there seems to be a very obvious theme
there is none
haha

i've decided what to wear and its gonna be a nice simple set of attire
and i believe it will be a blast
but the things i'm preparing and the things i've prepared has been.. argh..

and nearing to the day
i get the tension i once had 2 years ago and 3 years ago
its a one man show currently
and its tiring
and thinking of the food, the drinks, the food, the drinks and
how i can make each of my guest happy
i am disappointed with myself

its a long drawn procedure and i blame myself totally for thinking too much each time
being too creative and having different ideas and thoughts just ain't good
especially when you have to execute it all by yourself

i feel now that the date is close but i've not done anything
oh no!

and another note
i should have just gotten a restaurant
(which i got many ideas and many quotes)
but due to me wanting to save money
decided to bring it on to a chalet
kinda regret it now
could have been easier getting a crew of friends to a restaurant/cafe
and just enjoy everything being metted out for you
and you have fun for the three hours
like last year's Happy Party..

at least i dun need to worry about the cake
the drinks
the beer
the desserts
the many many many things
i've got in mind
people staying over or not
entertainment at night
transport
water and drinks and food to last through the night
and.....

haiz~

i can't wait wait for it to be here
and we can have fun
take pictures
tons of them
and enjoy!

Monster Ball will be somethings same yet different
i dunno wat..
but it will be.. LOL!

(not forgetting the small group coming over for the big monster party the night before..
me and pg, russ00, ptmd, wc, and the other bitches.. roar.. tt will be a blast too!)

:: Liao Zhai Rocks and Singapore Mandarin Musicals... ::

I don't really like musicals
I think they are often overrated
and i dun understand what they are singing most of the time
chinese musicals were once (in my mind), worse
because its not easy to understand the lyrics,
especially the fast numbers
and somehow spoils the flow with the dancing and all

but being a sucker for local theatre and all
and after watching the successful If there are seasons (天冷就回来）last year
I felt i just had to support TTP's musical extravaganza Liao Zhai rocks this year round

so i caught the show on thursday
and i must say
i still do not like musicals, not in mandarin at least

not tt i'm jealous tt i'm still not getting my break in theatre
(i've somehow given tt up some time ago)
and also nt because its not good
i must say its fantastic
wonderful cast, set, lighting, plot, storyline...

then again,
there's the factor of chinese seems too cheem to be enjoyed like that
you get carried away by the nice music
and you can't get the lyrics because of the different octaves and music..
argh..
you don't enjoy theatre like it should be
the musical element somehow overpowers the acting and theatrics
and with the strong use of superb lyrics on stage in a new setting
not all audience can hear properly
and with the blasting mic
the sounds are distorted
and the words don't come across just like it should be/intended to be

well..

these are just my opinions..
there are lots of improvements spaces
i wish
one day, that I can still be part/create my own theatre group/company
and create outstanding performance
with rich theatrical elements and artistic aspects
and which are also accessible to the general audience looking
for an entertainment..

well well... 

nevertheless, kudos to the great performance by the Liao Zhai Rocks team
it all went very well
i just left feeling a little tad lacking of something
that is probably it..
that missing element! that.. erm.. connection? not sure..

:: 壳 ::

Another of my favourite song of the moment..
from Tiger Huang as well..
feels tt its complementary of the one previous song..

就算是真的 会永远单身
双人床依旧睡得很安稳
也不想 屈就於寂寞
眼前找个人 托付掉 后半生

怎样把自己 交给下个人
用一种心甘情愿的口吻
时间 狠狠向我提问
敢不敢 心再一次放任
为了某个人等

我心里包覆的壳 谁懂得
只是一层保护色
或许爱情离我太远了
快要记不得 多久没用力哭了
为什么 把自己隔绝了
我心里包覆的壳 谁晓得
我并不习惯冰冷
也想感受心跳的狂热
期待谁发现 我看似完整人生
还有个 空白缺口


怎样把自己 交给下个人
用一种心甘情愿的口吻
时间 狠狠向我提问
敢不敢 心再一次放任
为了某个人等

我心里包覆的壳 谁懂得
只是一层保护色
或许爱情离我太远了
快要记不得 多久没用力哭了
为什么 把自己隔绝了
我心里包覆的壳 谁晓得
我并不习惯冰冷
也想感受心跳的狂热
期待谁发现 我看似完整人生
还有个 空白缺口

我心里包覆的壳 谁晓得
我并不习惯冰冷
也想感受心跳的狂热
期待谁发现 我看似完整人生
还有个 空白缺口

会是谁发现 我看似完整人生
还有个 爱的缺口

:: 我是谁? 我是谁! 我是谁?!!!? ::

        我是谁 你是否常常这样问自己

我是谁 总是活在别人的期望里
我是谁 是谁又擅自帮你定义了
你是谁 只有不是自己才安全
为什麽 你以为这个世界很美丽
为什麽 你爱这个世界胜过爱自己
为什麽 这个世界不给你平等待遇
为什麽 到底做错了什麽
朋友都说你太 太 太奇怪
在背後把你当成笑 笑 笑话看
每一个动作都被瞎猜
他们说你是个不能容忍的存在
你想要的很 很 很简单
不过就是最普通的 的 的平凡
诚实做自己有时候很难
但是请你勇敢的试一次看看
无论他们又说什麽 闲言闲语无法伤害我
世界上只有一个我 没人能代替的我
无论他们又做什麽 小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的
The most beautiful
会不会 上帝把你的灵魂放错了身体
会不会 是故意整你不是不小心
会不会 你常常都觉得力不从心
会不会 坚持要做自己太危险
凭什麽 难道比较特别就是不对
凭什麽 先下了注解在认识之前
凭什麽 只不过想认真的活一遍
凭什麽 随便就把人定罪
朋友都说你太 太 太奇怪
在背後把你当成笑 笑 笑话看
每一个动作都被瞎猜
他们说你是个不能容忍的存在
你想要的很 很 很简单
不过就是最普通的 的 的平凡
诚实做自己有时候很难
但是请你勇敢的试一次看看
无论他们又说什麽 闲言闲语无法伤害我
世界上只有一个我 没人能代替的我
无论他们又做什麽 小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的
The most beautiful
无论他们又说什麽 闲言闲语无法伤害我
世界上只有一个我 没人能代替的我
无论他们又做什麽 小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的
The most beautiful
无论他们又说什麽 闲言闲语无法伤害我
我是谁 这个问题困扰你多少天多少夜
我是谁 谁有资格决定你怎样才是对
世界上只有一个我 没人能代替的我
我是谁 我是谁我是谁
我就是我你就是你
认真做自己的人最美丽
无论他们又做什麽 小动作无法打败我
我是谁 这个问题困扰你多少天多少夜
我是谁 谁有资格决定你怎样才是对
我知道自己是最美丽的
我是谁 我是谁我是谁
我就是我你就是你
认真做自己的人最美丽



really? I wish.. 认真做自己的人最美丽
not bothered about the world and changes
not bothered about the changing trends and the way the world progress
not challenged about the diversities of life
and living the life the way you are
loner or not
with anyone specil or not
just being myself
i wish
but i can't seem to convince myself
who am i?
who am i?
who am i?

:: all by myself . and myself . and myself ::

I was at the cliff, almost about to fall off.
I was at the brim, almost spilling out.
I feel congested. Emotionally. Psychologically.
I had no one to turn to.
Then comes the realisation. That I have always been putting on a strong front.
Always showing and thinking that I've so many friends around me.
But who can I turn to when I need to talk?
None.
I don't have anyone whom I can trust. or is close enough for me
to call upon in the middle of the night.
because that is just not what I'm accustomed to.
As weird as it sounds. I'm a loner.
I feel empty. Lonely. Solo.

1. Relationships are confusing. I don't know what I want or maybe who I am. My love life doesn't blend with my life. What does that makes me? I don't seem to know then.

2. My results sucks. Does that mean i'm not cut out for this line? Where am I headed towards? Blank.

3. Sleeping throughout the holidays. Its been more than a month. No aim. No target.

4. Broke up and together. Sex and fucks. All going nowhere, again. Where the sunrises and where it sets. I have no idea. Lost? No, just zero. Non-directional.

5. Having a million ideas, but not practically making any of them work. I'm a waste. Because I don't have the kick to get me going.

6. Who are my friends? Invites out there to over a hundred people. Response is near null. Right. What are friends for? Or, do I have? Who takes me as one? Back to this topic again. Bad.. Next..

7. Motivation gets things going? I think money do. I need a new goal in life which I can see a finishing life. Not now, apparently.

8. What's my aim in doing so much? When my target seems to be so insanely different from where I am headed towards? Why am I preparing so much when it all boils down to being nothing?

9. I find no consolation in being myself.

10. Given up. Just say you love me and fuck me and leave. That is probably what makes me happy. At least for the split second. A moment felt of someone there. Hugging you. The warmth. Comfort. Thanks.

:: 虎年要听黄小琥！ ::

不得了！太棒了！太棒了！
大家一起与灭绝师太动起来！

:: exams and a good new year ::

1. exams are tomorrow. i feel... ill prepared.. oh my!

2. the past week, i've met people who are all too serious about life, it scares me. or maybe its just my live and let live attitude that makes me worried.. not too sure if i'm worried about myself or for others..

3. i realised that results are of utmost importance to me. but more often than not, i give up halfway. its bad, i know, but its like a nature to me. wrong wrong mentality that i must change.

4. new year was okay. nothing special. like what gregagoogoo says, quarter-life crisis. how to get out of this rat race and impossible life woth a million thoughts but with none fulfilled? what do i really want? lost...

5. switching tracks are what i keep thinking of. at this age, how many more times can i do that? can't keep rellying on my mum already..

6. as i write this post, my heart really feels hard and thumping. tsk tsk. emotional. so emotional that i could cry. gotta work hard!

7. just went to bai taisui earlier in the afternoon. first time i went. eye opening experience. i'm not a religious person, but since "tigers" crash with a certain god almost every other year, and my life hasn't been exactly that smooth every now and then, maybe a little contribution and chants might help. for a smooth life and some peace and happiness...

8. been sick for the longest time. my nose is constantly producing mucus, at many times, it is thick and has a bad smell. i wonder what is wrong.

9. thoughts cram my head and i've been having terrible headaches the past few days. many many things to do.

10. i have the time. but i seem to be wasting. i have no goals to myself. needs a change of attitude, fast.

11. coordinating the photoshoot isn't easy. blame it on myself. hope it will go smoothly. and when the shoot is done, i'm just awaiting for the launch. its exciting. my friends.. check out: http://purewiz.livejournal.com  and join the mailing list. can't wait to show u all the clothes! yay!

12. hope to get the part time job. keep me occupied for awhile and have fun:) been wanting this job for the longest time.. :)

13. anyone knows of ppl who can do tailoring/sewing of delicate designs and at reasonable prices? needs help urgently. call/sms/email me!

14. love. :) loved.

15. sharing a line: be sincere in the things you do, then even if you fail, at least you know you did right.

hope for the best in my exams and all that i do...!!!

:: 大嘴巴来咯！ ::

Puma has an exciting tie up with talented Taiwanese hip hop group Da Mouth, and its here in Singapore!

Now, you can join in a fantastic contest on the webby Da Mouth X Puma Da Final Frame where u get to design a picture which could very well be chosen to be printed on new Puma shopping carriers.. How cool is that!

And Da Mouth will be here for an exclusive show case at the uber luxe 72-13 at Mohd Sultan.. They will also be appearing at a Ion Orchard's Puma store!

Here's how..

Win tickets to the exclusive showcase at 72-13:

-simply join the contest and design a final frame to the comic at the site above.. u may use the simple user-friendly final frame editor on the site, or create ur own if u are design trained.. nice eh..

or

-simply spend $150 at Puma store and get ur pass!

Win tickets to the meet and greet at Puma Ion.

- Spend $200 at Puma and u'll get ur chance to win passes to the event. Yay!

Yup.. I've joined the contest all right.. and hoping to win the passes to the event at 72-13.. and hopefully u can join me too! Yup.. If u can design, help me go online and vote for mine? Haha..

Roar!

:: the answer is.. what again? ::

1. I'm madly into concerts.. or should I say, too many people are coming for concert.. no.. too many great singers are coming down for concert..

2. 17 April is the clash of the mandopop bands.. SHE vs MayDay... i prefer the latter.. so.. see all at Padang for a repeat of their runaway sold out successful concert from last year..

3. then there's news tt another runaway sold out successful concert last year will be back.. in less than 2 weeks.. yes.. Stefanie Sun is bringing in a "golden lunar new year edition" of her hit "The answer is..." world tour back to Singapore, and holding it at Resorts World Sentosa.. the first chinese singer to perform there, mind you... and oh, we sooooo miss stef!

4. why am i watching concerts that i've watched once? coz they are real good, i guess...

5. but i'm not splurging like i did on Amit's concert.. bleah.. $121 for each of these two is enough to make me broke..

6. then there's Jam Hsiao and Sammi Cheng.. one vocal powerhouse and his first concert, another being cantopop's brightest showgirl on Singapore stage after years of absence.. well well.. i think i should go watch.. maybe after new year and when i've spare cash after planning for the 24th bday party.. hehe!

7. time flies.. the sem is coming to an end, and i've not found the answer to many things.. contemplative of quitting and pursuing something i should.. like.. a.........

8. LNY is like.. next week, and altho i kinda feel the hype, i'm too busy piled up under my homework, i can't seem to be bothered. it doesn't help tt there's exams after the LNY break..

9. but have cleared some modules le.. translation n feature report writings done.. and will be done with webdesign n writ comm next.. hopefully radio prod will conclude this coming week too.. then its a good break before the exams..

10. don't know what to look forward to.. coz the tees are not ready, and i'm quite dead with fashionisiac.. oh no.. need to keep my passion alive and get something going..

11. LNY clothes.. din buy much.. ok.. none.. coz i realise tt my clothes in the past year has over piled.. and i kinda forgotten to budget for new clothes.. and no time too.. too busy with assignments.. and love..

12. when caishenye meets cupid.. caishenye comes first.. oh.. forgot to mention.. caishenye comes onli once, my cupid acts like a caishenye on most other days.. :) hehe.. <3

:: not as easy ::

黄小琥-没那么简单

作词:姚若龙作曲:萧煌奇


没那么简单
就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那么多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫
 
没那么简单
就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听
自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机
舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那么容易
每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪
轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那么容易
才会特别让人着迷
什么都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心
所以最开心曾经

想念最伤心
但却最动心的记忆

:: resolutions ::

 1. I never make any resolutions if u realise. Coz i don't know how it works.

2. If resolutions are just a list of things i want to resolve and will work towards it, then maybe i shall start one.

3. Its not too late to start having New Year's resolutions's eh? Since its January and Lunar New Year isn't exactly here yet.

4. Oh, times flies. Guess what. This sem is (finally) (frightfully) coming to an end and tt means its assignments galore..

5. That brings me to my first resolution.. no matter what happens this semester, the next acad year i've got to wake up my idea. Pull up my GPA! 3.5... puleeez....

6. Diet.. always saying, never doing.. will start.. today!

7. Exercise and generate a lova and habit for it. Will start.. have to start..

8. Stop spending like theres no tomorrow.. set aside $XX each month into savings.. a little goes a long way.. i hope.

9. Love one person and stick to it, or don't love at all. You dun deserve love if you do not know how to love.  (tt said, i'm kinda stuck in some kind of... hmm.. )

10. Be true to yourself and the people around you!

11. Start planning for a little piece of sky of your own. Get the fashion blog rolling.. sooooon!!!

12. Ensure I work towards goals and do well in designs.!!

13. PureWIZ is a project in long term planning. My biggest resolution, kick start this! and then...

14. Get my multi-concept in one going.. blog+own label+publishing... oh my... this will be a 5 years work plan/resolution..

15. Get everything off my mind and start working, realistically!

really.....

:: headache ::

1. Have been overusing this word. But its getting bad. Real bad migraine. Feel like dying soon.

2. Going through a lot. Too much work piling up but my headache is obstructing me.

3. I love to design, and looking for new ways to do things. :)

4. I don't like to take telephone calls. Stop calling stop calling i don't wanna talk anymore.

5. SMS is good. I will reply when i want to. I won't if i don't want to. Like i said, i won't take no calls.

6. I don't like to repeat myself. I say things once, then its done. Silence.

7. Got many big dreams to fulfill. Wonder when.

8. I'm domesticated. I love staying at home. Curbs me from spending.

9. Chinese New Year and Valentines' Day. Not sure what will happen. Things might change very much. Talking face to face with people you love makes sense. <3

10. Needs coffee. And a break. Ice cream makes me happy. Good coffee and nice simple good ice cream. :)

Back to working on assignments....

:: 1998 ::

Had a meetup with 7 of my primary school friends.. Yes.. Just a small group meetup which was randomly organised because one girl returned after eons. Haha.. And I got quite excited before it. Can u imagine.. It's a good 11-12 years since we last met..

But as it closed in, the excitement kind of faded..

And when we were there.. I felt.. Out of place once again..

I think it's just me.. They were like friends.. Yet.. I felt so distanced.. I couldn't find a single topic in common. I keep feeling tt I'm different. Memories were dug out.. Things which happened, people who were in our class.. Long lost friends not contacted..

But I keep having the feeling tt they seem to keep in contact. Just not me. I dun remember who was my best friend back then. Or if I even had a clique.. At all.. All through my life..

I feel like I dun know who I really am. Is it just a persona I always put out and I've lost who I really am? Who are these friends?

It's nice. Really. But.. Something.. Dunno what.. But something.. I crave for a best friend at different stages. But maybe it's because of how high I portray myself that I have lost such friend.

It comes to the point when we are leaving and saying goodbyes when I think: what is the point if this meet up. When will we meet again?? What will happen till then? What will happen then? Someone asked: are we meeting up again? I don't know. Everyone has accompolished so much. They are all everywhere..

We are a so different now. There's a teacher, an air steward, undergrads going to grad, a lawyer, students in australia.. I feel....

When will we meet again? I'm skeptical...




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:: OVB _ 不老传奇哈林庾澄庆-到死都要18岁! ::

不老传奇哈林庾澄庆;到死都要18岁!

文：林觉豪（学生记者）

    近年来因主持台湾爆红综艺节目《百万大歌星》而找到事业第二春的哈林庾澄庆，为庆祝出道23周年而发行了青春摇滚情歌精选集《到死都要十八岁》。顶着酷爆的造型，在专辑封面上提着电吉他耍帅的哈林，想撒一点小谎，带听众回到青春，找回梦想，回归18岁时的那个天堂。

    专辑封面造型酷似五月天阿信，哈林这次通过精选集提醒着大家他始终时是台湾嘻哈摇滚界的前辈，早在多年前就通过国民大合唱，如《快乐song》和《让你妈妈new一下》奠定了基础。

      这张精选集阔气的收录了哈林23年来的历作，收录了多达45首精选曲，以及三首新歌。三张CD分别名为“哈青春”，“哈情歌”和“哈摇滚”。个别都收录了一首代表性新歌。

      三首新歌中都是由哈林本人创作。“青春新歌”《第三个愿望》唱出情窦初开的少男少女之心声，列出小情人希望在一起能有的幸福。情歌新代表《无尽透明的思 念》虽展示出哈林不可否认的好唱功，但和经典哈式情歌对比，少了那一分感动。同名摇滚主打《到死都要18岁》最充满惊喜，重摇滚的曲风唱出哈林渴望再次找 寻18岁的精彩和那股摇滚的激情。已有一定年龄的哈林哥唱起这首个人创作带来另一般风味，带有一点沧桑，但绝对能和当今摇滚乐手拼一下。

    精选部分完整收录了所有哈林这23年来负有高潮迭起的音乐生涯中的代表作，从早期的《只有为你》《老实情歌》《靠近》《熟悉》到巅峰期的《情非得已》《海啸》《春泥》《戒不掉》以及近期得《爱你的只有一个我》《蛋炒饭》。

      哈林这些年来更是翻唱了多收经典的歌曲，都演唱得十分到位，唱出自己的味道。《遇见》《流水年华》《热情的沙漠》《大眼睛》都让哈林印上了自己的标志。中英语能力旗鼓相当的他表现出名曲《Y.M.C.A》和《Into The Night》都投入另一番风味。

      《到死都要18岁》记录了台湾乐坛最rock，最用心，最称职，最全方位的音乐人哈林庾澄庆的音乐生涯里程碑。

:: twit... ::

Was about to say tt this post very short..
then i saw and remembered i had a tweetboard beside..
and thus i must say.. tweeting is indeed very convenient..
nt tt i'm lazy to write my blog..
just tt i dun have the time
and short tweets tell you my feeling there and then
unless there are issues tt i must write long long about
tt i'll do when i've more time
i hope.. haha.. i will la..

for now..
feel my real time feelings on the tweet board beside..
i tweet.. alot.. i promise!

on a sidenote
i'll be meeting my primary school friends tmr night for dinner
and yes, its a dozen years ago since i met them, about there..
haha.. its arranged on fb due to someone's return from overseas..
and most of them look.. alien.. as in.. i dun recognise them thru their pics on fb
tt is amazing!

can really expect how it will be like tmr.. gotta dress up and meet them man! this is really really exciting! haha.. can you imagine.. i was 12 then.. i'm gonna be 24 soon.. can't believe it, really!

will share more after tmr..

if i have the time..
coz i've got assignments and projects
and they
are
piling
up....
....
....

:: last post of 2009 ::

As we enter a new decade is less than 2 hours, here I shall post my very last post at Marina Bay floating platform as I celebrate the arrival of 2010 n bid goodbye to a wonderful 2009 with thousands of fellow Singaporeans..

2009 has been for me, a year of challenges and new surprises..

1. I left NTU for a short leave.. (I'll be back! I hope..)

2. I started poly life a bit later than everyone my age, but still.. It's an experience.

3. I climbed up high at NTU vertical marathon.

4. I ran.. A lot!

5. iPhone!! Haha!

6. I spent a lot!! Not a good thing. Bad bad actually.. I'll try to save.

7. Love is a tricky thing. I got lost. Found. Lost? Not sure. But I felt something special. Went up n down a roller coaster ride. Wild! Not sure my current status. But I do hope to find my way back into love :)

8. Had the tied of my party series. Blast!!!

9. Made many many new friends. And out to do loadsa volunteer work.

10. Trip to Vietnam for YEP with the cool peeps from HMS. An experience I cannot forget!!

11. Party like no other. P, Jeremy, Ben n all u guts.. Rocks!!

12. Started my fashion blog!! Yay!! And.. Kicked off designing our own label.. Look out!

Looking forward to an awesome year ahead doing much much more. Really..

Things I hope to achieve in the new year..

1. Achieve better score.. Much better. And venture into businesses for design.

2. Be a notable fashion blogger. Up my fash sense.

3. Hope Fashionisiac will be successful n more ventures and opportunities..

4. Purewiz will kick off real well n b a cool indie brand!!

5. I will get recognised for my work n leadership in school. Hope to be part of the club! :)

6. Make more cool friends!

7. Spend within limits.. Really. Stop frivolous spending..

8. Love love love ;) long love!!

9. Have a blast at a great great party!

10. Be a good mature boy/man with a positive attitude and out to achieve everything I can!! Love myself!!

11. Be who I really am!

12. Be healthy, my, my family, and all my friends.

Lastly...peace n happiness for all..

Have a great new year and a blast for everyone in 2010!!

Happy New Year!!!!


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:: luxury ::

I am not atas..
i'm a struggling poor brat who dreams of a life drowned in luxury
the post christmas sale didn't work out
the clothes are either ugly or that i can't afford
what sales is that.. bleah..

mixing with friends who dresses to kill
or dress to kill me and my faint heart
adorned to the nines
with the most premium
and lovely looking haute couture
which, unfortunately,
i can't afford.. sad..

i decided i shall not match them
because it is almost impossible
with my current occupation (zero income student)
maybe, maybe in the future..
i shall not give the impression that i am rich
because i am not
i shall not waste money
i shall have more practical aims
like.. loosing weight

alright
and so it shall be
i shall start loosing weight
and make myself look good
n ot necessarily in branded stuffs
if i slim down.. like.. alot..
i guess i will look good in just about anything
and i would look like i'm dressed in
all luxury items
when its me which shines.. yes..

no more useless new year resolutions that i can never resolve
i shall make promises to myself
and targets
which are really achievable..

for a better (if not the best year in my life) 2010!

:: 东运会总结—新加坡健儿凯旋归来•女飞鱼成吸金女王 ::

文：林觉豪（学生记者）
图：TEAMSINGAPORE

第二十五届东南亚运动会在寮国完美落幕，新加坡团队（Team Singapore）凯旋归来，猛夺33面金牌，30面银牌和35面铜牌。团队也在运动会上刷新多个记录，尤其是游泳方面，就包下了6个接力赛中的5面金牌，全也都创下新赛会记录。

两年一度的东运会主要是让区域的运动健儿有机会发挥所长，也是国与国之间促进沟通的一道桥梁。今年，新加坡团队就派出了192名运动选手参与18个体育项目。

运动会一开场，新加坡国家水球队就夺得了金牌，也创造了记录，是团队的第23面东运会金牌，无敌的团队奠定了他们在东南亚水球界的地位。

 

 

这次，新加坡派出的团队人数与参选项目比往年少，主要的原因，是因为这是寮国第一次举办东运会，场地与资源有限，项目也因此比往年少。这也是新加坡派出平均年龄最年轻的团队，共有99名健儿在21岁以下。90名初次参赛的选手都得到了不错成绩，其中就夺得了23面奖牌。

乒乓选手赛场大风光

 

 

 在所有运动项目中最亮眼的运动项目之一，就是我国的乒乓团队，勇夺12枚奖牌。乒乓团队逐渐强大，年复一年都取得不错成绩。女乒乓员更是抱回了会上所有的金牌，单打打、混合打全扫空。最受注目的就包括女单和混合打的总决赛，场上的双方都是新加坡团对成员。冯天微和高宁都在场上扬威。

新加坡运动百万大奖赏

新加坡为了鼓励与促进体育方面的发展，数年前推出了百万大奖赏计划，奖励在运动场上扬威的新加坡运动健将。奖金多寡依照运动会的权威性，和项目的选手人数。刷新国家或赛会记录的表现也赢得选手们一定的奖金。

这次东运会就创造出多名吸金的运动选手，其中两名女泳将就夺得非一般的成绩，各夺得4万元。

柯婷文＋陶李 扬威东运会泳池

 

          第25届东运会中表现最亮眼的亮位，莫非柯婷文和陶李这两位女飞鱼了。游泳团队在这次赛会猛夺14枚金牌，其中柯婷文和陶李就个夺5枚个人项目金牌，也同时刷新了多项项目的赛会记录。

其中，年仅17岁的柯婷文就在第三次出赛就夺得如此骄人的成绩，来届的东运会应该将继续杀很大。柯婷文也被列为本届东运会新加坡团队最佳女运动员。

另外，新加坡首个杀入奥运会游泳总决赛的泳手陶李，也不是泛泛之辈，同样取得亮眼佳绩，与婷文同样的成为本届东运会最高奖励4万元的得主。

其他表现优异的体育项目包括武术、高尔夫球、马来传统武术、跆拳道、桌球、射击和田径等都取得非一般成绩。

 

 

总的来说，我国健儿在本届东运会上的表现突出，年轻小将的实力更加不可忽视。只要持之以恒，我们绝对有理由相信我们的健儿会取得更傲人的成绩。让我们一起期待下一届东运会的到来吧！