when night falls, I wake up, to a world of fantasy and wild imaginations. welcome to my world.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
:: no more heartaches ::
And then a rather quiet evening.
There were mentions of break up
Or some time to cool off and rethink
Probably, just probably,
We might be better of as brothers
Who still shared the love n concern for each other
Leading me to think we seperated
That I was once again, alone, single.
After thoughts for a whole night
I felt bad, really upset
I hated the feeling of being lonely
N needed emotional comfort, somewhere.
I called him up,
Reluctantly
Hopefully we can forget about yesterday,
And be "together" again.
Just my stupid innocent thoughts
Of juvenile relationships
Where one breaks n patch again..
W picked up the phone.
And went, "morning sleepy dearie"
I flabbergastedly replied "who u calling "dearie""
"why? Wat happened boy?"
"oh, so it was just me who was an idiot to believe the words you said yesterday."
Yes, it really was.
So it wasn't any break ups
And hopefully never will b
Difference can be solved
And we will walk through it, together.
Love will always b strong
And the feeling will never fade
Maybe, just maybe, because we have grown to need each other.
And have already grown to rely on each other on many things.
The dependency..
:: boo junfeng ::
this is a talent..
he is uber cute to begin with
and has unique thoughts..
my newest ou xiang..
watched his new short film yesterday
Tanjong Rhu (the casuarina cove)
it was about the 1993 police entrapment at the once popular gay cruising spot
where 12 men were arrested one night
when undercover was there to trap these gay men
and thereafter charging them with outrage of modesty.
it was the last known entrapment exercise
and was deemed by the High Court after rounds of appeal
that this was a highly uncivilised action taken by the police.
more importantly
it was hearfelt, poignant, and it was not overtly explicit like many
pink related movies
it was also not overtly "activist" style..
the short film conveyed to us that the pink community can be all around us
be it our brother, friend, officer in military, neighbour...
like your nice and friendly boy next door here.. LOL..
and we have more than ever, merged them into life
and the "lifestyle" we've chosen doesn't have an impact on others directly,
really..
now back to Junfeng, my ou xiang..
haha.. his story creation is superb, the angle which he looks at the stories
are just so unique and fascinating
i really hope to be a film director/writer/creator like him la!
read more about him..
Boo Junfeng was born on 4th December 1983 in Singapore. He first attended film school at the age of 16 at Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Singapore. During his course of study, he went on an exchange programme at the Escola Superior de Cinema i Audiovisuals de Catalunya (ESCAC) in Barcelona, Spain, where he wrote and directed his first short film UN RETRATO DE FAMILIA (2004). The short won the Best Film and Special Achievement awards at the Singapore International Film Festival (SIFF) in 2005.
In late 2005, he attended the Asian Film Academy at the Pusan International Film Festival in Korea. This inaugural session of the programme was headed by esteemed Taiwanese director, Hou Hsiao Hsien.
After two years of mandatory military service, he made the short films KATONG FUGUE (2007) and KELUAR BARIS (2008). The former, a film adaptation of a play, won the Special Jury Prize at the SIFF in 2007; and the latter, a semi-autobiographical take on a boy’s experience of being conscripted, took home the Best Film, Best Director and Best Cinematography awards at the SIFF in 2008.During this period, he also directed a segment in LUCKY 7 (2008), an experimental feature film aimed at promoting collaboration among filmmakers in Singapore.
Between 2007 and 2008, he continued his film education at The Puttnam School of Film at LASALLE College of the Arts, where he graduated with the valedictorian honour, the McNally Award for Excellence in the Arts. His thesis film, TANJONG RHU (2009), is featured at the Panorama section of the 59th Berlin Film Festival.
He is currently working on his full-length feature debut with Zhao Wei Films, a production company helmed by acclaimed Singaporean director-producer Eric Khoo. The film project – SANDCASTLE – was selected at the Pusan Promotion Plan in 2008 and is slated for production in mid-2009.
It was interesting during the post show dialogue(the film was shown as part of Singapore Panorama Shorts 1
as part of Singapore International Film Festival)
that Junfeng mentioned that he was not an activist and never wanted to be
neither was he trying..
and that although viewers thought Tanjong Rhu and Keluar Baris had parralels..
he said he didn't see it that way and was trying to do straight films.. Haha.
by the way he is really supportive of Pink Dot
which I am too..
so for all my friends who are in the pink community or supportive of the pink community
do join us at pink dot event on 16th May at Hong Lim Park..
where we can all gather and have an aerial view picture taken
to commemorate our unique community
in pink clothes, and with pink umbrellas n balloons..
and when we do it in future years
we can see the pink dot growing..!!
:: (i hope i can) cancel my DBS cards ::
with regards the ongoing AWARE saga
this guy apparently came up with a good idea
that all those who disapproves AWARE's new guard to just cancel your DBS cards
as a form of rebuttal against Josie Lau and the Thios
instead of just sending hate mails in the forms of death threats
(which might in any case get you into trouble with the law if not careful)
Its been a roller coaster ride for the group i suppose
and more than ever (no pun on NP watsoever)
its positive impact on AWARE.
their membership doubled suddenly
and they've got the publicity
(as they say no publicity is bad publicity.. haha)
The indignant pink gay and lesbian community has been once again catapulted itself
and suddenly,
the "bonding" of the gays and lesbians have arose once again
(the last time was thanks to the junior Thio)
well well..
the Thios definitely know how to attract attention
first with their unique surname
(anyone else with the surname should feel pretty disgraced)
and then their "pro-family" stand
on a side note
W n me have always been pro famiy
be it our family or the family we might have in the future.. LOL
(though its over, for now...)
back to the AWARE case
i hope it will be resolved and tt my pink friends will not be so
aggravated by it anymore
i sincerely hope the eogm next week will run smoothly
and an amicable result obtained
(my stand? erm, topple the new exco and form a newer exco?)
its turned pretty ugly because the controversy is just bad
i would say the media has been painting pretty ugly pictures of the old guard at the start
but now
i see the balance
both sides are ugly in their own ways
but with more understanding
we all have our sides to stand on, i hope..
we shall see what happens..
But to ask me cancel my DBS card?
dun want la..
its already a important part of my social life
Hahaha..
oh ya, why wasn't Josie Lau sacked huh?
then they can anyhow sack some poor staff at the AWARE centre for some minor things..
these new guards very bu jiang li hor..
tsk tsk...
Saturday, April 25, 2009
:: release ::
We both felt I needed space.
I needed space for growth,
I needed to develop myself.
I needed to understand myself more,
As a gay boy in Singapore.
I had to develop my own stance.
I need to know what a relationship meant.
I needed to know my own life, with my parent n friends.
I can't live n change myself.
Love n monogamy needs to be understood.
He can't be the dictator of my life, yet.
So I should stand on my own,
And feel what it was I really want.
Is it really him or was it someone else?
There's too much doubts we had to clear.
Before we really understand Happiness.
Love is a jigsaw puzzle
It needs to b a perfect fit.
Friday, April 24, 2009
:: 志同道合 ::
And it's been a hell of a week.
I've made new friends. Many many.
And tried many foods around school.
Talked all sorts of rubbish.
And experienced interesting n horrid lecturers.
I took part in a dance competition, performing an Indian song.
And got myself involved in a myriad of CCAs.
Magnum force, stage factor, batucada, new revolving age, ambassador, our voice box, canoe polo..
Not sure which one I'll stick to though..
Friends had been a major factor.
Especially a group of close friends.
Because in uni, I stuck close to my army friends n even epiphany friends, we onli met once awhile.
The close close bonding was just missing.
Glad now to have made instant friendship
With this group of great peeps..
Hao Jie, mabel, Jing yi, serene, jolene..
Playing dumb games n lunching together.
N even going out to orchard together on week one.
Haha.
Didn't expect such close bonding with ppl 6 years my junior actually.
Bit really glad.
Hope to get to know u all deeper,As well as let u all know me better.
Hope u won't b scared of me
N we can b great friends for the next three years.
LOL.
It feels great!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
:: mrisaaclim ::
my livejournal is once again up, alive and kicking..
do go over to look at photos and random updates..
both blog will be regularly updated, one more personal..
check it out..
mrisaaclim at livejournal
Friday, April 17, 2009
:: 始终 ::
或许是因为
太过于习惯这里了。
或者是因为怕搬了家后
却没人到新家去拜访。。 顾虑太多了。
可能。。 可能是放不下absolutmilo这个“品牌”
怎么说,也与我度过了多么多的欢乐与悲伤
进入了一段感情,然后也走出了。
同样的,与我庆祝了三个生日
是我成年的最好纪念。
Sunday, April 12, 2009
:: 2nd home ::
a person change.
absolutmilo.blogspot.com
it will be a site with few updates
more on my life
on a real Isaac
the new Isaac.
see you again, soon.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
:: suddenly ::
That W is not the W I know.
That my friends are all new and unfamiliar.
That I am young again.
That I was madly in love with this guy I met for the first time.
That I was a sports person playing a few sports.
That I was a great student awaiting to enter uni.
That I was soon going to be a radio presenter.
Soooo many dreams. It may be scary to think of it now.. But I think I secretly hope that most of them will some real.
(really, I had a dream and all the above happened.. Especially the part I was introduced to W, he had another Chinese name different from the one I know, I just can't remember wat it was in my dream.. Weird.. And tt someone whom I wanted to date and became my partner, all in the dream,, it was a looong long dream.. Yeah..)
Friday, April 10, 2009
::華人。華語。華文::
i have been feeling the urge to brush up on my mandarin and chinese
especially since i realise that most of the time when we talk and read
it is in english..
we often forget that we actually use mandarin unknowingly
but think that we normally only use English.
we only remember that we read the newspapers, blogs, internet articles, googles,
facebook, twitters and play games in English,
but we listen more to 933, watch channel 8/U/taiwan shows in mandarin/chinese.
what comes to my attention more is the fact that actually
the worrying thing to me is not speaking or listening to mandarin/chinese
but reading and writing chinese
because this will be a quintessential part of my next three years
(not forgetting working in a chinese media environment and living in china for up to a sem)
hearing and comprehending wat others say in chinese is not so much a problem
but reading and especially writing
i initially wanted to write this blog entry in Chinese using pinyin
but i realise i'm not very good at that because i grew up with using chinese in handwriting only
not on computers.. (even my days at fridayweekly, i was super slow always on the comp la!)
so now
i seriously need to brush up my chinese
and know the cuo bie zi(s)
and knwo which are the correct form of writing
and write in proper characters.
because i've not touched chinese officially for at least 5 years (after J1)
so it might be a challenge..
i don't want to lose to these kids who have been studying chinese for the past 10 years (pri+sec)
and i know i've bteer knowledge in the language
i super don't want to be laughed at with my poor command of the language
or for the lecturers to laugh at mefor cuo bie zi.
I know i used to give chinese tuition
but i guess i need chinese tuition now..
pass me the i-weekly/zaobao.. i shall start writing essays to zaobao again! Haha!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
:: danny yeo ::
A former YES 933 and ufm 1003 DJ, he currently blogs on omy.com and teaches at ngee ann poly.
He was a great dj. He speaks with knowledge and character. He is in a class of his own, a fantastic DJ, really. 很有深度,内涵,品味,态度的绅士。
He really is my 偶像! Super idolize him la. Registered for this course of Chinese media n communication partially because he's teaching (and also for my passion in Chinese AND mass comm).
I took a look at the unconfirmed timetable just released and yay, he will be teaching me Speech and Presentation Skills on Tuesdays from 2 to 6pm.. Haha..
Hope tt tt is true. Can't wait to attend his lessons. Bet it will b fun! Cool 毙了!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
:: 叶子 * 怀念阿桑 ::
姓名:阿桑 / Judy / 黄嬿璘性别:女
:: The Happy! Party Thanks You! ::
Once again, Thank You! For being part of my 23rd Birthday Party, the Happy party. In the midst of the rush rush 4 hours, I missed many opportunities to take much more photographs (Haha) and to make relevant speeches to thank my revered friends and sponsors.
The Happy! Party was the third party, as part of the Pure&Sexy Party series. Thank you to my old friends who have been to all three parties, and hope those who joined me for the first time enjoyed it as well! This year’s event was part of the ongoing Pink month, organised by 5-Degrees Network. It supports GLTB businesses in Singapore. Thank you 5-Degrees and its founder, Mr Willie Chan, for your staunch support for the event and generous sponsorship.
The birthday caps, as well as birthday presents for the other Birthday boy and girl was sponsored by 5-Degrees. Best dressed prizes for the attendees were especially provided by Urban Concepts Connections, which can be found at Cineleisure Orchard. The snack pack in the brown bags were provided by Canteen@P, a snack and drinks corner located at Tanjong Pagar Road, next to Play Club. Party Treats folders and the many items inside were mostly had made and designed by me and my friends Vincent Yeo and Melvin Lum, thank them for helping with the crafts, as well as 5-Degrees for the fund to purchase the materials. The handmade sweets from Sticky can be found at their shop at Central. Thanks to Sticky for the partial sponsorship of the sweets, as well as Marsh (found at Duxton Road) for the bottles. Book prizes for birthday babies were brought to you by Books Actually (on Ann Siang Hill). THANK YOU ALL who helped in a way or another! Thank for the generosity!
I also like to thank each and everyone for your attendance. To my Epiphany Friends, Dianne (and Kenneth), Cassandra, Shimin, Meryl, Michelle and Joseph. Thank you all for the memories and friendship in the past year. Great fun knowing you all! Hope you all had fun!
To Weilun and ChinHuat, thank you bros! See you all sooooon!
To 3238 people (the badminton clique!),Weizhi, Anderson, Ronnie, Roger, Sir Seng and Eugene, thank you all for being a pillar of support in the past years, especially the past year where I underwent a “turmoil”. Haha. You peeps are great people and hope this close knit friendship will last.. Thank you for being here.
To my Chestnuts, Julia, Jian Rong, Cheng Yee, Darius, Guan Yi, Hui Ting, Eunice, Zhiwei, Jonathan and Zhen Hui. You guys ROCK. Thank you thank you thank you! Thanks for being such great friends all these years and looking forward to many more meet ups which are going to be much more fun!
Thank you, and to all those who have exams around the corner, I wish you all the best. Hope to see you all soon!
Lots of Love, Hugs and Kisses,
Isaac [Happy! Boy]
P.S.: Do find selected pictures which you can use in the Happy! Poster or the Happy! Photo frame! in your postal mailbox within the next few days. There’s also door gift vouchers which I missed distributing that evening. Enjoy!
Monday, April 6, 2009
:: The Happy! Party 2009 ::
A BIG Thank You to all my friends who took the time out
to accompany me for the one evening
It was fun for me! Was really happy with the chit chats
wild games, food and photo takings...
thanks for the wonderful gifts as well
really.. your presence was what made my day complete!
I promise myself
i shall keep celebrating my birthday each year
plan for them myself with my friends.
however
from now.. i will no longer have such big parties
coz i tink too big v hard to connect to everyone..
but i will still have the parties.. no worries..
in fact..
i've somehow have plans for next year's party le!
Yup.. at least 2 different events for 2 groups le..
more atas than ever..
the BEST way to thank all my friends!!! YOU!!
i have loads to say, but for now..
i shall let the pictures do the talking.. look at these!!
3238/NTU/Badminton group..
ss.eugene.ron.roger.weizhi.andy.zac
the chestnuts
zhiwei.eunice.zhenhui.yihao.jianrong.julia.zac.darius.chengyee.huiting.guanyi
wat's left of my pj clan..
weilun.zac.chinhuatntu epiphany08/09 . revelations rock
zac.joseph.kenneth.meryl.michelle.cassandra.dianne.shimin
epiphany best dresses . michelle fun who stays on happy avenue!
3238 best dressed . ker hang
More pictures all uploaded on Facebook..
look out in your postal mailbox for more surprises!!
see u all sooooon!!!
:: Its gonna be a HOT WINTER! 热冬 ::
Haha.. I love gyms too.. Nice place to ogle.. Muahaha..
Its really no wonder Jolin's new song is SOOO targetted at queers! So many songs are suited for us la.. gyms.. no boyfriend only real man.. evolve into butterfly.. love like parachute.. u happy me internally injured.. soooo many..
anyways.. here's the lyrics for 热冬..
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气候暖化我的心却在冬眠 桃花少到比北极熊还可怜
周末夜也没有半通手机来电 跑步机前才找到养眼画面
不必再control 不必ㄍㄧㄣ爱错回收 看对眼直接行动 这一季将是热冬
当对的你出现会有暖化感觉 在雪花消失前只想和你热恋
热情的拥抱冰山也会溶解 当爱点燃整个冬天
it's gonna be a hot winter a hot hot winter hot winter a hot hot gonna be a
hot winter a hot hot winter hot hot hot hot ...
地球暖化前要去不丹花园 别想南极企鹅孤单在冰原
健身房不该变成相亲地点 满身大汗哪还有浪漫空间
:: 花蝴蝶 ::
only want to be pretty
I have evolved
and am still constantly
evolving....
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花蝴蝶 歌手:蔡依林
环游了世界全世界
却发现美丽没有旗舰店
谁穿着钉鞋不肯变
停止了自转变成一个茧
你我都希望特别
又不敢太过于特别 yeah
流行是一种安全
搔着闷骚的太阳穴
你是花花世界里限量版的花花蝴蝶
美女们只是比较豁出去比较敢一点
花蝴蝶的美的艳的炫若没三审定谳
那些路人甲们凭什么发言惹人讨厌
快离开冬眠赶快破茧
别被无聊困在地球表面
想灵魂出窍甩平凡嘴脸
就自创品牌靠自己变脸
当你不刻意特别
突然就会变得特别 yeah
只要别越描越黑
你的眼睛就会放电
你可以瞬间飞去东京巴黎米兰纽约
别让别人嘴里的形容词左右你视野
如果有人的魅力足够为这世纪代言
那是她敢站出来变成蝴蝶飞舞翩翩
那些路人甲们凭什么发言惹人讨厌(准备惊艳)
你可以身穿花花限量的花蝴蝶
你可以比你想象中再爱炫再敢一点
你可以自己决定没得最后三审定谳
你可以让路人甲闭嘴惊艳
Thursday, April 2, 2009
:: 妥协 ::
所有改变 只为了进入 你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍
才发现 是你的心太野
你 画定楚河汉界 我 不能轻犯规
所有时间 都是先给了 你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险 成了你的傀儡
一年 两年 才看见 我有多狼狈
爱到妥协 到头来还是无解
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒 我躲在我的 世界
你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解 不会变 不再徘徊
开始自己的明天
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
:: 5 Ms ::
Just learnt of this, which I tink is quite farny..
The 5 Ms of Mat Rokers..
Minah . Marlboro . Motosikal . Metal . Maintain Balan..
If no, sure Mati. Farny siol!
:: photos and reflections ::
http://roychiu.livejournal.com
Do look over there too! All new April.