:: a new year ::

WOW! 2010 has been a whirl! and it has been quite good. learnt a lot. about myself. about the people around me. about the world. about life.

In a capsule:


*Loved. Happy. Blessed. Loved.

*Improved a lot in terms of studies. Faced wake up call. Will strive harder.

*Back injury. Slipped disc made quite a bit take a back seat. Hope to improve in the new year. Go back to sports.

*Gained weight. A lot. Linked to the above. Haiz~

*Had quite some bit of exposure on TV. Will continue in the early weeks of 2011. Catch me on Wednesdays on Let's Talk!

*Made more friends. Opened up. Know more people. More willing to talk.

*Wasted a lot of money. In crisis. Hope to resolve financial problems soon.




Since i'm on this, i shall just make my 2011 new year resolution!

1) Work really hard on studies, push GPA above 3.6

2) Be more financial knowledgeable. Spend wisely. Part with luxury and be less materialistic.

3) Treasure people around me. Love people more. Stop being the lonely one. Talk!

4) Be caution of style. Look good. Carve out an identity of myself.

5) Get healthy. Go back to running and dragonboating. Those pacs, aim high!

6) Eat little. Real little. (tie up with 5)

7) Set a goal, and keep to it. Stop being lazy. And keep my promises. Complete all tasks, well and fast!

8) Get that license! Must!

9) Save up save up save up! (tie up with 2)

10) Start a life. Really. Stop acting like a young kid. Feel young. But be mature. And be a complete wholesome person that people will look up, respect, and maybe, idolise. Live my dream!

All might be simple. But all I need is to set the goals, and go for them.

Have a great close to 2010, look forward, and splash into the great new year!

Happy new year all my friends! Love you!

:: Piling . Troubles ::

i've got everything piling up the way it shouldn't be
and as i look back
I really haven't changed for the better
the way it ought to have gone..
oh no..

troubles are all piling up my way
5 weeks in school and entering the 6th
I am just afraid that I've taken on a little too much!
(once again..)

I've got educational trouble..
organisational trouble..
sports and physical trouble..
monetary trouble..
relationship trouble..

heres a summary..

education troubles:
-project piling up, especially for HW210.. its a sucky project, though it seems essential..
-tutorials.. they are secretly piling up, and I seemed to have missed a lesson or two sometimes..
-thus leading up to missed tutorials and lectures.. notice the s behind? oh no.. how? i need to seek the real importance and the meaning of studies in life for myself and prioritise. plan my life properly..
-and because i've missed the above, the tests coming up will be damn fierce. though it might juz be tests, but things add up, and i hope it will not be in a bad way. I'm going all out to mend these holes, i promise!
-I need to buck up of my school work, desperately..

organisational troubles..
-as u may know,
I have joined a few main committees this year after a bad year in onli sub-committees last year. and as they say, the job is fiercer. oh no.. so the work is really getting heavier and i need to "wake up" my idea and get things done so as to not fail or give up in any of the projects..
anyways, the election for Epiphany main com is tomorrow! yeah! fingers crossed!
(I've currently got CAC JDC and Impresario to take care of.. both PnP posts.. well well)

sports and physical trouble..

-I am fat
-I am unfit
-I've got IPPT coming
-I've not trained well enough..
-I can only run (long distance, not 2.4 n 4X10m..)
-I got tedious dragonboat training which i hope helps.
-i've regular runs thanks to a certain person..
-I am still fat despite trainings and my physiques in not building up.
-i hate that!

monetary troubles...
-really, officially, i am POOR.
-i'm near bankrupt.
-my 4 bank accounts are running on less than 2 or 3 figure sums.
-my three credit cards are running on debts.
-i'm afriad each time the statement comes each months.
-why does time past so fast?
-where am i going to get money to pay
-why am i still in the blur and keep spending endlessly without the constant effort to thrift and spend less despite knowing i HAVE to?
-i am officially a "ka-nu" slave to my cards

relationship troubles:
-for those who do not know
-i've got a 31 year old partner
-who is quite prominent in the circle due to some unspecified reason
-who is desperate to get into a stable "family environment"
-but travels around the world for holiday/work so so often
-and loves sports to much that pressurizes me..
-he is a freakin' 6-pac believer
-and a uber IT professional and closetted entrepreneur wanabe
-who happens to have a military background.
-and is a guy.
-the trouble?
-well..
it is about me acknowledging his existance to my friends
-who might be able to take it, or may be homophobics..
-another challenge:
-he takes care of me too well.
-i feel insecure
-yet he offers a great sense of security
-and now officially wants to have an official "union"
-but it sounds good. but i dun know what will happen next time.
-or even the near future.
-i'm afraid of my poisition in school, friends, family, society...

troubles...

:: sports and other activities ::

year two
doing badly
and never seem to realise it..
i'm still throwing myself and my attention into so many things in the last week, and the coming week.. well well well..
i've got endless interviews and auditions next week starting monday..
oh my!
the work that comes after doesn't seem to enter my mind..

and i'm getting sporty..
i'm doing runs after runs in the coming weeks and months..
*just a random one: anyone wana join me for KPE swing: 5km walk run on 14/9? its free. and got goodie bag n tee shirt.. lol*

other than runs
i'm attempting to join a dragon boating team and train up..
(i joined young NTUC for a trial session yesterday.. fun!)
I want to Jian Fei!!!!!!