:: bleeding / love? ::

warm red blood
unlike drool
flowed down my hands
as i cut myself so deep
trying to erase memories

before i realised
that the imprint
is permanent
and it reminds me more
of the love we shared
or I never had

:: i screamed ::

for ice cream..

it was Ben & Jerry's free cones day..

chose a strategic timing (2pm) to go Vivo city with ronnie n sir seng to enjoy free ben & jerry's wonderful cones.. yeah! and we enjoyed from 2pm till 6pm.. lol!

i broke my last years record and had 4 scoops this year! Yay!

and heres the beautiful and delicious ice creams.. wow..

a scoop of New York Superfudge!

then a 2nd scoop of Chunky Monkey!

Choc fudge brownie followed

before i overdosed on cookie dough..

look at that smart smirk on my face..

looking forward to free cones day 2009!

on a side note, after 6pm the queue was really really long,
tts why i did not go compete my round with
another scoop of the final strawberry flavour..

miloboi says: "i'm craving for love.. "

:: the meaning of lonely ::

sat there
gazing at the stars
with or without you
the difference is
comfort
existence
knowledge of accompaniment

but at the same time
can feel lonely
because physically there
but heart is not

where am I?

:: viewtyful world ::

Yeah!
i got my viewty!

though I won't put it to full operation mode and replace my K800i anytime too soon..

but i love it.

love love love

its a viewtyful world

(my new mobile numer: 9837 9783)

:: reflection ::

as i was at Far East having my hair cut
i looked into the mirror
and saw my own reflection.

suddenly felt i looked alike my father
of whom I've not seen in eons.
not sure how he looked like now.

but that moment,
i saw myself in him,
or him in me.

and i saw my mother too.

nonetheless
i am product of the love they once had.
of course I have both their genes.

just hope i inherited the good ones...

then again...
i think again of how my mum is working hard to feed me, to bring me up to university, so provide me my pocket money and all my frivolous expanses.

I promise to be a good, thrift boy from now.

i hope...

:: here ::

If you are here
will you see?
the beautiful clouds
the refined sand
and the splashing waves.

If I was here
would I be
any less happy
any more happy
waving to you.

If you were here
can you be
in a prestine white shirt
a formal black tie
and polish shined shoes

If I am here
i want to be
in love
in life
individual

be here

:: different ::

sometimes
we are afraid
that we defer from the norm
that we are not part of the community at large

but we have a passion
and we go all out
to find similarities
but more often to be ostracised

everyone wants to be an individual
to be unique and special
but then when we find ourselves being that
we suddenly fear

what if he or she knows
we keep hiding our identity
till the right time comes
then we let people discover us

but there are still some
that I never know
if I should tell
how will they react
abandonment or appreciation?

follow your heart?
confusion.
diversion.
immersion?

societal norms
wayward clouds
can you tell me how?

:: down by the river ::

Enjoying moment like this. By the river side. Minus the fast pace of life and enjoying the sight ahead. Sudden rush to go and enjoy myself, by the beach, or explore little corners of Singapore I've always wanted to.

:: cookie monster n Elmo dinner date ::

Cookie monster vincent and Elmo Isaac met the real cookie monster n Elmo who was also on a dinner date. At bugis nydc no less:) cute..

:: long hair ::

We do dumb things. Now and then. Like trying to taste your hair. And to prove that my hair is long. Oh.. I'll miss u my hair when i snip u off...

:: time to visit dreamland ::

i need sleep.

yes, the exams are over. and i badly need sleep..

its a relive.. really.. and all i can do is wait.. wait.. wait.. for the results..

till then.. relax and enjoy.. thats life.. :)

:: eat right ::

Have u noticed the tray lining of mcdonald's? The most unhealthy food is McChicken, with 16 more kcal energy then mcspicy, and 2 g more fat than big Mac. Wow. And a mc flurry oOREO's energy is even higher than a big mac. And worst of all, all mcdonald's food's dietary fibre content is no more than 5 gram( for 2 large fries) that is pathetic. But i still enjoyed my sausage mc muffin with egg breakfast nonetheless.

:: final countdown ::

a super combination of feelings fills my mind, with exhilaration, excitement, fear and uncertainty.

I will be sitting for my very last paper for this semester today, in just a few hours time. The final 2 hour paper's completion would somehow seal my fate for this semester.

the feeling is really awesome that I have completed the examinations, however, the worry of the performance this semester is definitely overpowering.

i feel that I have not put in enough effort, and I am so afraid I screwed things up here or there. and this means bad, bad, bad. It was the only opportunity, because no one seriously would like to repeat any module. and I need to pull up my GPA, and I have to pass every single module this semester to avoid being in the dunk, and any probability of me facing termination from uni.

oh well.. i just have to concentrate on the matter at hand and complete today's paper smoothly with all I can. Jiayou, Isaac. Wish me luck, and pray for me.. :)

*BS1004 . 24 April 08 . 1300-1500 Hrs . Hall B. Nanyang Audi L3 . seat 967*

miloboi says: "yeah! its the end soon..."

:: 2 months ::

Never noticed actually that we have been together for 2 months. Not prepared for any celebration anyway. Just a little blissful feeling, and that things have become a norm.(is it good? I hope so..) Not that we lost passion. But we now are used to have one another being there for us, and we need each others company. The foundations are now there for us to build upon and strengthen. Love you loads, Dearie.. ;)

:: one million things ::

One last paper to go.. tmr.. 1-3pm.. LIFE SCIENCE!!

roar!

there are a million and one things I want to do after the paper..

I feel repressed, surpressed, depresses...

but suddenly i get so excited that its all going to be over (in a good way) in less than 18 hours time..

and all i want to do is to sleep.. super deprived of it.. i can't think!

:: connection ::

believe it or not..

I am now connected to the internet through my K800i bluetooth and my Macbook.

there are many tings singtel dun tell you..

so they can cheat your money..

i was cheated of 24 months of 12 dollars after signing up for Broadband on Mobile..

my my my..

if only i was smarter..

:: looking good ::

Was browsing thru my photo to make my party commemoration booklet when i came across tis. Its probably the only pic i look quite fit, not fat, and the whole picture looks good. Except for the extra ka lei fei behind.. Spoilt.

:: realisation ::

i realised that my memory isn't getting any better.

now, i can't just regurgitate what I studied from the notes..

that makes me rethink..

is university examinations about understanding and application, or is it just pure regurgitation?

*FE1005 - Material Science - 22 Apr - 1300-1530 hrs - Hall A - Nanyang Audi foyer- seat no. 424*

miloboi says: "One more paper.. one more paper.. one more paper!!"

:: record breaker ::

I contemplated awhile on what solves my hunger best.

I thought since I could last for an hour, and i wun be sleeping so early, calling McDelivery would be a good choice, and it delivers after an hour..

surprise surprise surprise.. after 4 times of ordering, this guy has broken the records..

i ordered at 0020, the email said it would be delivered around 0120..

the guy called from the McDonald outlet at 00:26, confirming location..

and he called again at 00:33.. i was pissed.. what is it you need to know now??

oops.. he called to say he's here..

WOW.. 13 minutes flat.. the extra $3 is finally worth it..

:: rapunzel i am not ::

and my fringe is highly irritating me.

so after my exams, my first priority is to get my mac repaired.

and secondly, to get my hair maintained.. short, coloured, chao ah beng style (not).. haha

shall see wat my stylist suggest..