:: Liao Zhai Rocks and Singapore Mandarin Musicals... ::

I don't really like musicals
I think they are often overrated
and i dun understand what they are singing most of the time
chinese musicals were once (in my mind), worse
because its not easy to understand the lyrics,
especially the fast numbers
and somehow spoils the flow with the dancing and all

but being a sucker for local theatre and all
and after watching the successful If there are seasons (天冷就回来）last year
I felt i just had to support TTP's musical extravaganza Liao Zhai rocks this year round

so i caught the show on thursday
and i must say
i still do not like musicals, not in mandarin at least

not tt i'm jealous tt i'm still not getting my break in theatre
(i've somehow given tt up some time ago)
and also nt because its not good
i must say its fantastic
wonderful cast, set, lighting, plot, storyline...

then again,
there's the factor of chinese seems too cheem to be enjoyed like that
you get carried away by the nice music
and you can't get the lyrics because of the different octaves and music..
argh..
you don't enjoy theatre like it should be
the musical element somehow overpowers the acting and theatrics
and with the strong use of superb lyrics on stage in a new setting
not all audience can hear properly
and with the blasting mic
the sounds are distorted
and the words don't come across just like it should be/intended to be

well..

these are just my opinions..
there are lots of improvements spaces
i wish
one day, that I can still be part/create my own theatre group/company
and create outstanding performance
with rich theatrical elements and artistic aspects
and which are also accessible to the general audience looking
for an entertainment..

well well... 

nevertheless, kudos to the great performance by the Liao Zhai Rocks team
it all went very well
i just left feeling a little tad lacking of something
that is probably it..
that missing element! that.. erm.. connection? not sure..

:: 壳 ::

Another of my favourite song of the moment..
from Tiger Huang as well..
feels tt its complementary of the one previous song..

就算是真的 会永远单身
双人床依旧睡得很安稳
也不想 屈就於寂寞
眼前找个人 托付掉 后半生

怎样把自己 交给下个人
用一种心甘情愿的口吻
时间 狠狠向我提问
敢不敢 心再一次放任
为了某个人等

我心里包覆的壳 谁懂得
只是一层保护色
或许爱情离我太远了
快要记不得 多久没用力哭了
为什么 把自己隔绝了
我心里包覆的壳 谁晓得
我并不习惯冰冷
也想感受心跳的狂热
期待谁发现 我看似完整人生
还有个 空白缺口


怎样把自己 交给下个人
用一种心甘情愿的口吻
时间 狠狠向我提问
敢不敢 心再一次放任
为了某个人等

我心里包覆的壳 谁懂得
只是一层保护色
或许爱情离我太远了
快要记不得 多久没用力哭了
为什么 把自己隔绝了
我心里包覆的壳 谁晓得
我并不习惯冰冷
也想感受心跳的狂热
期待谁发现 我看似完整人生
还有个 空白缺口

我心里包覆的壳 谁晓得
我并不习惯冰冷
也想感受心跳的狂热
期待谁发现 我看似完整人生
还有个 空白缺口

会是谁发现 我看似完整人生
还有个 爱的缺口

:: 我是谁? 我是谁! 我是谁?!!!? ::

        我是谁 你是否常常这样问自己

我是谁 总是活在别人的期望里
我是谁 是谁又擅自帮你定义了
你是谁 只有不是自己才安全
为什麽 你以为这个世界很美丽
为什麽 你爱这个世界胜过爱自己
为什麽 这个世界不给你平等待遇
为什麽 到底做错了什麽
朋友都说你太 太 太奇怪
在背後把你当成笑 笑 笑话看
每一个动作都被瞎猜
他们说你是个不能容忍的存在
你想要的很 很 很简单
不过就是最普通的 的 的平凡
诚实做自己有时候很难
但是请你勇敢的试一次看看
无论他们又说什麽 闲言闲语无法伤害我
世界上只有一个我 没人能代替的我
无论他们又做什麽 小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的
The most beautiful
会不会 上帝把你的灵魂放错了身体
会不会 是故意整你不是不小心
会不会 你常常都觉得力不从心
会不会 坚持要做自己太危险
凭什麽 难道比较特别就是不对
凭什麽 先下了注解在认识之前
凭什麽 只不过想认真的活一遍
凭什麽 随便就把人定罪
朋友都说你太 太 太奇怪
在背後把你当成笑 笑 笑话看
每一个动作都被瞎猜
他们说你是个不能容忍的存在
你想要的很 很 很简单
不过就是最普通的 的 的平凡
诚实做自己有时候很难
但是请你勇敢的试一次看看
无论他们又说什麽 闲言闲语无法伤害我
世界上只有一个我 没人能代替的我
无论他们又做什麽 小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的
The most beautiful
无论他们又说什麽 闲言闲语无法伤害我
世界上只有一个我 没人能代替的我
无论他们又做什麽 小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的
The most beautiful
无论他们又说什麽 闲言闲语无法伤害我
我是谁 这个问题困扰你多少天多少夜
我是谁 谁有资格决定你怎样才是对
世界上只有一个我 没人能代替的我
我是谁 我是谁我是谁
我就是我你就是你
认真做自己的人最美丽
无论他们又做什麽 小动作无法打败我
我是谁 这个问题困扰你多少天多少夜
我是谁 谁有资格决定你怎样才是对
我知道自己是最美丽的
我是谁 我是谁我是谁
我就是我你就是你
认真做自己的人最美丽



really? I wish.. 认真做自己的人最美丽
not bothered about the world and changes
not bothered about the changing trends and the way the world progress
not challenged about the diversities of life
and living the life the way you are
loner or not
with anyone specil or not
just being myself
i wish
but i can't seem to convince myself
who am i?
who am i?
who am i?

:: all by myself . and myself . and myself ::

I was at the cliff, almost about to fall off.
I was at the brim, almost spilling out.
I feel congested. Emotionally. Psychologically.
I had no one to turn to.
Then comes the realisation. That I have always been putting on a strong front.
Always showing and thinking that I've so many friends around me.
But who can I turn to when I need to talk?
None.
I don't have anyone whom I can trust. or is close enough for me
to call upon in the middle of the night.
because that is just not what I'm accustomed to.
As weird as it sounds. I'm a loner.
I feel empty. Lonely. Solo.

1. Relationships are confusing. I don't know what I want or maybe who I am. My love life doesn't blend with my life. What does that makes me? I don't seem to know then.

2. My results sucks. Does that mean i'm not cut out for this line? Where am I headed towards? Blank.

3. Sleeping throughout the holidays. Its been more than a month. No aim. No target.

4. Broke up and together. Sex and fucks. All going nowhere, again. Where the sunrises and where it sets. I have no idea. Lost? No, just zero. Non-directional.

5. Having a million ideas, but not practically making any of them work. I'm a waste. Because I don't have the kick to get me going.

6. Who are my friends? Invites out there to over a hundred people. Response is near null. Right. What are friends for? Or, do I have? Who takes me as one? Back to this topic again. Bad.. Next..

7. Motivation gets things going? I think money do. I need a new goal in life which I can see a finishing life. Not now, apparently.

8. What's my aim in doing so much? When my target seems to be so insanely different from where I am headed towards? Why am I preparing so much when it all boils down to being nothing?

9. I find no consolation in being myself.

10. Given up. Just say you love me and fuck me and leave. That is probably what makes me happy. At least for the split second. A moment felt of someone there. Hugging you. The warmth. Comfort. Thanks.