:: the happiness of being with you ::

i asked dearie more than 20 times..
why does he think settling down needs to be a "celebration" witnessed by friends and family?
is there such a need?
why is there the need for a "church wedding"?
vows?
the imminent statement of faitfulness and loyalty between two?
i just don't quite get it.
can't we meet "partnered" happily
and lead the simple "coupled" life that we both want without a significant ceremony?
if we have to save and plan for such an elaborate occasion
and after that to be "pronounced" as a couple
why can't we just make a vow right now between he two of us and acknowledge our "marriage" or "union"?

what's the difference?
especially when we will never (in the near future) be recognised in the Singapore law.
that cert we sign and the vow we make will always just be a cert and vow.

i know where you are coming from.
that you want to formalise it. to live your dream.
but.. i don't know.. as much as i love you and want to be with you.
i don't know what tomorrow holds.
and more importantly
i don't know if my parents will ever accept.

at this point
i cannot act rashly

i'm not ready.
for now