:: not easy ::

Relationships aren't easy to maintain. And it gets worse with experience, age and commitments.

You tend to have expectations, either from what has happened in a past relationship, or what you see on Tv or hear from friends.

When u have a fairly large circle of friends, it's not easy to share a new, blossoming relationship, because you will have to explain what happened between you and your ex and all those rumblings.

It gets even worse each time you change a partner, after a loooooong romance/relationship. You wanted the kick of something new, now you have it, it seems like a burden. To start allll over again is no joke. Undergoing the sweet nothings courtship and ambiguity here and there, to knowing each other's friends and intriguing conversations.. Bleah..

Then you start missing that last person. And start the oft unfair comparison between two who might be extreme polar differents. And the pain and irony of missing someone, something, some action... And the intentions and thoughts of going back with him floats in mind..

It will take sone time, probably a loooong tine to finally enjoy the love n passionate romance that two people share.. Only then when the whole getting used to, and boredom cycle kicks in ultimately. Sadly..

Now, there's new fresh factor for me, just like there's a tinge of tireness.. Seriously.

Was it a right decision to explore new ventures just because of a kittle boredom and tireness? Was I fair to him? Can I still turn back?

I wish. Now. Here I am at yet another crossroads, again..


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