:: reflections | songs that fills me ::

Here we are
once again
at the end of a month
at a time of reflections
and a time to look forward
to yet another exciting, challenge filled month ahead..

the end of august also meant that i ended my first semester in NP
and boy, what a ride it was
i have made friends which i really enjoy being with and talking to
and friends where i can hang out with and have big dreams with
i've learnt, i hope, to handle stress a little better than previously
and also learnt many many new skills

now as we wait for the results
what I can do is to prepare for my expedition too Vietnam in mid sept
where i get to make friends and interact with the kids at the orphanages and day care
and extend my little warmth to them
as well experience it first hand
the many challenges in life others face.

looking back at August..
there has been music and lyrics that kept sticking to me..
great albums that lift me
and not forgetting our National Day Parade, the Pledge moment,
my 21km Singapore Bay Run Army Half Marathon Challenge
tanning sessions and dragon boat rowing
the many friends i've made
a race along Singapore's special places in the OutRace
and many many more fun filled moments..

i shall close this months with songs, music and lyrics that ring that special bell in me...

:: Khalil Fong "Timeless" Collection ::
this is a great laid back album i believe many would enjoy..
he re-interpreted some great tracks by music's legends
and gave a new feel to them
which u will fall in love with.. i particularly like these tracks,
and the emotions brought thru is powerful
either thru lyrics or Khalil's vocals..

La Bamba:

Para bailar la bamba,
Para bailar la bamba,
Se necesita una poca de gracia.
Una poca de gracia pa mi pa ti.
Ay Arriba ay arriba
Ay arriba ay arriba,
por ti sere,Por ti sere.
Por ti sere.

Yo no soy marinero.
Yo no soy marinero, soy capitan.
Soy capitan. Soy capitan.
Bamba Bamba, Bamba Bamba,
Bamba Bamba, Bamba.

:: Red Bean ::

还没好好的感受 雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖 会更明白 什么是温柔
还没跟你牵着手 走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后 学会珍惜 天长和地久

有时候 有时候 我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开 都有时候 没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我 有时候 宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透 也许你会陪我看细水长流

还没为你把红豆 熬成缠绵的伤口
然后一起分享 会更明白 相思的哀愁

还没好好的感受 醒着亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右 你才追求 孤独的自由

有时候 有时候 我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开 都有时候 没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我 有时候 宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透 也许你会陪我看细水长流

有时候 有时候 我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开 都有时候 没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我 有时候 宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透 也许你会陪我看细水长流

:: Remember ::

谁还记得 是谁先说 永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起 走到最后

我们都忘了 这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的 有一天 有一天都会停的
让时间说真话 虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后 我们都不知道 会不会有遗憾

谁还记得 是谁先说 永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后

我们都累了 却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑 怎么说 怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么 也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人 等着对方先说 找分开的理由

谁还记得 爱情开始 化的时候
我和你的眼中 看见了 不同的天空
走的太远 终于走到 分岔路的路口
是不是你和我 要有两个 相反的梦

谁还记得 是谁先说 永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起 走到最后
我和你手牵手 说要一起 走到最后

:: chee meng and chun keow ::

a song at MayDay concert whcih i enjoy very much each time, amongst many many others that i love as well!!!

志明真正不知要按怎
为什么爱人不愿阁再相偎
春娇已经早就无在听
讲这多其实拢总拢无卡抓
走到淡水的海岸
两个人的爱情
已经无人看已经无人听
啊我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
到这冻止 也免爱我
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
麦阁伤心 麦阁我这爱你你不爱我

志明心情有影寒
风这大你也真正拢没心肝
春娇你哪无要和我播这出电影
咱就走到这位准底煞
走到淡水的海岸两个人的爱情
已经无人看已经无人听啊
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
到这冻止你也免爱我
我跟你最好就到
这你对我已经没感觉
麦阁伤心麦阁我这爱你你不爱我
走到淡水的海岸
两个人的爱情
已经无人看已经无人听
啊我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
到这冻止你也免爱我
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
麦阁伤心麦阁我这爱你你不爱我
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
这冻止你也免爱我
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
麦阁伤心麦阁我这爱你你不爱我

:: Little Sun ::

I've been trying hard the whole day to remember if they sang this song during the concert.. but can't seem to remember..
it was the "theme song" for last year's concert.. haha..

多么难忘
是你纯真的模样
突然的吻弥漫着茶香
多么向往
梦想总是在他方
你说等我不管多漫长

你就是太阳
蒸发了彷徨
所以挖开土壤
种下希望
离开了故乡
看着你的眼眶
忍着泪闪着光
我会很快回来
继续我们未完的天堂
看着你的脸庞
微笑着要我去闯
你的盼望是我握在手中
小小的太阳

念念不忘
此刻应该是农忙
如画风光有你在歌唱

你就是太阳
照亮了方向
你让地球旋转月亮发光
让我有翅膀
看着你的眼眶
忍着泪闪着光
我会很快回来继续我们未完的天堂
看着你的脸庞
微笑着要我去闯
你的盼望是我握在手中
小小的太阳

看着你的眼眶
忍着泪闪着光
我会很快回来
继续我们未完的天堂
看着你的脸庞
微笑着要我去闯
你的盼望是我握在手中
小小的太阳

看着你的眼眶
忍着泪闪着光
我会很快回来继续我们未完的天堂
看着你的脸庞
微笑着要我去闯
你的盼望是我握在手中
小小的太阳 oh~~

aiya.. got alot more songs.. another time ba.. hahahaha

:: Am I? ::

Am I taking on too much
too much more than I can handle?
school, ovb, chinese soc, dragonboat, BBE YEC, designing, trevvy, sgrainbow...
and many many more..
i don't have time
and i am bad at prioritising
i feel lost

like in love
i don't know myself
what I want
i don't know where
I am
i play and slack too much
and play around far too much and put myself in sticky situations

i am neither here nor there
this juxtaposition feels awkward and wrong
the wary feeling after taking on the tasks..
is bad.. sad..

lost.. what am I?
what do i really want?
i am afraid i need someone to help me find myself
and the life I am suppose to lead.

multitask? multitalented?

i am only afriad that I will inevitably drown myself
in a million identities
that all isn't the real me.

：： 戏如人生 ：：

和大家分享我的一篇文章，拿A的哦。。 哈哈。。（ok la, no A+, at least got an A lo.. )

:: 戏如人生 ::

林觉豪 （T01）

日本戏剧大师铃木忠志（Tadashi Suzuki）曾说：“西方戏剧的主角，就如生活在医院的长期病患，都是病人。编剧，就是这些角色的医生，即也是病情的来源。”（铃木忠志，1982/唐十郎译，1984，页4）就凭这句话，让我深深地被戏剧影响，对实验性戏剧感兴趣，更是投入与各类戏剧剧本，对这类文学产生那份不解的热忱。

我是在小学的时候，被父母逼上英语沟通与戏剧班。当时是以玩玩的心态去参与，主要是为了加强自己的自信心，和建立良好的英语基础。正整六年的戏剧班，让我对这门艺术产生了浓厚的兴趣。到了中学，自然的就加入了戏剧社，在其中也学到了不同的演绎方式，与同学和教师沟通切磋时，认识了铃木忠志这位戏剧大师，偶然对不同戏剧法有了了解和尝试。

铃木忠志以独特的见解，创造出了自己的戏剧教学方式。这一套昭示，如今已被全世界接受与学习当中，最主要，是它勇于把古西方文学代表作拿来加入新点子、新生命，创造出全新的戏剧体验。这套戏法没有久远的历史，但却带给戏剧一个全新的态度以及层面，让大家以不同的眼光去看戏。这也推出了新颖的创作、理念。一套演员教学法让这门艺术潜移默化，成果不只限于演技，同样的也改变了当下新新人类的导演技巧和编剧写作。我就是当中获益不浅的门徒。

带着对“铃木戏剧教学法”的热忱，我有幸在中学时期加入了本地一代戏剧大师郭宝崑所开设的“实践表演艺术学院”。在那一年的课程中，学到了多种戏剧艺术与表演，更有机会向这位本地戏剧教师学习，更曾与郭宝崑老师对过话，过过招。

到我十六岁时，已接触过多种演绎方程式。尝试过传统与新世纪的，也有过中英语表演经验。从中，我还是最爱铃木忠志老师的演绎法，因而深入研究，磨出了自己的风格，投身入戏剧创作与指导。我不断阅读不同戏剧编剧的故事与剧本，从中学习。自己学习，自己领会。秉持着信念，发掘自己的才能。郭宝崑曾提过，“戏剧是生命的反影，更是生命的延伸。戏剧写作是发自内心的、独特的，没得学，也学不来的。”（郭键汶，2003，页194）。我也因此吸收各方创作概念，想不只当个会读戏剧剧本的，或只当演员，在初级学院一年级时，尝试写出生平第一个剧本，参加了当年由TheatreWorks举办的新加坡青年编剧奖，还得了第二名。对当时修读理科的我，不曾受过专业写作训练，让校方感到十分惊讶。

接下来几年，我都参加了新加坡青年编剧奖，年年都如前三甲，当中更有三次夺冠。这当中，我服过兵役，也念了大学。在升大学二年级那年，被本地戏剧团TheatreWorks邀请学习当一部短剧的导演。我那时是随父母心愿念工程系，内心十分不愿。当导演的机会来临时，当然得好好把握。那部剧是本地编剧Robin Loon的《LIV》。当中提到说人最大的困境就是梦境，无论是一直有的梦想，或是白日梦，也可能是晚上做的恶梦，都有它一定的烦恼。（Robin Loon， 2007，页3）我就是追逐着梦想的人，带着许多烦恼，但也把握这每一个机会，享受其中。以为自己是理科的料，却对文科戏剧有着不解深情，始终只能如点水蜻蜓，偶尔过个瘾。

说真的，我一向来都处生于戏剧当中。但都往往没机会去深刻体会或将戏剧当我人生至今的重头戏。戏剧的个各个层面，我都有碰触过，就缺真正的身在戏剧的生活里或真正的去了解它。但戏剧影响了我，让我以不同的角度看人生，体验着真实与虚伪，感受到另一个世界。读着各个不同戏剧文学作品，对我的影响就在于让我痛苦，没有机会去追逐着方面的梦想，却在其中的到了荣誉和加冕，体验过人生的高低潮。一切就如郭宝崑老师所说过，人生的确如戏，戏也的确表现人生，但没真正体验的梦想，最实际、最完整。因为在脑中的画面，永远刻画得最完美。（Kuo Jing Hong，2002， 页29）

资料：
铃木忠志（1982）/唐十郎译 （1984）。铃木忠志编剧的演绎方式。台北：台北时代国际。
郭键汶 （2003）。回忆：郭宝崑（1939-2002）." Inter-Asia Cultural Studies 4.2 (2003): 193-201。
Robin Loon (2007). LIV. Singapore: TheatreWorks Ltd.
Kuo Jing Hong （2002）。Kuo Pao Kun: And love the wind and rain. Singapore: Crucible Pte. Ltd.

:: blur ::

Why?
For what?
I don't know.

dear Isaac..

Don't let a moment's willful thoughts ruin you.
think of the future..
one which is happy
and positive
and endless possibilities..

that is far more important
and a fling or two
some random fun times

its okay when your relationship reaches a plateau
and you get used to one another
just think of the random happy moments and surprises you share
doesn't it still bring a smile upon your face?

why does the grass look greener on the other side?

and this person is willing to let you go have some fun
but unwilling to let go
it means something
because he understands you so much
and that he still loves you.

he knows that you will turn back.

and probably..





i will turn back..
because i've comed to my senses.. :)

:: Don't ask the Merlion come to you! ::

Never, never ask the water spouting merlion to come to you..
you'll regret.. haha

:: have you seen Elmo sleeping before? ::

Elmo with Andrea Bocelli



Notice the last part when elmo sleeps..
so cute la..

and i am amazed they got Andrea Bocelli to do this.. its great..

:: love . the time has come.. ::

when we feel the relationship
and love has reached a plateau
maybe its time to talk it out
and me and W did.

we are still very good friends, buddy, brother..

a special relationship that we will treasure

i don't eliminate the fact that I will go back to him
in the future..



but for now..
i still feel very much loved by him
status and relationship might be at a different level
but we still care and concern for each other very much

and as for the other M..
we share many things in common..
and the passion n love within.. :)

:: gaining ground ::

I like it when i feel relaxed, at ease.
I don't like it when i feel lost.

I like it when I sit on a dragonboat and rowing away..
I don't like it when I feel stressed doing, well, nothing in exact.

I like it when I am amidst the process of completing a project.
I don't like it when I am stuck with nothing and think of what to do.. waiting..

I like it when I am feeling grounded, doing things as supposed.
I don't like it when i feel guilty of not doing things i'm suppose to do.

I enjoy every moment of life, probably too relaxed
I don't like it when I feel not serious
and when I feel i'm going nowhere.

I believe I am going somewhere.. now..
in the midst..
enjoying myself..

I want to do so many things..
but there's a limit to what I can achieve.
So maybe I shall not be an overachiever..
and be the one who I really am
don't care about who says what
and what others can do but i can't..

this might be a long and tedious process
a long and tedious challenge within myself and with this world..

where do i have the time to relax?

I need to allocate time better
to be myself.
sleep less
and enjoy each moment I have each day with myself and the world around me..

keep more time to maximising my life!
stop wasting time in sleeping n slacking and doing rubbish..
live and love and be free!