was hearing radio earlier on
when i came across this song by rene liu
from her new album,
a mandarin translation of Angela Aki's song tegami
called continue-to my 15 year old self (继续-给15岁的自己）
i wrote about Angela's song back a year ago..
and i happen to read several posts from May 2009
and thinking of it
i havent changed, not a bit
the surroundings and people might have changed
but somehow or rather
my feelings and thoughts havent
more about tt later
back to the song..
when i heard the mandarin version by rene on radio
i just hummed along to it
it was familiar
and i almost cud sing the japanese one
although it was back then 1 year ago
and my japanese have very much deproved since
hearing the mandarin song
i cud feel something
though not as strong
i wrote tweets about my feeling then
about how lost i felt in the mandarin version
seeking a feeling with the tune but not running along with the lyrics
the sense of being touched by something close to heart
unfortunately doesn't come with the mandarin tune
and i had to search out my older NEC lappie where the song was in it's itunes
(haven't got the time to transfer.. or just plain lazy)
a whole year
and when i heared the bridge
i felt the urge
love? kinship? friends? intropecction? me?
not sure
but i feel a surge of blood flowing to my head
a sense of warmth
keep on believing
keep on believing
believing in oneself? believing the world will change?
believing that i can do it all?
i've let myself down and some people around me
i've not necessarily kept my promises
but just as well
the world hasn't been all that kind to me either
i've gone thru uneasy times in the past year
and so much more to say
well..
and tt brings me to the posts and reflections
i've somehow lessened my blogging
because i tweet much more
just look at the tweet board beside
blogging to me is when i have something i wanna say in details
when i'm really tired
and want a channel to vent
i'm sorry
but.. i'll try.. no promises ya..
i want so much in life
i try so much in life
but myself
why is it like that? what am i thinking?
what are the people around me thinking? have i really matured?
why am i so easioly tired?
when can i be trusted?
wheres the power to drive me thru ups and downs and various tasks?????
where are my friends? where are my love?
who are you?
who am i?
are we realoly different day by day?
can i keep my promises and resolutions?
reflecting is one
changing is another
looking back and forth
how different am i gonna be tmr?
next week?
next month?
next year?
next 5 years....
and it goes on
i aim high
we aim to change
but really
isn't it a vicious cycle that keeps going around?
things change
but how different, really
well.. lets feel the song that sparked all these..
Angela Aki's Tegami - to my 15 year old self
(in Romanji and with English translation)
(original can be read from the post at the link above:))
Haikei kono tegami yonde iru anata wa
Doko de nani wo shite iru no darou
Chuugo no boku ni wa
Dare ni mo hanasenai
Nayami no tane ga aru no desu
Dear sir if you’re reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing
When I was 15 I couldn’t talk with anyone
In that time I was very worried about that
Mirai no jibun ni atete taku tegami nara
Kitto sunao ni uchiakerareru darou
If I write a letter to my future self
Surely I could confess with simplicity
Ima, makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou na boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo
Shinji arukeba ii no?
Hitotsu shikanai kono mune ga
Nando mo barabara ni warete
Kurushii naka de ima wo ikiteiru
Ima wo ikiteiru
Now, losing together, crying together
I go out for search
In which words I have to believe for keep walking
How many times this heart had been broken?
Even that hurt us, we’re gonna live
We’re gonna live
Haikei arigatou
Chuugo no anata ni
Tsutaetai koto ga aru no desu
Jibun to wa nani de
Doko e mukau beki ga
Toitsuzukereba mietekuru
Dear sir thanks to your 15teen self
I want to tell you about things that had happened
Why do I have to face myself?
If I had come to see the issue
Areta seishun no umi wa kibishii keredo
Asu no kishime e to
Yume no fune yo susume
The stormy seas of youth are harsh but
A boat of dreams will lead you to tomorrow’s shore
Ima, makenai de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinji arukeba ii no
Otona no boku mo kizutsuite
Nemurenai yoru wa aru kedo
Nigakute amai
Ima wo iketeiru
Now don’t lose, don’t cry
In the moment when they disappear
I believe in my own words to keep walking
My adult self it’s damaged too
And don’t sleep at nights but
My sweet pain lives now
Jinsei no
Subete ni imi ga aru kara
Osorezu ni
Anata no yume wo sodatete
From all the sense of live
The fear of believe in your dreams
Keep on believing…
Lalala, lalala
Keep on believing
Lalala, lalala
Keep on believing
Keep on believing
Keep on believing
Ima, makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou na boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo
Shinji arukeba ii no?
Ah, makenai de nakanai de
Kiete shimai souna boku wa
Jibun no koe wo
Shinji arukeba ii no
Itsu no jidai wo
Kanashimi wo
Sakete wa torenai keredo
Egao wo misete
Ima wo ikiteikou
Ima wo ikiteikou
Now, losing together, crying together
I go out for search
In which words I have to believe for keep walking
Now don’t lose, don’t cry
In the moment when they disappear
I believe in my own words to keep walking
Mistakes from all the ages and sadness
We can’t prevent
Show a smile, we’re gonna live
We’re gonna live
Haikei kono tegami yonde iru anata ga
Shiawase na koto wo
Negaimasu
Dear sir if you’re reading this letter
Hope it brings you happiness
Rene Liu
刘若英 - 继续-给15岁的自己
知道吗我总是惦记
十五岁不快乐的你
我多想 把哭泣的你
搂进我怀里
不确定自己的形状
动不动就和世界碰撞
那些伤 我终于为你
都一一抚平
那一年最难的习题
也不过短短的几行笔记
现在我却总爱回忆
回忆当时不服输的你
天空 会不会雨停 会不会放晴
会不会幸福在终点等着我和你
会不会是我忘记 还能勇敢地去淋雨
我们继续走下去 继续往前进
继续走向期待中的未知旅行
感觉累了的时候 抱着我们的真心
静静好好地休息
这些年我还算可以
至少都对得起自己
谢谢你 是你的单纯
给了我指引
遇见过很多很多人
完成了一些些事情
你一定 还无法想象
多精彩过瘾
谁说人生是公平的
它才不管我们想要怎样
很感激 你那么倔强
我才能变成今天这样
我们继续走下去 继续往前进
看这条路肯让我们走到哪里
我们想去的地方 一定也有人很想去
我们都不要放弃 都别说灰心
永远听从刻在心中那些声音
感觉累了的时候 请你把我的手握紧
没有地图 人生只能凭着手上的梦想 Oh~
循着它的光 曲折转弯找到有光的地方
Lalala Lalala Lalala 那年的梦想
Lalala Lalala Lalala 人要有梦想
勇敢的梦想 疯狂的梦想
继续走下去 继续往前进
路旁有花 心中有歌 天上有星
我们要去的那里 一定有最美丽的风景
都不要放弃 都别说灰心
不要辜负心里那个干净的自己
痛到想哭的时候 就让泪水洗掉委屈
我们要相信自己 永远都相信
来到这个世界不是没有意义
我们做过的事情 都会留在人心里
会被回忆而珍惜
有一天我将会老去
希望你会觉得满意
我没有 对不起那个
十五岁的自己
